Loving Alone

New Sheet

**Sometimes harboring is the only option so that everything looks fine

If indeed harboring feelings for you is so difficult and painful, but why is my heart reluctant to give up until this moment.

Can only close the wound. Resisting the flames of jealousy. Holding a sense of disappointment, because want to get angry, I realize, I who**?.

For a year now, I've only been able to see you remotely, reluctant to get to know you more deeply, but to be honest you're my first love.

Not felt, this is the last day of Kak Aldo at this school, it feels unable to see him leave. I've been holding my feelings for 2 years like an insane person.

I don't know, he's going to continue his school where, because I've heard he wants to be a Doctor of other experts, it's his mind since childhood. At first I was disappointed, because I wanted to be a great and famous hugger.

What does this have to do with kuu? He who wants to be a doctor, I who is sad, I should be happy. But it's so hard, I wish I could go to school with her again, seeing her smile from behind a tree means so much to me.

It doesn't feel like 1 year has passed, it's my graduation day. I am very happy but I also feel sad because I will be separated from my best friend.

Linda will continue her studies abroad, and Nur will continue her studies outside the city. This is the day of my dilemma, I was confused to continue school where, 1 week passed, my decision was made, I chose to continue my school in the school that Kak Aldo registered first.

This is crazy anyway.

And I was hesitant at first, but I felt like I missed it, I hadn't seen it in a long time. I don't know when my feelings will fade.

"Mother, father, I'm going to continue my studies at X University, and major in medicine.

Obviously I was short and immediately devoured the peanut-soaked toast in front of me.

Mom and Dad were shocked by my decision. How not, father and mother never minded my decision now. He just thought I'd be majoring in painting, because that's my favorite.

"Dear, are you serious?

Ask mom

"Yes, Mom, I'm serious.

My firmness.

Said Dad while drinking his coffee.

At first I did want to major in it, but wanted a mouthpiece with Aldo's brother.

When my decision was final, I took good advantage of my time to learn about medicine, starting from the smallest things.

Mother and father who saw my seriousness, he immediately supported my decision, although in fact he did not know my true reason.

You've never seen me, you've never felt me, but I'll always love you in silence here.

Finally the day came, with my diligence in studying, and my determination, I graduated to enter the univ and majored in medicine.

Finally I became a student, happy feeling up my feelings, I can't wait to see Brother Aldo.

I feel like a child getting a mother's desire to go out to play with friends.

Hi you're there, you know what? I was looking for your tracks with curved lines that tirelessly accompany me.

I hope that I can have a better relationship than before, like a friend or just a brother and sister, right Linda and Nur said, I have to improve and move forward. Even if it's just greeting each other.

Sis, I don't know how long I'm going to hold this feeling, I don't know if I'm going to have the courage to look at you, I haven't seen you in over a year.

I'll reopen my new page here, for you there.

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Seriate