Love Without Reason

My Selfishness

Pano was still staring fixedly at Kenan.

look from top of hair to toe without blinking her eyes.

by standing still, he could not believe that his old friend was now married, with the man in front of him who he thought was very creepy.

"Ze, is he really your husband?"

whispered Pano who now he was standing near Ze,

regardless of the sharp look, Kenan's annoyed eyes were incessantly staring at Pano.

"it still doesn't believe me that Ze, married a scary guy like him"

inner Pano shook his head in astonishment

considering that Ze used to be a crybaby now he was married to a man who had a cruel aura.

made Ze smile little to see her friend who looked astonished to see her husband.and immediately nodded her head.

Kenan who saw the closeness of Pano and Ze immediately stepped to separate them.

and slowly pulled Ze's hand and he hid it behind his body.

"hey, didn't I warn you not to get close to Ze"

speaking cynically looking at Pano, now Kenan was standing blocking the distance between Pano and Ze, and immediately hid Ze behind his body,

making Ze smile little at Kenan's jealousy.

"hey, , don't be so possessive ,,! Me and Ze are just friends, why are you so jealous,,,"

pano said in a relaxed manner, smiling lightly at Kenan.

it seems like she loves Ze so much, she gets so jealous, seeing me close to Ze that she puts on a creepy face, hahaha

it seems like it would be very exciting if I kept teasing Ze and making him angry

inner Pano was already shrill, while looking at his head wanted to see Ze,

but hindered by Kenan's burly body.

"even if you're Ze's friend, but between women and men, there's no close friend relationship, you have to keep your distance from Ze, you understand!!"

kenan said, embracing Ze's waist, and hugging him tightly beside her.

kenan's words were firm, making

Pano and Ze jump, feeling surprised to hear him,

because Kenan's words remind them of the person who always lectured them, when they used to play together so closely. He's always been the distance between Ze and Pano,

speaking firmly as

describing the anxiety of the figure of the Big Brother who always protects his sister., who.,

said exactly the same as what Kenan said just now.

that between women and men, it is not appropriate to be friends until so close.that is what makes Ze and Pano remember the time of their stories, before the figure who always preached them, and who always, go for a long time, to make sorrow in their hearts.

"do I speak too harshly?? why did their expressions change like that?"

inner Kenan continued to stare at Pano, and turned to glance at Ze who was beside him.

"Ze, is he the incarnation of your brother?? why is his attitude and words exactly the same as Klaudia's sister who always lectured me, when I was close to you?"

pano asked who was shocked by Kenan's words, making Him unconsciously ask, until he mentioned Klaudia's name,

who is the figure of a brother who is always in pride, and always in missed by them, especially Ze, who is his biological sister.

until the Pano question

making Ze and Kenan instantly stunned

overheard him.

"Sister,,"

Inner Ze , while lowering his head recalls the figure of Big Brother who always keep and cherish him.

in contrast to the inner Kenan mention the name. "Kalaudia" he held a feeling of guilt in his heart.unconsciously dropped his handrails, which had been tightly attached to Ze's waist, now immediately fell down limp as if he had no energy. remembering his old mistakes.

Pano who realized the mistake in his words, he immediately tried to melt the atmosphere, choosing the right word to multiply the tension there.

but at the right time Rani looks new to enter the campus area and immediately walk towards them.

"morning Ze,,"

sapa Rani who was already standing near Ze, and her eyes immediately saw the male figure that was in front of her.

"it looks like he's no stranger" Rani's inner

"what is Rani" Inner Pano.

and after a little while they looked at each other, now they realized each other.

Rani,,, a,,,

Pano, though,,

simultaneously they called each other, and immediately embraced, releasing their longing.

"akh, it's true that childhood friends are alai"

inner Martin, who was staring cynically at Rani and Pano, who were hugging.

"hey Culun, you ,,! this is really loe"

sapa Rani who has let go of her embrace, feels good to see her old friend Pano again.

Roni and Martin who had just stood up as spectators, now they began to laugh fast, because they heard Rani who called the snot child Culun.

"hey, bar boy, do you have no eyes?? you still say I'm geeky, when you see my appearance like this,!"

pano was upset

considering the ledekan Rani who had previously said it was geeky and had not changed until now.

"hahaha, Ze turns out that Pano has changed, yes, he is not a geeky child who always follows you again"

sahut Rani, who was still busy with her laughter, approached Ze and stood beside him.

make Ze also laugh to see the debate Rani with Pano is still the same as before.

