Marriage Different Ages

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Kelvin POV's

Living life with Clarissa for less than a year has made Kelvin began to get used to the presence of the woman. It would be a lie if he said there was no taste in his heart. Slowly but surely, a taste begins to grow on its own. Kelvin kept trying to control his heart, so as not to fall for Clarissa. However, it was Clarissa who had destroyed her brotherly relationship with her sister.

Kelvin was initially willing to accommodate Clarissa in her Apartment only because of a sense of responsibility as a man who had impregnated Clarissa, although in fact it was not purely from a mistake that he did himself. Clarissa was also the one who had trapped him by using stimulant drugs.

But over time, a sense of vibration began to penetrate into the deepest recesses of Kelvin's heart. Kelvin had tried to reject it and deny the presence of special feelings for Clarissa. Even when the woman asked what their relationship was really about, she asked for certainty. Kelvin just stayed away and continued away as if he was afraid if he would no longer be able to withstand all the feelings that have been created.

Until the time comes, when Clarissa will give birth. Inevitably Kelvin must also be willing to accompany Clarissa, giving all forms of attention and support for the woman. Kelvin's heart suddenly became melted when he saw for himself with both eyes, how Clarissa struggled in giving birth to her child.

Kelvin regrets that he's been unfair to Clarissa. Although all kinds of needs from Clarissa always Kelvin fulfilled, but still Kelvin was guilty of never giving the slightest attention to the mother of his child.

Kelvin wants to fix everything. Giving a proper life to Clarissa and her son. Kelvin promised to marry Clarissa soon, of course, after leaving the hospital.

But it's all too late. Kelvin's heartfelt intentions evaporated as Clarissa went to take the baby with her.

Kelvin was devastated, that's for sure. Regret comes to Kelvin, tearing and shaking all his tastes.

Kelvin tried to find and keep looking, but unfortunately he could not find. Anxiety and worry enveloped the space of his heart. Thinking about where Clarissa would take her son. In this town, Clarissa had no one left. And his parents seem to be off the responsibility, not wanting to know what his son's life is like now.

Kelvin is determined to continue looking for the whereabouts of Clarissa and her son until they meet. He did not care that it would take a lot of time and spend a lot of money anyway. The most important thing is to find their existence. If Clarissa and her son had found Kelvin. As he promised in the beginning, Kelvin would try in persuading to bring them back. Give them a decent life and of course happiness. Although Clarissa does not know the promise, but the promise is still a promise that Kelvin must fulfill.

But again just a disappointment that Kelvin had to swallow. After three months of searching, Kelvin was finally able to find the whereabouts of Clarissa who was working at a bar as a comfort woman. Kelvin was sad, because his arrogance was now that the woman had to plunge back into the black valley. Kelvin wants to pull Clarissa, take her down the right path. But what, Clarissa rejected him outright by throwing spicy words.

"What do you have, so much so that you want to pull me out of this filthy valley pit?" clarissa asked with a sardonic smile. Look down on a Kelvin.

Inflaming, of course that is felt by Kelvin. Both of his hands clenched, trying to contain his anger.

"Don't be a bad luck hero, being in college still needs a scholarship! Just so you know, I deliberately set you up just for a purpose and you know what my purpose is? So Gilang wants to decide me!" clarissa said making Kelvin's molars harden, until there was a rumbling sound from her teeth.

The anger that had been held back since then was getting bigger and more piled up in Kelvin's heart. If you can also taste Kelvin tore the spicy mouth of Clarissa at that time. But again the logic forbids, reminding Kelvin who is the opponent.

Because of that too, Kelvin even forgot his main purpose. Namely, asking about where his son Azka was. And when he wanted to go back there, it turned out that the woman was no longer there. Clarissa's gone, gone somewhere.

Since then Kelvin has been forced to search for Clarissa. Not for his love but for his son. Kelvin is unwilling if his fleshly blood is in the wrong custody, even though it's his own biological mother.

It took Kelvin a few years to find Clarissa. Looks like the woman deliberately invited him to play hide and seek. Because when Kelvin can find traces of where Clarissa is, at that time Clarissa again disappeared like a slippery eel.

 

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I don't know how many times Kelvin changed his sleeping position. Lie on your side, face down, cover your face with a pillow, sit down and lie down again. The meeting really made Kelvin unable to close his eyes. The shadows of the past come in turn, presenting memories after memories of him that appear to form slides in the eye. His face continues to disturb, even the aroma of fresh parfumennya as if still inhaled to this day.

Kelvin got up, walked over to the table in one of his rooms. Open the drawer, take out a diary that has been untouched for a long time. A pink book with a picture of a butterfly flying between blooming flowers. It looked the same when Kelvin first found it. It's just that the color is a little bit faded. Kelvin opened up sheet by sheet, reading every piece of writing that carved neatly on the white paper that began to turn yellow as well. Without feeling her tears fell down her cheeks. I feel sorry for the owner of the diary. She is not a wicked woman, nor a snake woman as spoken from her lips when reunited with her a few months ago. It was just that circumstances had made his life fall apart. Starting from having to part with his father and twin brother, forced to join the mother who is crazy property and must be sexually abused by his own stepfather. Until making the figure of Clarissa became determined to peddle herself to be a seductive woman for the sake of her survival. Yes, the owner of the book is actually Clarissa who Kelvin found under the bed column, in one of the apartment rooms ever occupied by Clarissa.

Honestly, Kelvin was still hurt by Clarissa's words at the time. But as he reread every strand of the word written in the diary, Kelvin's heart softened into pity. It felt like Kelvin was turning the clock around, forcing the woman to come with him. In order not to get too far into the black valley nuanced sin. But again his ego was too strong, forbidding all his intentions to help Clarissa.

Like the time when her sister put Clarissa into bars. Kelvin's heart kept telling your brother to let Clarissa go, giving her a chance to repent. But his brain doesn't want to know. Let Clarissa remain in prison, receiving the reward for all her deeds.

Kelvin had indeed anchored his heart to Shinta, but not completely. Because it's actually deep down there, still engraved the name Clarissa, Kelvin's first love.

Kelvin is devastated when his marriage to Shinta fails. But not because of Shinta's betrayal, but sing the fate of his love is always bad. Does he really not deserve to get someone who is truly sincere in loving him.

"Akh..sial..why does his face always appear anyway?" Kelvin growled in annoyance, putting the diary into a drawer.

Looks like Kelvin really had to brainwash her to not remember anything more about Clarissa.

Kelvin's back in bed. Dropped himself to his back. Stare blankly at the ceiling of the roof of his room. Recalling his brief encounter today with Clarissa.

"But if you look at his appearance, he seems to have repented?" kelvin's great-grandson who remembers Clarissa's hijab-wrapped outfit. He began to admire the beauty that emanated from his face.

"What the hell, why can't my brain stop thinking about him anyway?" rutuk Kelvin, who beat his own forehead repeatedly, asked to stop thinking about Clarissa.