
When the heart and mind are as clear as dew and as bright as the sun, the body that feels pain is as if it is endocrine not to feel anything and fine in carrying out daily activities.
And vice versa.when the heart and mind are struggling like a tangled thread that is so difficult to straighten back.healthy bodies also feel weak and empty to live the day.
Today felt so heavy for Safi to live.power of mind and heart was quite drained with what had been the center of his attention.
The center of his attention at the end of this was fixed on a dream that had been present several times adorning his sleep.
The dream that made Safi can return to remember the past that she had forgotten besides her mother and sister.
The dream where Safi learns the fact that there is another woman she had promised to marry before she had an accident to bring Safi to meet the family bah iman.the person who had helped her when stranded due to a plane accident the one he was riding a year ago.
And also the dream that made him afraid to lose the woman who had now filled the empty space in his heart.
For more than thirty years Safi lived in this world but only now does she feel how she wants a woman to herself fully to accompany her life.
Yes Naima has trapped Safi in a sense called love that Safi has never felt in another woman as much as she feels in Naima.
However, his promise he ever said to marry an orphaned girl who was always dizolimi by his uncle made Safi feel a very dilemma.
Where a man will be held the responsibility in fulfilling all the promises he has said.Safi also remember if he protects the woman he wants to protect by promising her marriage on paper by asking Rasya for help to he was involved in protecting the beautiful girl.
It feels like asking Rasya the younger sister to marry a beautiful hijab named nissa.The poor girl who has always been a tool for her uncle to get more money after the calculation of the cost of raising and giving her education.
but Safi knows Nissa is far from the beautiful girl who has always been the girlfriend of the sister who looks fashionable and has a fairly wide association and Nissa certainly is not included in the criteria of her dream woman.
And now in the tenement room that has been a few months he occupied, Safi looks very tired with everything that disturbs his mind especially about Naima.
Always ringing in his ears when the girl adored his heart firmly mention that Naima will never want to hope anything before Safi is sure that there is no woman in his past that he forgot and of course Naima will leave if you find out that there is a woman in her place is waiting for the return of the man she loves to fulfill her promise to marry.
Dilemma, that is what Safi is feeling and sometimes sneaky whispers tell her to forget her promise anyway it was more than a year ago and better fight for the love that is now in sight.
But if Naima can accept her decision to forget her promise.what if Safi insists on bringing Naima to meet with her mother and sister arrived Nissa and her uncle came to account for the promise he once said.
But it was also felt pity when remembering what if the agreement was violated Darsa then married Nissa with a married man to satisfy his lust for money?
“ Aaakh”geram Safi frustrated and made himself prefer to lay down his body that feels weak and slow the effects of the dilemma that continues to plague his mind and heart.
With clothes still wearing sarongs and t-shirts because Safi had just performed the dzuhur prayer.now Safi sleeps exhausted.has to think of all the fear of losing Naima and pity on Nissa who mixed into one.
As if knowing if Safi did not intend to tell Naima the truth about Nissa.Mimpi Nissa who was asking for help often approached Safi and made Safi feel even more sorry for the girl kind-hearted who has always been the target of greedy humans like his uncle Darsa.
And now Darsa's cruelty culminates when he asks his nephew to leave the person he was with .indeed Safi saw the figure of Rasya in it.but as if in doubt with the responsibility that Safi gave to Rasha.safi also continued to watch over nissa and unconsciously when Nissa was about to be taken by force by darsa.safi muttered calling the name of the poor girl that was until he realized there was a very tight door knock and of course awakened Safi to the dream he had just experienced.
Safi immediately got out of her sleep after being stunned to hear a knock on the door that made her wake up from her nightmare.
Immediately Safi opened the door that had been knocked several times and found that pa ustad had been standing in front of the door of his room with a face that looked anxious.
“ You're okay!?” ask pa ustad immediately when he saw the figure of Safi behind the door that had opened.
With a tired face and sweat running down his forehead, Safi answered a puzzled question pa ustad
“ Ti not pa, Thank God I am fine” replied Safi stammered
“ Thank goodness if you're okay.but I heard you calling by name, I thought you were delirious “ asked pa ustad still curious.
