My beloved the Good Devil

Blessing or Disaster?

If only Rania had not received a recommendation from a teacher to work in a private company in Jakarta. Maybe all these painful things wouldn't happen in Rania's life if she didn't work there. As an independent person, Rania was very excited to work at that time. After getting permission from her parents and her brother and sister, Rania immediately applied for a job at a place recommended by her teacher. Rania qualified and could work there starting in 2011. Work in private companies even in the pantry and canteen. He rented a simple room to be a place to stay during work. Rania is happy to be able to send money every month to her parents and help pay for her sister's school.

The past that Rania could not regret anymore because the present reality must be faced. Earlier this morning Gavin was furious and committed violence again to Rania. The woman, who has dimples on her face, rarely comes out of contract for fear that people will question her about the scars of violence that always appear on her face.

Gavin usually takes breakfast, then leaves for the office. But this morning there was no breakfast for Rania. Gavin asks her to eat the available instant noodles or just drink milk and eat plain bread.

“Duh, it's ten o'clock. Had eaten bread and milk, now he was hungry again. Patience, Deck. Later Papiimu will definitely go home and take lunch if you are not angry,” said softly Rania while stroking her stomach that began to grow.

Actually, Gavin is very attentive if he is not angry. In fact, several times Gavin invited Rania to eat meat dishes like Rania had always wanted during pregnancy. ‘Ngidam’ the term Java people call it because Rania is not a woman who is picky food just that when pregnant she has difficulties.

Rania recalled the first time she showed the results of a three-week-old fetal ultrasound on Gavin. It was not a good memory for Rania as Gavin reacted beyond reason. Precisely during the day of the incident when Rania reached Jakarta took a trip from Semarang to meet Gavin. The man immediately booked a room at a five-star hotel for Rania's rest.

“Pii ...”

“Iya, what Dear?”

“I'm pregnant ...”

“Hah?! Joking lu?!” Gavin was wide-eyed and surprised to look at Rania.

“I'm serious ...” Rania presented the results of the ultrasound and examination letter from the obstetrician.

Gavin snatched the results of the examination and stared intently at Rania. “Have you tried drinking soda or alcohol? Eat young pineapple?”

Rania is surprised by Gavin's seemingly cornered answer to destroy the fruit of their love. Rania shook her head slowly. Not want to do that.

Rania understood and still shook her head slowly. “Do not, Pii. This is our son. The fruit of our love. I love you really, not just toys. I'm not gonna do that. We've sinned a lot by doing that before marriage, so I don't want to add any more sins, ” said Rania who started crying.

I don't know what Gavin was thinking. The man hugged Rania's body tightly. “Darling, don't cry. Yes, yes, we'll think about that ... Now, Pii is very much the same Mii. We have not met for two weeks ...” whispered Gavin again seduced Rania to be a mere gratifier. Again and again, that sweet mouth hypnotized Rania to be willing to do anything.

Rania is always resigned because she does not know what Gavin does just because of the desire of the flesh, not based on love. Sincere love only in fairy tales, never Rania felt. Gavin is Rania's first love and brings all her sins. The man who had become a widower with two children was only using an innocent young woman as his wish satisfaction.

From the beginning, Gavin did not want a child from Rania. Besides the matter of ‘troubles’, Gavin is also not actually as rich as he showed people. Gavin was one at his parents' house. His parents had several businesses that could be considered quite successful, while Gavin worked in the company as the head of administration that has many people. That makes Gavin easy to find ‘mangsa’ young women who are still innocent and innocent.

“God, may I ask for one thing ... Strengthen me to face this for the sake of the child I bear. Forgive me for making so many mistakes, don't punish my son who doesn't know anything,” Og Rania in the room who again grieves if you remember the past. Why did Rania not believe her father's words saying that Gavin was not a good man for her? Love is blind and deaf.

Rania has been looking for a job in Jakarta, but every prospective boss knows that Rania is pregnant, must be banned from working and failed to get a job. Gavin was often angry about it. Economic matters. Moreover, the rent in Jakarta is not cheap, a month must spend seven hundred and fifty thousand to pay for the minimalist house. Not to mention the cost of living and eating, Gavin long tired of thinking about all those responsibilities and trying to get off the hands of Rania.

Actually Rania already felt that Gavin would just let go of himself. Moreover, the wedding is postponed for many reasons even though Gavin has held a prewedding with charming photos and thanksgiving at Rania's house. If you fail to get married, only Rania and her family will feel embarrassed while Gavin feels relaxed let alone different cities so far there is no way Gavin's parents will know his depraved behavior.

The feeling of a woman is very sharp. What Rania was afraid of was really going to happen. Currently Gavin also has another target that is actually a rich and beautiful woman. Gavin must have had a thousand ways and reasons to dump Rania because not once did Gavin do something bad that ruined a woman's life.

Day after day Rania passed like in a nightmare. The love that used to look so sweet although there were a few times bitter things that felt, but now it becomes bland. Rania has just realized that her love is clapping one hand. Gavin who used to love Rania so much, it was only used for biological needs only. Rania was currently stuck with all the bad thoughts that were inside her head.

Rania has no other pedestal because her family just let it happen. Rania feels alone and can not tell the reality that happened while with Gavin to others. He could only wear a fake smile mask in the presence of others in order to maintain his family's good name. Rania prays every night to get real happiness for the sake of the baby in the womb, because when Gavin is angry always violence to Rania.

"Even though Gavin says this baby in the womb is a disaster, but to me it is a blessing from God. I'll take care of him as best I can. I'll take good care of it. I promise," Rania muttered as she rubbed her stomach.