My Best Happiness Is With You.

SUFFERING AND PAIN

Eun Dan looked at Nia who was also staring at him after peeping, her eyes reddened unable to stem her tears anymore, her tears of warm money began to flow on both sides of her white cheeks, she said, Nia rubbed Eun Dan's tears the last one flowing.

"Why does it suddenly feel so crowded here!" Said Eun Dan holding her left chest with her right hand

"I'm sorry... I'm not supposed to start" replied Nia then let go of Eun Dan's hand which was holding her chest slowly, Nia then sat on Eun Dan's thigh and then gently hugged her.

Nia's face rests on Eun Dan's left chest in a sideways position with her left hand holding Eun Dan's right chest, Eun Dan automatically adjusts to Nia's position, the tears of the two began to stop flowing the state became so silent that even the television was lit as if it did not make any sound anymore.

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"Oppa..." Nia in silence

"Emm?"

"Do you know why I want to marry you?"

"No"

"I didn't initially know the reason behind it either... But... Later in Indonesia I started thinking about it... And I found the answer... The answer is very simple... It's because I want to get closer to you and be by your side... I don't want to see you cry like it was at your last concert... I don't feel sorry for you I just want to be by your side even if one day you come back crying like that again I'll be there and calm you down, I can hold you and cry with you"

"Whatever reason you accept me... Very grateful to you... I might not exist anymore if you reject me... I lasted two years because I had the hope that one day I would be able to be with you and I ventured to get you... If only you had rejected me I would have no reason to live"

"I'm so happy that someone loves me so much more than his life... But you shouldn't think about nothing... What about your family... Your fans... And maybe you'll find someone you'll like more than me... If I reject you and you choose to die, I will be cursed by people all over the world... And your family will hate me... Is that what you want?

"Of course not... Besides you accept I didn't reject me"

They go back to silence and do not talk, Nia's hand falls off Eun Dan's shoulder, it makes Eun Dan check on Nia and find the woman in her arms was asleep.

"He's asleep?!" Said Eun Dan slowly

Eun Dan turns off the television and holds Nia to their room, after laying Nia down, Eun Dan goes to the other side of the mattress and lies down, Eun Dan continues to look at his sleeping wife, she then lifted Nia's head and placed it over her left arm, Nia wriggled and twisted her body towards Eun Dan then directly hugged her, the cold night feels so warm Eun Dan begins to fall asleep with hope that she will age with Nia and raise their children.

The next day when Eun Dan had left for work Nia felt very bored and did not know what to do, she still continued to lie on the sofa while staring at the television, her manyun face was so noticeable that if she was very bored, she then suddenly got up and turned off the television, Nia decided to clean such a big house by herself.

"I can do it... I've done this a lot before" said Nia who started cleaning.

Nia decided to sweep all the rooms first, starting from their room, while sweeping Nia also tidying up and rearranging the room, Nia continued with the tv room and then went to the living room, Nia rested for a while because she was feeling very tired, after a few breaks she went back to clean the other two rooms that were downstairs, she said, after finishing Nia went upstairs to clean the other two-room room that was there, the house does not have a floor separation between the first floor and the second floor so as to make the house look more spacious.

The last room that Nia cleaned was the library, after finishing cleaning Nia was very tired and lying on the bed that was in the room.

"I've always wondered why he put the bed in this huge library... It's very convenient..."

Nia who was busy cleaning did not realize that the day was late, Nia did not seem to think she would go downstairs, she fell asleep without realizing that Eun Dan had just come home, Eun Dan enters the house but does not find Nia anywhere, she is unthinkable upstairs at all, Eun Dan then contacts Nia, nia's phone rings but Eun Dan is disappointed that she found her phone on the desk in the tv room.

Eun Dan, who is feeling very anxious trying to calm herself down and maybe Nia is out, Eun Dan goes to the kitchen and opens the fridge to grab a drink, while drinking she realizes that her previous room has a change, to make sure Eun Dan returns to the room and their room is completely rearranged, he then looked around and thought that the possibility of Nia cleaning up the house today, the first thing he thought of was upstairs, Eun Dan hastily climbs the stairs and opens the door to the first room she meets, but she does not find Nia, upstairs there is also a special room where he used to practice and when he wanted to write songs, but he didn't find it either, he looked at the next room but didn't find Nia, either, Eun Dan is so desperate her eyes start to glaze over and blush with hope that Nia will be in the library.

Eun Dan opens the library door feeling bitter, she is afraid that she will not find Nia there, Eun Dan enters slowly in the library and looks around, his feet suddenly limp to see Nia who fell asleep on the bed, his feelings were so mixed, bitter, anxious, afraid, and angry, he said, Eun Dan was no longer able to support her body and fell down with her knees hitting the floor, the sound of the impact made Nia wake up from her sleep, she found her husband was kneeling and down while crying there, seeing that Nia immediately approached Eun Dan with a feeling of anxiety.

"Why? You all right?" Nia held her husband's face

"I think something happened to you!" Said Eun Dan who began to shed her tears.

"I'm cleaning up today! Because I'm too tired to fall asleep here.... Sorry I don't even know what time it is.... Stop crying..."

"Don't disappear without telling me"

"I didn't disappear"

"Please promise me you won't disappear!"

"All right I promise" Nia then hugged Eun Dan who kept crying

Nia really didn't expect that Eun Dan would cry like that just because she couldn't find him, Eun Dan's body was still shaking in Nia's arms, even though she was still shaking, her crying did not subside even though Nia kept asking her to stop and promised not to do the same. Eun Dan's heart is so broken, it may be in the view of Nia Eun Dan is so excessive because she loves him too much, but when she can't find Nia today, Eun Dan reminisces about a time when she couldn't find Nia two years ago, he even had to wait two years to meet Nia with courage, Eun Dan who was initially devastated decides to get her life back and she doesn't want what she's fighting to go away from her anymore.

"I don't want you to disappear without telling me" Eun Dan said in Nia's arms

"I won't disappear I promise you!"

"I love you so much... I can't live without you... So I beg you.... Don't go"

Nia did not answer Eun Dan's words and she just hugged her tighter, she might not feel how much suffering her husband felt, but he wanted to make the suffering and pain disappear at any cost. That night Eun Dan was much stickier than usual, it made Nia wonder if something like this would last her entire life and not fade with time.