Mother Merry Only Belongs to Us

Merry's Heart

"Give Your servant this confidence, O God, if the decision you make is the best one! Aamiin!" I pray my prayers for guidance from God.

After that, I take off and fold the face with the prayer mat, then I put it on a small table.

I stepped into the bed and sat down on it. I saw the clock attached to the wall, astaghfirullah already ten but I just did pray isya'. I want it to feel like I can always pray on time, but why there are reasons that make me unable to pray on time.

The real reason I can avoid in order to perform prayers on time. Yes, I should always try to pray on time.

I let out a long sigh, indeed this is how being a new person in one's life, is not necessarily accepted with open arms.

I remember Mommy's advice, am I sure of my decision? Do I not want to fight? Do I not want to try? Why hasn't anything given up yet?

Mommy I just told you earlier after a walk with Mr. Daris and the kids. I felt I had to ask Mommy for advice, advice that would cool my heart when I was troubled.

Of course Mommy is surprised because it turns out Mr. Daris has serious intentions on me, honestly he is happy. However, when he found out about his son's rejection he felt sad, just as sad as I was.

Honestly, in the middle of our activities, seeing the fun and fun with them makes me want to be a part of them, I want to be one of the people they love.

In fact, I have set my heart to accept Mr. Daris' invitation to get married.

The reason is one, I am comfortable with them. I think comfort is important in a relationship. Especially seeing children who are capable and active. Those who want to know many things, make me want to be one of the people who deliver and witness their success later.

I don't know for sure if I love Mr. Daris or not, I don't know that! All I know is that I am comfortable and can be myself when I am with him. And all I know is that when I go with Mr. Daris and his children, I can feel like a mother to his children. I never felt like I could be a good mother to them.

As far as I know, Mr. Daris is a good man to everyone especially me, a good father to his children, and a good brother to his sister.

True what was said Raya that day, Mr. Daris a possessive person to his children. I can understand that, maybe all because of the demands of circumstances that make him like that.

In my opinion, it was much better than him not caring at all to his children.

They are a warm, simple family, and what they are. His children were taught a simple life even though Mr. Daris was financially well-established.

Honestly, I also salute the alertness and tightness of Mr. Daris in caring for his children. In fact, I as a woman feel defeated if faced with Mr. Daris. Maybe because I have no experience in this. While he is a single parent, a man who takes care of and takes care of his son without a wife.

But, baby, in the midst of my amazement at the family, I can't be a part of them. I decided not to continue or accept Mr. Daris' invitation to marry.

Maybe I'm weak because I don't want to fight first, but that's not why.

Mumpung Luham and Emir have not been affectionate and close to me excessively, I choose to break their hearts from now on.

Maybe I look selfish, breaking two hearts to save one. I'm going to get away from them so they forget me.

Not without reason I did that. I never want to hurt people, although maybe sometimes my behavior out there accidentally hurt people. But honestly, I never had any intention of hurting anyone.

Yes, although after this I must have hurt the heart of Luham and Emir, it could even be the heart of Mr. Daris as well.

I know if things are like this, it should be my job to bring them together, but it's not easy!

It won't be as easy as talking I can definitely fight for them!! I can make them happy! It would not be as easy as turning the palm.

I never justify my own talk, I know for sure there are many different people out there with me.

Yes, that's life! Full color! But also full of tolerance! Respect each other's decisions and thoughts.

I know that even if I step down and later Mr. Daris has another woman, surely Liam will refuse again or it could be Luham and Emir also refused.

However, I hope there is a woman who can take the heart of them all. Women whom God sent to be coolers in the midst of their families. That person is certainly not me.

I choose to go away from them, I don't want to be the one to fight for them, I don't want to hurt them constantly, I don't want that. Fighting for them I can do, but it takes a long time.

And as long as I fought it, I must have hurt Liam, Luham, and Emir. Liam totally rejected me. He was begging me not to marry his father.

Yes, I know that his father would have married another woman, but at least that woman wasn't me.

I will continue my life with those who expect my presence and with those who love me.

However, if Liam gave me a little blessing, I would definitely want to fight for them because it means I have not hurt Liam again.

I am a new person in their life, not a meaningful person, very much expected, and there is no substitute for them. I choose to end this from now on. Choose to be a stranger to them, so as not to be anxious in the heart of one of the people.

I decided to invite Mr. Daris to meet at the cafe at ten o'clock tomorrow morning to discuss this matter. Hear this argument from Mr. Daris' point of view as well.

I put down my body, very good, tired also all day looking after the children. I hug tightly roll me, hufft the fate of singles every mallem can only roll. Turn already want to have a breathing bolster, eh not even given the blessing of his son. The fate of Deket same duda berak ya gini.

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