Love the Illiterate Girl

Don't force me to forget

Don't force me to forget

Chapter, 69

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A loud slap hit Cristian's cheek, leaving him shocked to death.

"Are you saying, please forget my past about Devan?"

Mala's voice now began to rise, she no longer cared about Elena's current state. His emotions are like a fire.

"Have you ever asked in your heart a little bit about me. Why I hid my pregnancy from you. How I had to go through my pregnancy without a husband. And how my life was threatened and almost died in vain, because of your ex-wife."

"No, you never want to know all that. It's easy for you to ask to forget all that Cristian. Not for me who struggled alone while conceiving and giving birth to my son. Through difficult times we were alone. You know everything, don't you?" Mala finally blew up all her anger while crying in front of Cristian.

Her voice was too loud, and finally woke Elena who was sleeping asleep.

"Mama,"

Huhuhuhuhu

"Elena's scared, why is mommy angry?"

"I'm tired, take care of your own daughter I want to go home." Mala walked towards the door, intending to leave this room.

Cristian's hand quickly blocked Mala's arm. She hugged him from behind. But dear Mala doesn't heed it. He tried to escape from Cristian's embrace.

Cristian did not lose his mind, he then stood in front of Mala. And immediately kneel before Mala. And then hugged his feet.

"Sorry sorry sorry."

"Please don't go."

That's the only speech that can come out of Cristian's mouth right now. Her sobs were accompanied by Ellena's crying voice as well. Who saw Mala and Cristian were fighting.

"Mama and papa why fight, did Ellena make a mistake? I'm sorry that Ellena was naughty and made papa and mama cry." In between her tears Ellena blames herself for what happened to Mala and Cristian.

Huhuhuhuhu

"Cup cup baby calm down, be quiet baby." Cristian stroked Ellena's hair gently.

Huhhuhuhi

"But papa is fighting the same, is it all because of Ellena?"

"Dear, it's not so papa neither mama quarreled."

"But mom is crying."

"Mama's eyes flickering dear. So that her tears didn't come out on purpose."

"Are your eyes really flickering?"

Ellena was able to calm down again.

"Dear on, Ellena can ask mom."

"Really, isn't it because Ellena's naughty isn't it papa?"

"No dear, my beautiful son is now resting again. Papa's going to meet mama and persuade mama to come back to keep Ellena here."

"Yes papa, Ellena wants to bobo again."

Cristian smiled, and again laid Ellena on her small bed.

After Mala took her foot off Cristian's arms.

He walked out of that room. Mala's steps lead her to the back garden. He sat there alone, looking at the flowers he had planted. Now the flower is flourishing and flowering beautifully colorful.

Mala needed to calm her heart.

For quite a long time he sat on the long bench of the park behind Adiwijaya's residence. The place he loved the most, where he tried to ease his emotions. It is not so easy to forget the mistakes of others. Mala let out a long sigh, neutralizing her true mood was really very bad.

Cristian slowly came to Mala, and sat down beside her. But Mala acted as if there was no one beside her. Mala looked at the flower garden with an empty look. His heart still did not feel good.

Cristian took Mala's hand, and gently grasped Mala's fingers. Unexpectedly Cristian then kissed the back of the hand for a long time. Mala was shocked by what Cristian was doing. He tried to let go of the hand but Cristian instead clasped more tightly to Mala's hand.

"I know Mala, I've hurt you so much. And you still can't forgive me. But please stay here with me."

Mala could not answer Cristian. His mouth felt very faint, even to take out a single word from his lips. Mala just chose to be silent in a sense of tightness in her chest. How to avoid, his heart was eager to leave Cristian alone here. But his body seemed to lock him up and asked him to stay seated there.

"Don't force me to forget my past, Cristian."

"Every moment I pass with my son is either happy or the sadness is still recorded clearly in my memory. I can't take it if you tell me to forget it."

Finally in a soft voice Mala let out her heart. Cristian turned and looked at Mala's face. His cheeks were filled with tears again. Cristian's hand began to wipe away the clear round circles dripping on Mala's cheeks. He could not speak anymore, only his moving hand continued to rub Mala's wet cheeks.

A beautiful afternoon sky with orange sunset accompany these two people. It felt as if the sky and the universe knew the pain felt by those who were under it at this time. Until the dark night picks up, the two just sit looking forward with Mala's hand held by Cristian.

Dinner at the dinner table was tasted bland by Cristian. Mala did not even a little feed a mouthful of rice in her mouth. Just stir it up. Lady Elisabeth was confused to see the behavior of the two people in front of her. But he kept silent and did not want to ask. Give them space to think in their own way.

By the time Ellena fell asleep Mala had locked the door to her room. Cristian tried to knock on the door several times, but Mala would not open it. Cristian chose to give up. He shouldn't have disturbed Mala.

The morning sun came and shone on the window of Ellena's room.

