My name is Oddie

Episode 1 - I have no regrets

My name is Oddie I was born and raised in the city of Yogyakarta, this story began when I was 16 years old and at that time I was still sitting in the 2nd grade of High School, I first dated and lost my crown as a woman, but I have no regrets.

And this is my story.

My morning routine as a student as usual went to school and study, which always took me to school was mama, and I love papa and mama the most because I'm the only – child in this family but I also feel constrained.

Before leaving for the office mom always took the time to take me first to school and when I came home from school I was just picked up by a driver.

But today the one who took me home from school wasn't the driver I used to be but my mom, by the time on the way home our car arrived – arrived broken and fortunately there was a workshop not far from where we stopped.

Mama immediately told me to go call one of the employees in the workshop to fix our car.

We waited for a while and Mama talked to the workshop owner, but I don't know what she was talking about, maybe a cost issue or something.

In this place my eyes are on an employee like he is young and also handsome, my feeling he is one of the students in the campus not far away

from this.

I did not stop to see him who is so deft at work and I also smile – smile myself saw him.

And shortly after that he looked at me unintentionally, our eyes looking at each other and he smiled at me, I immediately returned her smile and my heartbeat felt like it was beating faster than usual.

He walked up to me and said if there was anything he could help, I was nervous and replied “it was done kak” with a trembling tone while pointing towards the car.

This is the first time I've spoken to the opposite sex and the first time I've met other than papa and a boy friend at school.

I saw him smile at me up close, my god it's true – makes my heart beat faster, he's also very sweet when smiling, too, with a handsome face and high posture and he has a flat stomach, I think he is perfect as a male – male.

He asked me “you what class.?”, have not had time to answer mama saw me and immediately called me, saw the expression of mama I know that mama is not happy.

I just said to the brother that "mama call, I go first, brother."

During my time in the car my mom scolded me not to hang out and talk to people who are not clear and careless especially only with people who have a standard job, my mama always sees people from the outside view, but I think all the work is the same and still get money even though it is different in value.

Mama has told you that if the heart – hearts, you also have to be able to different people and do not just chat carelessly with people who are not clear, you also have to be able to different people and do not just chat carelessly with people who are not clear, what else with the look of a thug who aut – uat'an is not clear like that, and he also seems to have no future, look at his seedy clothes so, you even chat with him. “Mama oddie”

Speak in a high and condescending tone

Brother just wanted to nawarin what can be helped, was he a workshop employee it also so reasonable ma. “oddie”

Trying to justify himself in front of his mother

You do not argue mama, you must obey what mama said, why not talk clearly using a smile – smile all, you think mama does not see. “mama oddie”

During the car mama always angry – angry at me get home, I did not listen to it and my ears are already immune because almost every day mama talk and arrange me, I have to, I even often think that mama is not a darling but restrain me I like in chains.

Mama always wanted me to be the perfect kid and be what she wanted to be.

I just follow what mama says, otherwise I will always hear the word – said mama, I am tired of all this.

Even I often tried to end my life but always failed even I was tired of trying to kill myself, I don't know why.?  Maybe God still told me to stay alive.

With the incident I was going through I expected mama to loose a little against me, but mama was getting overprotective and it made me even more suffocating.

Only tania, he always helped and embraced me, he not only became a friend but also a parent to me, who always heard I was just a farmer.

Arriving at home I went straight to the bathroom and calmed down, I tried to forget all the words of my mother.

At first glance, the image of the brother that was in my mind, I immediately smiled, and instantly my mood returned to normal.

Ahhh if not because mama called maybe I will chat longer with brother earlier, even I did not have time to get acquainted, why did I not ask his name first,? (thinking)