Loving In Silence (MDD)
Chapter V
The flacback
If the wind complains at night, the water does not recede from the lap. When evening began to perch in the silent harbor, the unyielding waves of the horizon perched amidst the desolate. Aira complained to the One, crying to Him. For in one third of the night the angel came down looking for a servant who was being pleased with his Lord. The girl pleaded for healing from her illness. It has been more than a week he was stiff with no support or backrest. I don't know what the name of the disease is, Aira just felt weak.
This whole day, only a piece of bread left over could Aira put in her mouth. All the food tasted bland, he had no taste at all.
Afi knocks on Aira's room door very slowly, afraid that her best friend will suddenly wake up.
“Airaa..are you better?” While holding Aira's hand, slowly woke her up. He was so worried about his friend.
Aira nodded.
This time Afi joined the lie beside Aira, “I miss you Ai, when did you heal? As lonely as you know, I'm empty without you.” His hands in the show acted like a drama character. He looked at the roof of the room alternately by looking at his best friend.
“I have a story that Ai, yes, Ustad Nofil entered the class to give an assignment from Mr. Elkom, he often glances at your stool!” While grimacing yourself, ”Truly you Ai, I did not lie. If I think sighh... I think he misses you.”
“Already Fi, do not be like that, later another santri terror, slander again everywhere.”
Although sounding weak Aira tried to pierce the story of her best friend.
“Nahh gitu dong Ai, sound cake, can seneng be.”
“I have improved Fi, Only all food can not be accommodated stomach, no taste.” Answer Aira stammering.
“Capable yes Ai, there are still many stories that I have not told.”
Aira tried to get up from her sleep, the pain was still evident throughout her limbs, but Aira did not want everyone to worry, she tried to convince herself and others of her improved condition.
“See Fi, I'm already strong sitting kaan?” His hand he made the support of his weak body.
“Now you start acting in front of me huh? If you are still sick, just sleep Ai..Do not be forced.”
“Nggak Fi, I've been better really, don't overdo it like that forced smiling laah”. Aira knew very well his current condition, she wanted to say that he was sick. For the sake of his best friend, he lies.
All the santri are now serving’ah ashar in musholla, Aira asked Afi to deliver it to PUSKESTREN (Puskesmas Pesantren).
He just wants to know how about his condition now.Until the destination, it turns out many other students who want to check.
They had to wait until the line was over. This is where all santri seek treatment, not allowed to go to the puskesmas outside the pesantren unless it is urgent. So, inevitably they have to keep waiting.
The long wait turned out to make them tired. Aira was still with her thoughts in mind, while someone beside her was busy talking about unimportant things. Starting from the story of upin-i-pin sandals to the thick mustache of Pak Hendro security boarding school that is fiercely begging for forgiveness into his own laughingstock. He was constantly raving about this and that. And Aira just smiled once in a while.
The sudden sound of calling from inside the room stopped the laughter of the girl accompanying her best friend from going to treatment. “Aira Fatma, please log in!” The distinctive voice of a doctor strikes a plain white without a single pattern of confusion looking for the existence of the name.
Afi raised her hand, then pulled Aira's hand into the small room smelling of medicine, making it tight.
After checking, the doctor again said, “Saudari Aira should do further examination, and, I worry about cyst disease (swelling of body tissue in which it is hollow and filled with a thick liquid resembling pulp) eating away at your uterus, but hopefully that's just my analysis.”
They all fell silent. The room became quiet, the heat of tibatiba burst into the room.
“How many months have you been bleeding continuously?”Finally the doctor's question broke the silence between all of them.
Beside her, the eyes of a girl who loved Aira so much started to blush, her gaze blank. The conversation between his best friend and Doctor Puskestren no longer he ignored.
Only Afi who looks so anxious about the state of Aira, even Aira himself can still invite Afi joking.
“That's just a doctor Fi analysis, don't think too much, there is a God who will always help us.”
“Try to care a little about your health Ai, this is not a mess, this concerns the future and life mu” Afi slightly raised his voice, impatient to face the nature of Aira who always resigned.
“Then what can I do Fi? Crying out? Getting angry? Pissed off?Run amuck? Make what try? after all it's just a new analysis doctor.” Now Aira's eyes began to glaze over.
Afi approached her best friend and hugged her. Not feeling the tears that he had been holding back from earlier flowed just like seeing the resignation and fortitude of his best friend.
“It's not like that Airaa.If you told me first what you feel, maybe it won't be as bad as it is now. I can't look at you like this.”
In silence Aira cried, she knew that her best friend loved her so much.
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Already three days from the return of Aira and Afi from Puskestren, ice cream lover girl told Nyai's mother to do USG to the Hospital with more complete facilities.
But until now, reportedly did not get Afi. Now he is more worried about his friend than himself. Afi can only wait and pray, can not do more.
To him, an Aira Fatma who secretly liked the sunset was more than just a friend. He is her twin brother who was born from the womb of two different people. When Afi was about to step into the bathroom, a new santri who was none other than a cousin of his best friend, gave a white sheet of paper with his name on the front.
Assalamu’alaikum.wb.
...For you friends…...
...When the sun does not reach the heart to convey its desire to illuminate the earth, of course, it will be covered with clouds so that the universe does not scold....
...Even so, he greeted the land through the waves that not all land dwellers liked....
...Same with this self…...
...Forgive me Afii.I don't mean to hide everything from you, it's just beyond my fear. All this time, I have only given to the Power. He knows what's best for me. Maybe this disease is a reprimand for the negligence that I have always maintained....
...Do not think too much about me. Let us live in samasama, I will always be patient in living it, and you are beside me with a thousand of your endurance....
...Isn't that so Afi my best friend…?...
...Again forgive me....
...Wassalamu’alaikum.wb....
...Your partner's,...
...Aira Fatma's...
Still clutched in the letter that Aira wrote to her best friend. Now Afi began to sob, imagining how much pain Aira endured the pain alone. As a friend, he felt useless.
