
"Fall, today's tumben go home spit, usually also overtime right?" Thella wondered why Naufal had suddenly invited her home sooner than usual.
Now the handsome man was just sitting next to her accompanying Thella watching her favorite Korean drama. Rather than just wine, Thella made Naufal's shoulder a pillow.
"It would be wrong if I wanted to spend time with you? I'd like to accompany you once in a while to watch, can't I?" Fall answered with a relaxed Thella question.
She wanted to reduce her busy time to accompany Thella at home. Given he was in a period of improvement.Naufal should be able to restore some of Thella's lost cheer.
"Alright, I'm glad you intend to accompany me on a hobby. But there should be no need to force yourself. I know, a lot of your work isn't done yet." Thella was quite happy Fall had time for her. But he did not want to, Fall would lose his own happiness to make him happy, even though it was a natural thing.
"I've brought home files that I haven't been able to work on. I can work on it later. Time is still long Thella. There are many things I want to change for the good of both of us. One of them is my work hours. I want to be able to spend a lot of time with you, what do you think?"
Naufal realized that his time was very limited for Thella. Previously, he lived alone, of course he could manage time for himself, now he was both, the possibility he had to change his habits little by little. especially later when they were three, now he had to change his habits, there will be plenty of time for her little family.
At the beginning, it might all be a little difficult, but over time he will get used to it. Like when he started out as a workaholic, it was hard at first, but over time, he was able to adjust to the situation and run everything well.
"I'm happy with the change steps you've taken.But can you do everything like this? You like your habits so much. I'm not forcing you to change either. I'm afraid you're uncomfortable. Don't do it if you're feeling heavy going through it,"
Thella realized, she did not want to curb Naufal. He greatly appreciated all that became good habits in Naufal. He doesn't feel at a disadvantage anyway. But she appreciated her husband's decision.
"I made this decision with a lot of considerations. I want to have a lot of time to be with you, at home, not at work. Like now, you can do your favorite thing with me. Are you happy you can do this?"
It is also true of Naufal. She wanted to be with her husband in addition to working. Dizziness too, every day only saw Naufal with a serious face in front of his laptop all day. Initially Thella picur, if one office there can be time to talk or a slightly romantic situation. In reality, he could only see the serious face of Naufal which made him a little bored. They even seem to not know each other.
"If you're willing to change, I appreciate whatever your choices are. As long as you're comfortable, I'll be very happy."
"Thella.. Look at me,"
Thella followed what Fall wanted. He stopped the play and looked at Fall seriously.
"What's wrong?"
"From now on, we begin another new chapter. We learn to forget what we've been through.Remove sadness and replace it with.happiness. You should know that I'm doing all this for the good of our relationship" Fall said very seriously. He hopes that all the steps Naufal takes are the best steps to restart a sweet relationship.
"Are you serious?"
"So seriously, you want to start again? we're repeating everything from the beginning,"
"Starting with you?"
"No need to repeat my fear. Strange, if it's this good, I have to go back to angering you. I can't do that. Just like the drama, "Naufal was amused at the thought of having to repeat ridiculous events when they were married at the time.
"When it was easy to do it, why can't you now? Wasn't that just pretending? so that I don't feel at home continue to leave you, right?"
Thella protested against Naufal's treatment when he first became his wife. At that time Naufal did deliberately treat Thella like that, so that Tela did not feel at home and left him. But in reality, the woman actually survived until now, even making Noval fall in love with him.
"I thought you were the same as my other boyfriend. You will love my wealth and my wealth. But you are different. You can win my heart in a short time. Especially your attention, I was very weak when noticed like that. Because in my life, only you who understand and pay attention to me even my own mother is not that careful"
Only he can be like that. Her mother never worried about her until she was like Thella, who was willing to wait for her to fall asleep. In fact, fidgeting and crying when he came back did not match his usual working hours.
"Already Naufal, do not remember the bitter past. You said, we open a new leaf. Our hearts do not need to look back. Now, we live our lives ahead. May our life in the future be better than our present, soon to get booed and our life happy without anyone else to scold us again"
Thella tries to remind Naufal of his decision to open a new page and forget about the old one in his life. If life looks back, it will never be erased. Until anytime, inevitably we have to forget what we have passed. So that everything is enough to be a lesson without having to look back. What has happened is used as a lesson for us to move forward without the need to look at it again.
"You're right, I've forgotten what I was supposed to do. I told myself never to remember the past, but in reality I still remember it. I want to thank you, for being a part of my life. From now on we both step forward by fixing everything"
In this world there is no perfect life story, there are only complementary to each other so that each deficiency can be covered by the advantages of each.