Mala smiled seeing the little girl beside her still sound asleep. All night they slept cuddling and not letting Mala let go of her embrace. Her hands began to palpate Ellena's forehead, trying to sense her body temperature. And this morning his body temperature had dropped a bit. Mala breathed a sigh of relief, and immediately got down from the top of the bed.

After finishing the bath, and dress up the door of his room is shoved from the outside.

"Who?"

"I'm madam, bi Ratih."

Mala opened the door to see Bi Ratih in front of him carrying a bowl of porridge for Ellena.

"Let me feed her, the mistress is already at the bottom waiting for breakfast together."

"No need to bi, let me feed Ellena."

"But madam,"

"No matter bi, I can have breakfast after I finish taking care of Ellena."

"All right then, thank you madam."

"It's the same bi."

Mala received a tray from bi Ratih's hand.

Meanwhile bi Ratih returned to the bottom floor.

"Where's Mala bi?"

Lady Elisabeth saw the arrival of bi Ratih from upstairs.

"Sorry madam, madam Mala who wants to feed Miss Ellena breakfast. He said he'd take care of it. After that he'll be down for breakfast."

"Well then, thank you bi."

Lady Elisabeth continued her breakfast, and Cristian stood up from her seat.

"Where are you going, son?"

"Crist wants to see Ellena first."

Lady Elisabeth nodded her head.

Cristian went upstairs to Ellena's room. Silently, he watched Mala, who was feeding Ellena. After that clean Ellena's body and change her clothes. Cristian's heart warms to see Mala's gentle treatment of Ellena. Although Cristian knows Mala doesn't know the truth yet, if Ellena isn't his real daughter.

Tok tok tok tok

Mala looked towards the door, and saw Cristian there. He just kept quiet not responding to the arrival of Cristian, but continued to take care of Ellena. After her clothes were changed, Mala combed her hair slowly.

"Today I'd like to take you to go find a psychologist for Ellena."

Mala was silent, and continued to comb Ellena's hair.

"As soon as we're ready, we'll leave in ten minutes."

But there was no answer from Mala.

Cristian sat on the edge of Ellena's bed that Mala had cleaned.

Ellena's back in bed by Mala.

"Dear Ellena, have you taken the medicine?"

"It's papa,"

"Now Ellena bobo again yeah."

Ellena nodded her head, her eyes feeling heavy after taking the medicine just now.

Mala is seen back in the bathroom and picking up her bag.

Cristian looked at him, and saw that Mala had prepared.

"Let's go."

Mala followed Cristian's steps, and went downstairs. Lady Elisabeth was in the front yard scissoring dried leaves on her plants. Seeing Cristian and Mala seem to be coming out, he smiled.

"Where are you going, son?"

"Sir, Crist will take Mala to find a psychologist for Ellena."

"All right?"

Cristian and Mala took turns to greet Elisabeth.

"Be careful on the road, son."

"Sir, Mala left Ellena for a moment. We won't be long."

"Yes, son, go. It's okay too long."

Madam Elisabeth held back her laughter.

He believed that one day Mala's heart would melt as well. It just takes patience for Cristian to wait and try until Mala's heart is broken again.

Cristian opened the door and allowed Mala to get into the car. Cristian came in and started driving. When their car came out, it was seen that Miss Margaret's red car entered the courtyard of the Adiwijaya family home.

"Cristian where's grandma?"

After greeting her grandmother, Miss Margaret looked towards the gate. He knew his sister's car just came out.

"Cristian and Mala are out, Grandma told them to find the best psychologist for Ellena."

"But Cristian could have searched the internet, Grandma."

"You are, why can't you support Grandma's plan."

"I mean grandma?"

"Yes as you can see, Crist will have plenty of opportunities to walk with Mala."

"Oh, it turns out my grandmother had a great plan."

"May they be reunited, Grandma."

"Amen."

They finally decided to go into the house.

Half an hour's drive, Cristian drives his car in front of a cafe.

"Kok we're here?"

Mala was surprised, instead of their plan of going to the hospital. Why go into the cafe.

"Let's not say much, let's go inside."

"I don't want to."

"Please Mala, just for a moment."

Mala shook her head in disapproval.

"I haven't had breakfast this morning, my stomach will hurt if it hasn't filled up."

Cristian persuaded Mala with a voice made as if she was right to be sick.

"Alright but not for long," said Mala ketus.

Cristian smiled, and immediately got out of the car and into the cafe, followed by Mala.

Their tables were filled with food.

"Are you sure you're gonna eat all this food?"

"I don't eat here alone. Come eat I know you haven't had breakfast before, right?"

Cristian told Mala to eat too. The truth is Mala hasn't had breakfast yet.

"I don't want to eat. You eat by yourself."

Kruukkk kruukk

Cristian chuckled, hearing Mala's stomach.

"It looks like your stomach won't compromise. He was also yelling for stuff."

"Do you want me to take a bribe?"

"No, I can eat by myself."

"Yes, let's eat. Eat a lot to make you healthier."

She just kept quiet and didn't want to talk. He started eating his food on the table. They both ate without speaking. Cristian finally felt calm, when he saw Mala finishing her meal.

