Mom, I Want School

14. MUST PATIENCE!

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The sound of crickets singing tonight is the same as usual night, only tonight is a bit different from last night. Tonight coupled with the sound of frogs that rang under the trees, squeezed in between the green grass, green grass, shelter under low foliage as rain falls from the sky and blow the air of the night wind that smells with a combination of raindrops.

Tonight I grabbed the dishes and put them on the carpet to prepare the dinnerware. After I finished I sat down to fold my legs politely while staring at the figure who looked like I was preparing for dinner.

I breathed long enough as if I could no longer breathe. Although my body is in this place but my mind is pointing to Angga's explanation this afternoon.

Maybe Angga's explanation also has a point if I apply for school this year then I will go to school with Ami, Cai and Ririn are the same age as me but if I enroll and go to school next year then my friends will be on top of me while I will be one class with kids who are his age under me.

Now somehow my mind was pointing at it made me daydream with a flat face as if I had had the burden of living so much as an adult.

I think only adults like father and mother who have a lot of a burden of a world full of difficulties.

"Why are you quiet?"

That question made me shocked. The question my mother asked made me look at her. Now the figure of mother and father made me as the object of his vision.

"Nothing" I replied quickly.

"If there's no quick meal and go to bed!" the curios made me nod slowly and start my eating activities.

I don't know why tonight there was no appetite just like a young man who was heartbroken, yes actually I never felt that. When I was a little girl, I didn't know what love was and I only ever saw it in a scene on television where a man felt heartbroken if he had a lover or a woman.

But the heartbreak I feel is the heartbreak of not applying for school this year.

I chewed my food with slow jaw movements while occasionally sighing as if I had no sense of spirit. I know I'm really very sad right now but I can't say it directly to my mom and dad even though I seem to know why I'm acting this way.

After dinner I decided to go into the room, closing the door tightly which used the safety of an arched nail holding the door open from the outside

My faint gaze stared at the ceiling of the house on the cobweb of a spider into a moving object as the wind gusts through.

I put both my hands on my chest, pulled the yellowish-white blanket over my chest and straightened my legs to try to relax.

"Lord, isn't Ari going to school? Mom did say Ari would enroll in school next year but why did Ari feel that it was a lie."

"Why didn't God just predestine Ari to be the child born of someone who understands education?"

"But you have destined Ari to be born into a family that is not very concerned with education."

"Emak and I don't go to school does that mean Ari won't go to school?"

"Ari really wants God's school! Ari wants to be like Ami, Angga, Cai and Ririn."

"Ari really wants to go to school. Ari wants to get a feel for what the school calls learning and playing like Ari's friends."

I let out a long sigh past the two lips that I opened slightly feeling the descent of the caulking chest enjoying the flow of air that filled the lungs.

Looks like Ari must be patient maybe this is a trial from God. I honestly don't understand what the meaning of the test in life is but it seems like it's a test, a test for Ari to be patient.

Next year it looks like Ari can get through that year. Looking forward to next year where Ari will go to school. Ari is going to school like the rest of her friends and feels what the school is called and Ari hopes it will be like that.

Ari's dream to enroll in school and study together hopefully can be realized. Some say patience is a test so it means Ari has to be patient a lot.

"God, accompany Ari in patience because Ari wants to go to school!"

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