In domestic life, everything is not always easy. There will be many obstacles, such as pebbles on the road, as well as thorns, and even stones. We just need to get rid of it slowly so that we can walk unhindered.
"What if we go to the lake at the end of the week? I have a place, not a place of recreation. There is a lake located on the edge of a small forest, where we can take a boat and tour the lake. I want us to carve out the memories there and eliminate everything we've been through these last few weeks"
Of course Naufal would agree to what Thella suggested. Because of him, these few days are a lot of days that are passed with weight and make a little stress.
Who knows by going for a walk they will be happier than now and everything will be better in the future
" If I'm honest, I like a little stress because of all the problems we're having. Perhaps by going to the lake, we can slowly remove one problem at a time that is present in our lives these days. How do you feel better than yesterday?"
Naufal was worried that Thella was still in a phase of excessive stress. Remembering him who still rarely laughed these few days. Naufal felt Thella was not his usual wife. He was more moody and aloof even far different from what he knew.
" I might just need a little rest, after a break it's quite possible I could be as usual. I'm sorry I may seem unusual about acting like this. But I'm honestly still sad about losing our baby. If at that time I did not go swimming, surely he is still in my stomach, right until now? You must be happy, we just wait for his birth and also prepare a name for him. We must be wondering now, whether he is a boy or a girl. But it turns out that reality is not as beautiful as that we have to lose what we expected all this time."
Without feeling the tears Thella dripped in memory of her lost baby candidate. He tried his hardest not to cry. Doesn't look tough but in reality she's not that strong she's fragile and she's not willing to let go of her fetus.
The presence of a baby is not just Naufal's desire. But she also wants to be a mother. In his large house, it will feel crowded when there is a baby between the two of them. But the harsh reality had to be taken for granted, the baby was gone before she even knew she was pregnant.
Maybe people think that he is too hopeful to have a child, but Thella is sure what she wants is normal. But he also . Perhaps, he did not deserve that great gift yet. he still has to be patient again and wait one day to have someone who as expected at that time he already deserves to be that person.
Same with Thella, Fall also felt the same loss but he could not behave as sad as Thella there. Because he is a man. He wanted to try to calm Thella, if she was also sad, then who would strengthen her. That's why it should be stronger
"I'm sure losing our son is sad, but we don't have this choice. It's fate that he hilqng and he's gone. Let's just pray that he is calm there and one day welcomes us with a smile"
" I'm also sad and feeling lost, but I realize it's not entirely the fault of the person who has harmed you. Everything is destined like that, hopefully in the future there will be a miracle for us and we can pass it well"
Naufal was already a little breastfed and accepted all the events that had happened to them. He thought that, when he always regretted it would never make it all back to the beginning, Everything that had happened could never happen again.
"You're right Fal, we have to accept this reality with all our heart. God has prepared something much better than this. If we are too protracted in the sadness that exists we will find it difficult to continue our lives in the future again home to get pregnant again I also need a mind that is more Relax than now"
Thella wants to refocus on her second pregnancy. Maybe not too soon but at least they think everything from now on everything is preparatory he hopes his efforts will pay off.
"Fall..."
"What?"
"May I hug you?"
"Why should I ask? Please hug, as long as possible,"
" I just want to feel the calm. In fact these few days there are many things that make my mind become dizzy. But I was just trying to keep quiet and hope this problem solved on its own but it couldn't and remains a burden on the mind"
" Fall I want you to be honest with me, in fact you love me for who I am or just because you need someone to pay attention to you. Do you think I'm not good enough? Even though you said that repeatedly but why am I still not sure once I would be more sure if you said,"
" I know compared to you, I'm far from perfect. Even my appearance was initially very disheveled and tomboyish because it was indeed my trademark. But I'm happy that after getting to know you, at least I'm looking like a girl like never before. Many changes in my life that also make me love you more"
Naufal took a deep breath, repeatedly getting the same question from Thella. Apparently his wife was still doubting the sincerity of his feelings all along and he thought that Naufal loved him for something and could not be expressed in words, actually that was also the reason, that was the reason, why can't Naufal let him go.