"Let's go."

Mala can't wait to get out. About twenty minutes passed but Cristian did not want to get out of his seat. He's been busy with his cell phone since.

"Ehem."

Mala cleared her throat, but Cristian didn't seem to hear it.

"Are we going to sit here all day?"

Mala was impatient again, seeing Cristian's behavior.

"It looks like you just want to have fun here, and leave your own daughter feeling sick at home."

Cristian just kept quiet and kept playing with his phone. His behavior made Mala angry. He shook his head to start not liking Cristian's behavior. Mala started to pick up her bag and stood up.

As Mala was about to leave, Cristian grabbed her wrist. And pulled him up to Mala sitting on Cristian's thigh.

Mala tried to escape. But Cristian instead tightened his embrace on Mala's waist so that she could not stand up.

"What are you doing Crist?"

"It's a public place, aren't you ashamed. The crowd sees us let go of me now."

Mala kept trying to stand up.

"I don't care if everyone sees us. Let us be like this."

"Let go or I'll scream."

"Just yell, I'm not scared."

"City .."

Cristian quickly silenced Mala's mouth with his hand

Hhmmmptt

"You're getting brave."

"Do you think I'm scared?"

"Let me stand."

"No, I want you to continue like this on my lap."

"Take off Crist, I'm ashamed to be seen by the crowd."

"That means if you don't see a lot of people, you're not ashamed, right?"

Mala's face flushed with Cristian's question.

"You can't answer that, doesn't that mean my mind?"

"Let's go."

"Where?" Mala asked with a rosy face holding in shame.

"To a place where you won't be ashamed of being in my lap."

Cristian chuckled softly.

"Crist, "

Mala rounded her eyes and hit Cristian's arm with her bag.

"Aww."

"Why your punch makes me even more sure you want to."

"You what?"

Mala's face was getting red.

"You want me to take it."

Crist replied casually.

"Don't dream, let's go."

"All right."

Cristian smiled cunningly behind the back of Mala, who was walking in front of him.

Mala walked ahead of Cristian to the parking lot. In his mind he wanted to immediately find the psychologist who was the best for Ellena. The sooner Elena recovers, the sooner she leaves Adiwijaya's house.

Both are in the car. But again Mala was upset by Cristian's behavior. Cristian's car didn't go looking for a hospital. Cristian even took Mala to walk the road as she wished. Until they arrived at a villa on the outskirts of the city.

"Why are we here, how about finding a psychologist for Ellena?"

Cristian just kept quiet and got out of his car. He headed to the left side of the car and opened the door for Mala, then let her down from the car.

This villa is a pretty quiet place. Cristian then asked him to follow him.

"I don't want to, just leave me here." Strictly Mala, who has not been able to stand the strange behavior of Cristian since.

"You think I'm gonna do something weird to you?"

Cristian smiled smirked towards Mala. Makes Mala shudder in horror at seeing it.

In Mala's mind was how to persuade Cristian to return home.

"Please follow me, "Cristian tries to take Mala gently.

"No."

"Come on Mala, I won't do anything. I just want you to follow me."

Mala hesitantly followed Cristian from behind.

Mala was taken to a lake. In this area there is a large lake. The place is so cool, plus it is still quiet visitors, because usually this Villa will be crowded on weekends.

The two of them were already sitting in a long chair facing the lake. There was a large, shady tree laying down where they sat. Really sitting there is so soothing.

Cristian clasped Mala's hand. Mala tried to take it off. But Cristian's hand clasped his hand even tighter. As if I don't want to let go again.

"Mala, I actually brought you here to apologize to you."

"I'm sorry you said?"

Mala sounded emotional.

Ssstttts

"Please calm down and listen to what I have to tell you."

Cristian asks Mala to be quiet.

"I'm sorry to you. For all my carelessness in the past. For all the pain you've been through because of me. For all the tears you shed because of me. I'm not asking for much from you right now Mala. Enough to be with me like this every day. And I'll try to fix all my past sins for you."

"I'm sorry that I'm so sorry, because of the stupidity of my past you lost your beloved son. I don't deserve to be his father. Maybe that's why God won't let me know the truth."

"Right now, I'm asking you, please accept my apologies. And I realize you haven't been able to forgive me. But I will always be patient to accept your forgiveness."

"Your apologies are of no use anymore, Crist. I hate you and will always hate you."

Mala hit Cristian in the chest, who was already embracing Mala's body in his arms.

"Yes hit me all you want Mala. If by hitting me your hatred for me will be gone. Do it, as you please."

"It's enough not to cry anymore. I promise to turn your tears into happiness. You will always be happy with me."

Mala's body was too tired to keep hitting the chest field Cristian already can not do anymore.

"I'm tired Crist, I'm tired. I miss my son and you hurt me."

"Ssttt calm down Mala."

Cristian clutched Mala's body tightly in his arms, kissing the tip of his head.

Mala falls asleep in Cristian's arms.