Married for Marriage

Searching for Food

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Jonathan picked up ningrum at his house “ayo to rum” hospital invited jonathan to approach the ningrum sitting in the home garden

“ningrum don't want” reply ningrum throw his face rough

Jonathan sits next to ningrum “don't be rum, we should know his condition” said jonathan glanced at the flat stomach ningrum

“ningrum did not want” reply ningrum shook his head slowly

Jonathan kneels in front of ningrum “pity him rum, if you want to be angry just like jo aja, no papa, really, but do not be the same he” jonathan rubbed flat stomach ningrum “dia not wrong rum” persuad jonathan

Ningrum closed his eyes removing clear liquid from the corner of his eyes “mas jo please, to the doctor ya” pinta jonathan clasping ningrum hands

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Ningrum looked at the window and cried in silence immersed in his thoughts

“already rum do not cry again ya” pinta jonathan intend to wipe the tears ningrum

Ningrum dodge i touch jonathan “maaf rum” says jonathan pulls his hand back for driving

25 Minutes drive ningrum and jonathan arrive at the big hospital which will be a place to check the contents

“ap rum”jak jonathan when opening his car door

Ningrum just silent alone did not answer” ayok” jonathan kinda forced ningrum to get off the car

Ningrum and Jonathan walked towards the obstetrician's room then sat down in the waiting chair

“tadi mas already list, we just wait for our turn” said jonathan holding the queue number in his right hand

jonathan and ningrum wait in silence “nyonya ningrum bagaskara” call sister

“that's our turn rum” jonathan pulled ningrum's hand to stand up and walk towards the doctor's room

Jonathan entered the obstetrician's room with his hands together

“good afternoon dok” greet jonathan friendly at doctor

“sore mister “ greeting back doctor salami jonathan, then intend to greet ningrum but not answered ningrum

Jonathan feels bad with the doctor who will check the content of ningrum “ah sorry doc, my wife is still in a state of grief, so a little difficult to talk” said jonathan asked for the understanding of the doctor

the doctor nodded his understanding “ya we have just” the doctor invited ningrum to the check bed with

jonathan followed the doctor's steps and stood beside the bed

The doctor directs the ultrasound tool to the stomach ningrum “your baby's condition is quite healthy tuan” said the doctor looking at the monitor screen

“thukurlah” says jonathan relieved

“oh yes doctor, have we been able to see the gender ? I heard when the gestational age entered 4 months can already see the gender?” jonathan asked to know the sex of the ningrum

Obstetrician frowned “indeed at the age of 4 months we can see the gender. But your wife's gestational age is only 8 weeks, so it's too early to see her” replied the doctor with a friendly smile on jonathan

Ningrum closed his eyes “what doc? 8 weeks, means my wife is two months pregnant?” ask jonathan to make sure

jonathan remembered that ningrum and rafasya had not met for 3 months before rafasya died, plus now 3 weeks rafasya died

“iya tuan” reply doctor

Jonathan stared in disbelief at the ningrum, but his eyes closed, not looking at Jonathan

“good sir because there is no problem with the content of your wife, I will immediately make a prescription for fetal boosters and vitamins, later redeemed to the pharmacy ya” said the doctor

“well dok” reply jonathan friendly

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Jonathan helps ningrum put on his seat belt and then switches to putting on his own seatbelt

Jonathan drove his car late in his own mind. Many times he rubbed his tears, crying in silence did not dare to say anything to the ningrum

Ningrum who leaned his head on the window began to feel uneasy hearing Jonathan who sobbed many times

“mau mas jo cries for any number of times, the person we have to beg mafnya no” said ningrum joined in tears considering her dead husband

Jonathan braked his car, took off his seatbelt, turned his head towards the ningrum cupping his face letting out sobs that he could no longer bear

Jonathan breathes in “maaf rum” jonathan hugs ningrum tightly “forgive me” pinta jonathan

“for what's sorry?” ask ningrum

“you're pregnant with my son, and I didn't know it” jonathan replied as he pleased

“although you know also will not erase our sins on him mas” reply ningrum

“this is wrong mas, not your fault” said jonathan

“just the same, we're both wrong. This kid can't be around if we both don't do it” replies to sobbing

‘maaf rum, pardon mas jo” said jonathan cried as if knowing the fact that ningrum pregnant her child is not rafasya her husband first. let alone ningrum pregnant when ningrum is still the legitimate wife of rafasya

“we are wrong mas” reply ningrum join crying with jonathan

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Jonathan takes ningrum to a beach at night

“wear this rum, it's night” said jonathan put on a blanket to keep the ningrum warm

Ningrum held the hands of the son of a bitch to stay on his shoulder “how mas? how can we continue our lives?” ask ningrum

“this is not your fault rum, but wrong mas who is brash at you” jonathan replied

“but we will not do it if when the mas stop ningrum do not hold back mas” reply ningrum

“do not too much rum, you are pregnant pity our child” reply jonathan rubbed stomach ningrum

“but ningrum felt sinful to her mas” reply ningrum

“we will make up for it, not our son who makes up for it” jonathan replied leaning face ningrum on the chest of his field

“what because of this do you always refuse to see a doctor?” ask jonathan

“he didn't come home 3 months before he died. When he was just leaving I still routinely got my monthly guests.but when we did it I never got my monthly guests. So how can I not know whose child I bear” said ningrum

“maafin yes rum” pinta jonathan

“initially I wanted to beg him for forgiveness, and would accept whatever his decision was but I didn't know that I couldn't finally apologize to him. my heart hurts so much I feel so sinful to her” reply ningrum

“maaf” says jonathan wiped his tears

Ningrum looked up at jonathan “what mas regret doing it with ningrum ?” ask ningrum

Jonathan nods “iya mas sorry” reply jonathan

Ningrum's face was immediately bowed to jonathan's words his heart seemed to be sliced

Jonathan touched ningrum's chin to look at him “sorry why we met after you became someone else's wife” jonathan replied

“hiks hiks hiks” ningrum sobbing with jonathan statement

“cup” jonathan long time kissed wet lips ningrum will tear “I will make up for it my whole life rum” said jonathan ******* lip ningrum

Although ningrum was still crying but he returned jonathan's treatment and put his hand on jonathan's neck