Loving an Ex

Memories of the past

The afternoon had passed by changing with the thick of the night, in the room that was careless Rifki was thinking of a fear in his life, namely FAREWELL.

In just a few weeks, the happiness in his life will be gone, as a result of the word Farewell, He can not imagine how lonely and empty his life when he had to be far from the girl He loved, he could not imagine how lonely and empty his life was when he had to be far from the girl he loved, He also felt guilty if he could not make the girl happy, at least the rest of the time can give a beautiful memory, to treat the days full of storms and wounds.

Rifki is really selfish, he just wants to be happy in the rest of the time just counting the months.

He recalled the memories of the past that destroyed his feelings.

When he was in Germany with his parents, one day he suddenly fainted in class, when he opened his eyes, He saw a strange sight, Mama was unceasingly shedding tears despite her lips trying to smile, as if she wanted to give strength to her broken self, while Papa was just standing staring at the window of the room, it was as if he was avoiding looking directly at her.

The pain that suddenly attacked the head was increasingly felt, making the teenage boy repeatedly fainted, the doctor could not confirm what disease was in the Rifki, because the examination was not finished.

But the symptoms that arise there are indications with brain disease, the,

After the results of the examination came out, how devastated they were, having to face the reality if Rifki was exposed to Brain cancer, a very terrible disease that returned again in their lives, he said, Papa Rifki had also experienced it and He knew how tortured He was while undergoing treatment, fortunately He managed to survive by undergoing chemotherapy.

Rifki experienced a lot of suffering, ranging from headaches that are getting more intense, nausea that makes him vomit, vision that began to decline, all seemed to disappear in his life, there is only pain that immediately leads to death.

The doctor suggested surgery, although the possibility of success is very little, but Papa Rifki did not approve the advice of the Doctor, he did not want to lose Rifki.

With sincere effort and prayer, Rifki gradually underwent a significant change, all the attention was on him, when Rifki was declared cured the family was very grateful, but what makes Rifki feel guilty is when Mama decided to send Difki to Indonesia to keep him away from his twin, which turns out that Difki was also sick there.

Oma contacted us, telling us that the situation of Difki is increasingly declining, it forced Mama to return to Indonesia despite having to leave Rifki.

Several months they separated Mama and Difki in Indonesia while Rifki and Papa in Germany.

Difficult circumstances force them to be far apart, but there is no sign of Difki will recover, it is declining even though it has been a few months in hospital.

Finally Papa decided to follow Mama and Difki to Indonesia, initially Rifki will remain in Germany, but Rifki felt like a strange feeling, he wanted to meet with his brother Difki, he wanted to meet his brother, likewise with Difki, he never ceaselessly called the name Rifki.

Oma told me when Difki had just arrived in Indonesia, at first Difki looked moody, He rarely even went out of the room, Oma tried to calm Difki, trying to convince him, if Rifki would be okay, if Rifki would be okay, Your mom and dad will definitely try to cure him.

Everything looks fine, Difki is getting used to it, but one night when Diffi suddenly has a very high fever, Oma is very anxious to find that Difki has convulsions in the room, Oma immediately contacted the driver who had already gone home, all efforts have been made to relieve fever Diffi, from compressing to giving fever-lowering drugs, Oma has done to relieve fever, for some time the state of Difki slightly improved even though his body heat was still there, when Difki was begging Oma not to tell this problem to his parents, He did not want them to worry because they were taking care of Rifki who was also very ill.

That night Oma also brought Difki to the hospital, the doctor said there was nothing to be afraid of just an ordinary high fever, but Oma did not immediately believe, he said, Oma advised the Doctor to do further and detailed examinations, so that if something happens they can anticipate it early.

The doctor finally did a more detailed examination, it turns out that Difki suffered from meningitis, Oma was really hit to find such a reality, since then Difki was treated in the hospital, and the, Oma is confused how to explain this to Citra, He tried to treat Difki, but some days the state of Difki is decreasing, even Difki is often delirious to call the name Rifki.

Therefore Oma could no longer redefine the situation of Difki to his son, He immediately contacted Citra, although He knew this would destroy the feelings of his son, but He could not cover it again.

The thing they were afraid of finally happened, Difki had ended his pain, He returned to his Lord with a smile on his lips, Mama's cry sounded so heartbreaking, even Papa could not bear his sorrow, He hit the hospital wall, while Oma just sat down weakly unable to say anything.

Rifki was like seeing a lot of Difki who smiled at him, at that time He could not resist the sadness, running to find a place for himself.

Rifki felt very guilty to Difki, even He felt that he should have died was not Difki, that's when Rifki saw Syakila who was praying for someone, the little girl was not sad, he said, He even prayed that the people who were left behind received and given strength, because in fact all will also return, but this sadness makes us blame the will of God, he said, and that will make the people we care about sadder.

Since then Rifki believes if He blames himself, Difki will feel sad because what happened has become His will.

Remembrance in his past memories

That night Rifki was really very scared, He did not want Syakila to experience a sad farewell like the one in nature with Difki, He did not want Syakila to know what really happened to him, he said, He just wanted to give the beautiful days to Syakila.

Some days Rifki had a severe headache, although he could not confirm whether his old illness returned, even he was afraid to face the reality, he said, but Mama convinces him to go back to Germany for a check-up and recuperation, hoping Rifki can survive, but Rifki asks Mama one thing, she wants to be with Syakila, because He really loved Syakila, Mama initially forbade, because it would destroy the feelings of Syakila, but Rifki still forced, because, because if in the treatment this time He did not survive then He will regret for not being able to have people He loves.

Finally Mama agreed, although with a heavy heart, He did not know how to ask permission to Syakila's parents, He even willingly kowtowed so that Syakila's parents would allow Rifki and Syakila to be engaged.

Fortunately Dona also helped him to convince the two parents Syakila, and He also promised to try to make Rifki will soon recover, as long as he will always give news to the prospective iron.