Mihrab Love Kanzul Arsy

Conscious

" Bang verse...bang..branch let's get up !!!"

"this branch is six in the morning, late for prayer and work!"

my sister elis continued to shake my body, I who was still unconscious jumped up in shock at the wall clock.

"astaghfirullah elis, why did you just wake up at this hour anyway, O Allah elis!" I immediately took a towel and rushed to take a shower.

I saw Elis grumbling while scratching his head.

At exactly 06:30 am I sat down at the dinner table and I saw my mother preparing some rice and jengkol stew and my family's favorite bitter tea, but I saw baba was not at the dinner table. elis my sister was busy packing her bags and books, and as usual she was going to leave with me to school because I happened to pass the school.

"mak !! where is baba?" manya curious.

"oh that was baba already narik angkot early in the morning bener, katenye anyway baba want to menggumpulin money for college tuition adek lo later."

"Yes Allah mak elish business let it be my business, I help make the cost of college, again also elis is still second grade High School mak, still pretty much another year I cuss!" I'm strict with mom.

" ayat, the age of you is enough to marry, but lo lo see your friends already have children, lo it's fukos bae the same cost of marriage."

again my mother always touched on marriage problems, I was confused to answer it.

"eh that jengkol don't you eat yat!"

"oh that's mak, I want a meeting today, fear the smell of his mouth, hehe" I replied as a farewell to my mother.

Elis who was ready to go to school was waiting for me on the side of the road.he immediately got on my bike and started a very warm morning chat.

"bang, elis want some?"

"what the hell is lis!" I answered while riding a motorcycle with a little speeding

"Who never fell in love what bang?"elis asked with a very serious face.

"elis' question is strange" I replied

" that's elis' brother is very serious"

I stopped the bike and answered it while glaring at him in my eyes.

"the branch also answered seriuuuus terribly, I swear!"

"ikh brother mah!" elis turned his face while pouting

"have gone to the school, madam, it's too late!" I answered by stroking his hooded head.elis smiled as he said goodbye and shook hands with me.

"dagh brother, be careful on the road ya"

I waved at Elis and gasped back my favorite bike.

Today my mother and elis asked about my soul mate and love for women, without them knowing I was in a great sense of heartbreak, the people I admire and love have been hanging out at the bounces,today is the wedding day of my beloved azizah.he was forced to marry by the choice of her parents, my azizah which I always refer to as fatimah, now she has gone together with her chosen lover. today whether I will be able to attend the wedding or not, but I should not attend.karna if I come to attend it only adds to the wound for me and for azizah "may you be sakinnah, mawaddah and warahmah."

it looks like today will be my toughest day at work, may I be strong.

" yes, why?" I answered while looking at him

"patience to yat!" nisa lowered her eyes

" yes fate nis, how else"

"you know why not fight for your love!!!" nisa answered with a sigh

" even though I tried hard to defend, the father of azizah will not agree with me, you will know they are an established family, must see all my conditions of seedlings, scuffs and weights, while I have nothing."

Nisa rubbed my back, and gave me a pink envelope as it passed.

"what is this?" I asked curiously

Nisa just smiled and returned to her desk.

" Dear ahmad hidayat"

My beloved beloved

Brother, hopefully when you read the letter from me brother feels no lack of anything.

Brother, forgive the azizah who no longer met you on our farewell night at the cafe seroja at that time.

Brother, when the azizah chooses to be with the choice of father does not mean the azizah does not love brother, my love for brother is very large and infinite. Azizah felt very comfortable and happy when with brother, brother taught azizah many things about life and religion, but it turns out, love does not always have to be together. brother if you know the condition of azizah when writing this letter, it feels like azizah wants to shout and curse herself azizah, but azizah cannot afford to reject this situation. the condition of the father is deteriorating and can be affected by a heart attack at any time. azizah is also afraid of losing the father.please forgive azizah brother, allow azizah to serve the parents of azizah at the end of his life.

azizah always loved you.

Not feeling my tears flowing and flowing, I let out a very long breath.

"azizahis......."

******

The time shows at 18:00, all my office friends are ready to go home. And I want to get ready for the mosque.I want to win myself to recite tonight in the mosque, I want to complain about my problems to Allah alone.

I took ablution water and felt the coolness of the water soaking up my body, there was a sense that made me very peaceful.

I set foot towards the front prayer , after hearing the reverberating adhan I prepared to perform two sunnah prayers before performing the bersama'ah maghrib prayer.

After the congregational prayer I moved to sit next to the right corner of the room. I want to be more alone and solemn in my thoughts. kuresapi every sentence tasbihku and more I in "Laa ilaha illallah la haula wala quwwata illa billahil a'liyil a'dzim" I repeat again and again until I truly feel an incredible peace in my heart. for a moment I forgot my wounds and I forgot my bidadah.

Azizah I remember you, not only because of your beautiful face, but because of your tender heart, your simplicity, and the softness of your voice that never raised your voice before me, as if you always made me the perfect man for you, you never praised me, but your character and attitude made me believe that you really appreciate me as a man.

Tonight I will try to make peace with my heart, I will tell you that my love for the Azizah will always bloom in its time, and this time is my time to improve and to harden my heart to get back the best angel that God would have chosen for me. my current focus is on raising money for college tuition and my future savings.Bismillah I believe I can live better.

I remember the verse of Allah "You may love something when it is not good for you and you may hate something when it is good for you, Allah knows you do not know."

At least now I still have the passion for my life, for my family, my mother, my father and my sister.