“ Oh that,,,” Safi sighed harshly and finally allowed pa ustad to enter his rented house which was only a patch.
“ please enter first pa ustad,mumpung already here stop by first “ in the end Safi let pa ustad in.
“ sorry,I accidentally passed after coming home from surau then suddenly heard you call someone.Even many times make me worried and I decided to knock on the door and make sure you are fine “ said pa Ustadz explained after sitting on Safi's plastic carpet.
“ Pa ustad new home Dzuhur prayer !?” Safi asked confused
“ Dzuhur prayer what, this is in time ashar “ pa ustad reminded Safi
“ astagfirulloh, sorry pa ustad, I think pa ustad just returned home praying dzuhur.tadi after I came from surau, I felt exhausted until I unconsciously fell asleep “ Safi said.
“ but you really are okay!?” pa Ustad again ascertained the state of foreign men who had made him feel affectionate like his own sister.
Safi just shook her head slowly and saw a faint smile on her lips .it is clear by pa ustad from the face of his interlocutor that something is blocking his heart so that makes the mind of a foreign man in front of him disturbed.feel Safi is in need of people to talk to,pa Ustad ventured to ask something he believed was a personal matter.
“ end of this I always dreamed about my past “
“ Then, have you remembered everything !?”ask pa ustad back when feeling Safi began to be able to pour out his heart to him.
“ I had a plane crash heading home from KL a few weeks before I was getting married “ Safi replied
“ so, in addition to your mother and sister, there are women waiting for your return !?” telisik pa ustad
“ Perhaps you could say so “ replied Safi doubtfully.
In addition to the family bah iman.only pa ustad who know the ins and outs about Safi until when Safi looks less healthy,pa usatadlah the most worried after the family bah iman.even pa ustad had kissed the gelagat Safi and Naima who mutually harbored each other.
“ is good if you already remember everything, but it seems like something is bothering you.what is it all about Naima!?” ask ustad to guess
There was no answer from Safi's mouth, only a twitch of her shoulders and a confused face that Safi displayed on pa ustad and made pa ustad sure that his guess about Safi's feelings on Naima was true.
“ have you spoken to Naima and her family if you have recalled your time then !?” ask pa ustad
“ Not yet pa ustad, I doubt “answer Safi cover
“ doubt or fear !?” pa Ustad returned to guessing and this time followed with a faint smile on the top corner of his lips
Safi smiled wryly at the question pa ustad while scratching the nape of his neck that did not itch
Without them both knowing, behind the door that returned Safi closed after allowing pa ustad to enter,there was a girl who heard their conversation that made the girl's heart feel very stupefied when she heard the fact that this foreign man who for more than a year had made her fall in heart had recalled the time his past and what made him feel sick was, there was another woman waiting for him to come home.
Of course the lucky woman who will get a man as good as Safi who has made Naima fall in love even as fall.
Naima knows,his heart had been anticipated long before he would know the truth.but this is what is always called reality does not match expectations.pain that he believes will be held back when he knows there are other women in the past Safi was not that easy to throw.
Safi's charm that is able to melt Naima's fortress to not love him is destroyed already.and now when knowing the truth that happened crowded Naima's chest hit and unknowingly tears that Naima could not bear out of her beautiful eyes finally escaped her smooth cheeks that she rarely coated make up.
With a throbbing heart of pain and shaky steps, Naima decides to leave Safi's rented tenement without informing her parents' mandate to ask Safi to come to her house for dinner considering that Bu Arum did not have time to make the food they usually sent to her Safi because Bu Arum had to go and visit Zaki's hospital.
“ safi already notified Ima!? “ ask faith in his daughter when she sees him back
Naima shook her head slowly then said “ bang safinya ga” answered Naima briefly
“ where !?” ask Bu Arum
Naima just put her shoulders down with a sad face and left her parents in her room to avoid the next question that Naima believed would still be very long and would be too tiring for the state of her ailing heart.
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