Missing Morning Star

Chapters. 19

"If my hand could wipe away your tears, you've done it but, it's impossible if you didn't expect it yourself, I don't know if I should continue to survive in this state of loving you even though your love from the past until now still belongs to another man," inward Angga Pratama Kusuma who returned secretly to his home Miss who had eavesdropped on the conversation between Missing with Erka Mandala Jauhari.

"Maybe the best way I have to meet him is because I cannot continue living like this, even if we have met and spoken four eyes maybe this heart can be relieved to let go, but if I could willingly give her life with another woman, would I be able to see her every day with another woman, just thinking about it can make me shatter into pieces especially I have to see it with both eyes of my head, I can't afford O God..," his inner Miss whose body has been shaking violently in her cries.

Angga immediately asked for a farewell home first to Miss who had been trying to cover the turmoil of his heart.

"There are still many people who have visited this simple house, sorry Brother is only snacks that I can serve, hopefully not hesitant and kapok to come to meet us here," I miss the one who forced me to smile.

Angga Pratama Kusuma tries to smile sincerely to Miss," God willing..if Abang ads time will surely come again to visit you, forgive the arrival of Brother has disturbed his activities and also his rest, assalamualaikum," concluded Angga who smiled mirically with the fate of his love that always lives in patience to wait for his love Rindu that he could not achieve and reach despite his efforts.

Erka again watched her house miss from the top of her bedroom window. He smiled meaningfully at the passing of the man who was expecting his love for the mother of his two twins.

Erka smiled cunningly, "don't expect you to get my woman, bury her deep in your desire if you don't want to suffer too long in the endless long wait," erka murmured while smiling to release Angga's departure from his front house Missing.

Angga stared intensely at the front door of his house Miss who just happened to be still standing in the doorway with her gaze fixed on the window of Erka's room, "Im sorry Abang Rindu, but she was still there, maybe this is the last day I come to disturb the peace of your life, from this moment I will start my own life even though it is very difficult but, from this moment on, I will start my own life, I will try to marry you to the man you love so much because no matter how hard I try, no matter how much love I have, and no matter how much attention I have given you, your heart cannot be turned away from that man,"

Love does not always have. Sincerity leads you to the door called success.

Not because he is strong, but because God is strong along with his steps.

Miss wiped her tears and immediately entered her house. Because it has been heard the ashar adhan of several mosque toa heard from all corners of Jakarta.

"I'm sorry if I'm too selfish to love a married man, I've suffered enough all this time in waiting and from this moment on I won't let my love be taken away by another woman, let me be selfish to love a married man" he murmured Miss who decided to still love and love Erka under all circumstances.

Bu Surti and Bu Halimah quietly watched and became spectators from behind each wall of his house.

"Yes Allah.May Miss Miss Long happy quite a few years this suffered raising her two children without being accompanied by a man and the biological father of her two daughters," he wrote.

"Oh my God, I am old enough so allow me and give me the time and opportunity to see my son happy with the woman he loves, he deserves to be happy with a good woman because they also have two children" she said.

Missing running into her room, she dropped her body on her bed. Tears dripped down his cheeks, he did not expect that he had to meet the man who had promised him a life of faith and would interfere with him.

With that he was willing to give everything for the man even though they were not married. But what happened to him for almost nine years only then he appeared in his life again in different circumstances.

"O Allah, if this is the best for our future relationship then ease our path, but I do not want to be the third person among his relations with other women but, instead, I do not want to be a third person, I couldn't see him happy with his wife if I could to selfishly think of another woman's husband in this state" he said, Missing the tears that had soaked his face.