"My answer remains the same. I love you for who you are. It's because you're very considerate and it was the beginning where I fell in love with you, but it was all just the beginning and now I really love you. I don't want to be separated from you, I want to be with you until death do us both part"
"We're the same, right? You also brought a lot of changes in my life and I also, on the contrary, brought changes to your life. We both bring change to each other"
" Tonight you want to go to the bar that we first met. I don't know why I suddenly wanted to come there, some kind of reunion or maybe reminisce about the first time we met again huh"
" I want to dance again. At that time we did it because we were forced and did not know each other. I want this time we dance romantically, with our new feelings, lovingly, certainly will be more beautiful than at that time"
" All right I'm ready. I also want to repeat everything. That fall was the most unique encounter of my life, for the first time there was someone who suddenly came and proposed to me without a ring and forced me to be his bride in a state that did not know each other."
" I even cursed and got upset at youx because you suddenly like that with arrogance you just came and went. Even you also forbid me to go home just to accompany you dancing it was the strangest activity in my opinion what the hell was on your mind at that time?"
" I didn't have a partner at the time and I happened to be a friend of mine playing truth or dare and challenged me to propose to you and make you my wife. Well, I use all of you to accompany me to dance, rather than me being alone, it's better to dance with unknown people, right?"
" Oh, so you're using me? Pantes aja you to prevent me like that. Keep about you already know everything about me that's a fact or just a hoax? you know all about my work?"
"Although that's actually what I can do, it's all a lie. Because I found out about you that night from Tommy and it's just your name and where you live. About work and others I don't know anything it's all just ekting for the challenge to work, I'm sorry yes"
Naufal laughed as he felt ridiculous over the incident back then. Why the two of them were met in an uncomfortable situation, did not know each other and suddenly had to be like that married in a short time.
" But ever since I said be my bride, I felt a different vibe. From that moment on, I felt like there was something special. But I don't know what. It was the night after coming home from the bar, I always remembered your face, your rejection, your words, everything until I couldn't sleep"
"When we fit clothes and you have to buy clothes in the middle of the road. I was actually observing you back then. Very graceful when wearing that shirt, I was fascinated. It's just that I pretend not to care when you're near me and I pretend to be ignorant"
" You're evil, even you insulted me said you look too bad and it's not appropriate to hang out next to you and I was just like a babu back then I was so upset that I wanted to feel like I'd slap your face."
Thella recalled the first time Naufal had picked her up, with a honking sound so many times that she insulted her babu-like appearance in a very annoying style.
" I know you're upset until you pout. But somehow it became something special for me to see you like that and keep giving up making my feelings I changed little by little. From the little by little attention it eventually became love until it became what it is today,"
It was then that I felt very happy, when I saw Thella pouting and disliking her arrogant act, she felt victorious and managed to play the woman.
" Yeah, I know you're in charge so I'm scared and planning to run away one day leaving you. Didn't know that I ended up actually falling in love with you and surviving to this day I guess our relationship will end soon,"
In wishful thinking never expected to continue her marriage relationship with Naufal and she did not expect it to continue to this day.
"Even then you didn't want to touch me at all when I fell over while putting a tie around my neck for the first time to throw me away violently I thought you weren't normal"
after saying that, Thella laughed out loud. He was sure that Naufal must have been very upset, because he heard his confession, but thought that Naufal was abnormal was a fact.
"Not normal? You mean I like the same kind? You are bad, but I have never been like that. I just need a good moment to do it. I also didn't know where to start, until I got dizzy thinking about it. If I don't do it, I'm afraid you're leaving me, but if I do, don't know where to start. Until I thought about it for days before I finally somehow had the power from where to see you welcome me in a different way to that nightgown,"
Naufal remembered, when he came home from the office in welcoming him in clothes that were so appetizing that he could not help himself.
"So if I don't do that trick, you still won't do it with me?"
" So that's kamun's trick? Who taught you that? It's good with that trick that we can finally start a life really as a couple"
"I was invited just to buy a nightgown, it was she who chose it for me. Maybe if he hadn't helped me so much everything would never have happened,"
" You're right, my best friend is good. He has helped our relationship to this day. Also yesterday when we had a storm on my ex, Vanya also advised me to be patient with you"
Thella was happy even though Naufal had just been met by Vanya, but it turned out that Vanya was willing to give him advice. Pantesan Naufal just kept silent by resignedly sleeping on the sofa at that time.
" He's my best friend, all this time I haven't found anyone more sincere than him. He is my best friend when I am happy or difficult. He never hesitated to be the front man supporting me."
" I'm glad you have a best friend. May your friendship continue at any time. Thella let's take a nap, I'm sleepy for a long time and I want to sleep with you"
" began deh panjanya Yes I have already temenin gendong first"
"so who's spoiled now?"
"maybe it's me, Fall..."