"you guys are two shitty girls"

pano

"how about we talk while sitting down, it feels like my feet are sore if I have to stand up, "

imbun Pano, who was already standing in the middle of Rani and Ze, casually embraced their shoulders, and took her away from there.

not caring about the 3 sharp eyes that had been staring at Pano.

"this child really doesn't know himself"

inner Kenan who quickly released Pano's hand from Ze's shoulder, and instantly pulled Ze to his side.

without speaking, Kenan just stares at Pano's cynics for not wanting to argue with him.

"Ze, you can tell him that we're just a friend, he shouldn't be jealous of me,,!!! I just want to talk about why the reaction was excessive, childish"

talking as if he was going to talk to Ze, but his eyes continued to look at Kenan.

making Kenan clenched his hands furiously, feeling annoyed at the behavior of the little boy in front of him.

why would Ze, have such a shitty friend like him

Kenan who was getting annoyed immediately stepped closer to Pano, his sense of wanting him to snap the little boy's head.

but quickly Ze immediately pulled Kenan's hand, knowing that her husband was very upset with his friend.

"let's just brother, from the first he was always annoying, do not need to be considered."

ledek Ze, while gouging his head looked towards Pano.

by putting on her little smile.

"hey crybaby!! you used to love crying came over to me asking for comfort, now after a long time you immediately forget my services and even say I'm annoying. actually really loe yes,"

"Ran, what, now you've always been ignored by her??"

by continuing to babble Pano continued to see the absence of Ze behind Kenan's body.

but quickly Kenan immediately holds two shoulders Pano, and turn his back, leading to Rani.

while Roni and Martin just kept silent without a word, shaking their heads at the behavior of the snot-much-behavior boy.

"loe, they have the same business!! hurry up and go"

with his ease Kenan turned Pano's body, because Pano's size is smaller than his body size.

"hey,, you still want to talk to Ze, "

"don't say much, just go there"

namel Kenan, while continuing to push Pano's body, with the other hand holding Pano's head, so that he can not look back.

"this is your protege, right, quickly take him away, my eyes hurt if I have to keep looking at him."

kenan said while pushing Pano's body slowly towards Martin, Martin quickly grabbed Pano's shoulders, and immediately pulled him, going inside.

"woi, just so I can walk by myself"

pano said, who had broken away from Martin's embrace, now he walked closer to Rani, and immediately embraced his shoulders.

"wow this child is right ngeselin,, "

said Martin and immediately pulled Pano's hand again and kept him away from Rani's body.

"don't you want to go around the campus,! let me be the friend"

martin said that had separated Rani and Pano and stood in the middle of them.

"woi what the hell is this," protested Pano, feeling iris as Martin's hand violently held his shoulder.

"don't say much, let's go, please,"

exclaimed Martin while continuing to walk to invite Pano inside.

making Rani also surprised to see the behavior of Martin, who arrived to keep Pano away from the side,

and now even Martin is next to him.

now that Kenan and Ze are there, Kenan immediately turned his body and immediately looked at Ze with question marks.

"hey yangk, don't look at me like that, it's scary"

said Ze spoke sweetly, already knowing that her husband would definitely interrogate her.

you could have knocked me out the most Zepania.

inner Kenan while slowly approaching Ze by putting on his small smile, because he saw the face of Ze who had shown his sweet face.

trying to seduce her.

"why put on such a sweet face?? you feel you've got something wrong with me"

said Kenan with a hand that had tickled Ze's waist trying to punish him.

"Sir Ken, take care of Kak,,"

by begging Ze has wriggled here and there but Kenan never stop his activities.

"can you tell me why you have a friend who sucks him?"

asked Kenan with a happy smile

seeing Ze who had laughed out of his pocket held amusedly because of his actions.

"yes, I'll tell you, but let go first"

because he was satisfied to prank Ze, Kenan immediately stopped his movement, and immediately pulled Ze's hand to invite him to sit, to hear the story.

"you can tell me now"

exclamation Kenan because it is curious why Pano also knows Klaudia, to compare figures

Klaudia with her.

Kenan began to circle his hands around Ze's abdomen, leaning Ze's head over his shoulder. allowing Ze to sit comfortably, to begin the story.

