Marrying my Helper Girl
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Hijab but Hypocritical, yes it is Me..
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If you mean veiled but hypocritical is a woman who is veiled but sometimes her voice is still loud, still not controlled her emotions and too jaim, yes it is I..
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No wonder if it comes to your mind, how can those who wear long hijab but the behavior is still bad (?)
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The great veil does not mean that I am turned into an angel, there is not a day without the desire and effort to resist lust and sin. Temptation can come from anywhere..
Eyes because of the sight that is forbidden.
Ears that still often hear the bad.
And a heart that is always broken.
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Not hypocrites! but because we bring the mandate of the Big Hijab and Face Cover to take care of ourselves, try to set a good example.
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Laugh what else if the past is widespread..
Shame, heartache and regret mixed into one.
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Appreciate the journey and the struggle of being able to rise from that past, friend.
Appreciate every process I go through.
Didn't I never be evil to you? have I ever gossiped about your clothes that did not fit Syar'i?
Friend, I'm not a hypocrite but I'm learning to improve myself. Understand it!
(Aulia Syasya Bela)
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"Dela wait! Wa'alaikumusalam" late He's gone, what else are you going to do now? if He wanted to sever this relationship unilaterally, the inner Rifqy seemed to want to scream accepting this bitter reality.
The fact that He had to meet his helper girl but so soon He had to part from her.
Huhh Rifqy threw his breath rough by continuing to shuffle his hair because of frustration over what Bela decided about the relationship of the two people, without even asking for an opinion from him first.
No! I will look for nothing else, I will accept his shortcomings and I will gladly accept his advantages. I will take Father and Mother as soon as possible to Bela's house to propose to Bela. That's my promise!!. Inner Rifqy not accepted
But what is the content of this letter? Rifqy muttered
Soon Rifqy opened the Pink Young letter given by Bela who was in the d
hold his hand now.
When Rifqy read the letter, Rifqy was shocked by Bela's statement that Bela had almost experienced abuse and violence in the past exactly 9 years ago. Rifqy did not feel the tears escaped out, his heart also hurt as well as feel what Bela felt. quickly He was like tears.
At the end of the letter was a sign of tears, it meant that when Bela wrote the letter that Bela was crying.
"I will accept you, whatever your past. I will help you to forget the incident that made you so, do not want to have a relationship with a man let alone get married. I'll get you out of that. That's my promise.
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Sis, I know when Rifqy read this letter maybe I've decided not to have any more contact with Rifqy. Maybe I'm selfish with breaking this relationship unilaterally so without asking Kak Rifqy's opinion first.
But what can I do, brother? I can't bear that Rifqy Brother has to bear my sins in the past, but not the sins that Brother Rifqy made. My sins are too many Brother!
Don't you think Rifqy Sister I'm wearing a Big Hijab and Face Cover like this, I'm like a sholeh, kind, gentle girl. That's a big mistake, brother!
I just want to cover up my past mistakes. I want to go down the road in Ridhoi by Allah. I don't want to keep making my Dad sin because of his daughter who revealed the law. I am at peace with Me, near to Allah, the Creator.
Before I knew Brother Rifqy, my lover whom I consider only Allah, I also had the opportunity to think about not wanting to have a wedding or 'even received a proposal from the Youth. Maybe I'm wondering if anyone would accept me for who I am? accept my shortcomings!
Brother, I beg you to spare me. Find a girl Sholehah, a good girl and a better one than I am. I'm not the good girl you can make a wife and mother for your children.
I'm even embarrassed to say the word child! moreover, I must become the Mother of Your Children in the future. I'm not ready, brother. I'm Sorry!
I'm ashamed brother! and maybe I now have no face to meet the best young man and Shby you.
I've been dirty, because of the events that almost made Me lose my future. But maybe God still loves me so luck is still on my side.
I almost experienced abuse and I had trauma because of violence at that time, exactly 9 years ago. Maybe the physical form of violence in my body can be lost but for in my heart it will not be lost even now to the trauma of ingrained, ingrained, every night I wake up because of my nightmares that always disturb My sleep and I do not want to disturb Your night's sleep someday.
If time can be played back to 9 years ago maybe I don't want to know the man, the man who took away my psychic.
I've been almost crazy thinking about all this for 9 years, but whatever my power has been, I can't do anything about it.
I'm sure Rifqy can get a better woman than I can.
I'm sorry Brother. I beg you to forgive me for giving false hope to Rifqy.
I'd love to I don't remember that incident again but I can't. The more I want to forget it but the more I remember it.
Please forget me!
Marked
Your Ex-Wife Candidate
As Rifqy crumpled the paper, he was shocked by the fact that Bela had experienced an incident that left him traumatized for a long time
If I knew who the man who had dared to do this with Bela, I would reward him accordingly. Rifqy's mind drifted to the man who had done such a heinous thing that God hated so much
We both have trauma in the past! the only difference is the occurrence.
The Ashar prayer rifqy moved to Mushola RS to perform the congregational Ashar Prayer so that his heart can also be calm.
After the Rifqy Prayer returns to the Hospital because there are still patients that He has to deal with
He was in the Hospital until night and went home late at night so he immediately threw himself to sleep because he had taken a bath in the Hospital and no longer needed to bathe.
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