"i'm Rani and Pano, when our Elementary School always play together, play normally small children in general. running, joking, that's our daily life, when at school.

the closer we get to the day, where we are always together, such as 3 groups that can not be separated.

we always sat together in front of the school gate, waiting for an invitation that would pick us up.

it was Brother who always picked me up, and at that time we were directly lectured by Brother,

Brother always says even if we are close friends, but must be able to keep a distance.

because "between a woman and a man there is no such close relationship"

that's what you always say when you see us playing and embracing each other.

quickly Brother always pulled me, and became the distance between us, but even so that makes Pano remember the figure of Big Brother, the figure who always guarded and protected his sister, but even so that is what makes Pano remember the figure of Big Brother,

until when Brother left for good, making us always remember him.I turned into quiet and moody, because always missed him, because I always missed him,

and in those days, Pano and Rani, who were always by my side, comforted and calmed me, pulled me out of my slump, when I was left behind forever.

until I can be a little more calm and mengikhlaskan departure, although there are still many memories that I can not forget."

ze said.

Kenan who listened to Ze's story, now he increasingly felt tightness in his chest, holding back guilt considering all his mistakes.His past unknowingly by Ze who very pervasive loss of his brother, Kak, who left forever because of Kenan's mistake.

her hands now began to gently caress Ze's head, peeling her many times trying to divert her guilt.I want her to feel like she's expressing all her heart, she said,

yet her lips kept silencing not the power to tell the truth.

her affection and love for Ze, makes Kenan silenced in fear that Ze will leave her, and will turn to hate her, if Ze finds out the truth.

"sorry, pardon me, I'm too selfish Ze, I don't deserve to be next to you, but allow me to keep loving you, let me stay by your side, love you and take care of you for the rest of my life Ze, although it won't make up for my mistakes, but at least I can rest easy to see you happy.

I'm sorry Zepania, it's all my fault"

kenan's inner voice spoke softly, and now he started to hug Ze hugging him tighter, it felt like he didn't want to let go of that hug, afraid that Ze would leave him.

Ze who noticed Kenan's change in behavior, feeling the warmth of Kenan's embrace, now he began to lean his head in Kenan's arms.

"i'm fine, Brother, I've let Klaudia go, I'm not sad anymore, now I'm happy with my new life because of Kak Ken's presence by my side,"

said Ze who was leaning in Kenan's arms, with his hands continuing to stroke the chest of Kenan's field.

"i was surprised to hear the words of Kak Ken, which is exactly the same as what Brother always said.

it made me re-assert Klaudia's figure who was always there to take care of me,"

imbun Ze while puffing his face looked towards Kenan's face.

until their eyes meet each other, Ze can see clearly Kenan's glassy eyes, enduring the pain that was his mistake.

"sorry"

unknowingly the word escaped from Kenan's mouth.

"why apologize?!,, "

ze said with a hand that had gently rubbed Kenan's eyes.

"sorry because I hurt you"

speak in his lowest voice, while slowly peeling Ze's forehead...

"why talk like that, Brother Ken never hurt me, precisely the presence of Kak Ken made me feel comfortable, he said, and the calm that I had not felt for a long time when I was next to Klaudia's sister,

Kak Ken Still reminded me when we first met in Surabaya, when we were trapped in the darkness of the elevator, when I felt afraid and unconsciously hugged Kak Ken directly, at that moment I felt the calm that Klaudia always gave me.

when Brother Ken, first told me to sleep on your lap, I felt Brother's gentle caress, as he caressed me and put me to sleep on his lap.

thank you for being present in my life, and complete my happiness, thank you for being the figure of a brother and husband who always take care and love me,

I love you my husband

ze said with a sweet smile while looking at Kenan's face.

I should have loved listening to her, but why does it hurt so much, anyway,,

will you continue to love me even if you know the truth about Ze??

do I deserve to be loved by you Ze!??

I'm sorry, I'm sorry for being so selfish, I love you too Zepania, I don't want you to go away my death.

inner Kenan with continued to endure the pain in her chest, now her hands began to gently caress Ze's face, lifting her slowly, and began to bow her head, and, positioning her face and now she's starting to soft kiss Ze's lips,

trying to get rid of all his anxiety, and put all his affection on his wife.

"forgive me Zepania, forgive me for not being able to be honest with you, I'm afraid you'll die me, let me feel the pain of all my regrets, I love you"

inwardly Kenan now she further deepens her kiss, exposes all her affection, with the gentle touch of her lips and further deepens her kiss, making Ze lulled and tightening her embrace.

trying to eliminate his anxiety even though it only disappeared in a moment.

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