Love Istiqomah

Part 40's. Longing

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A man in all white clothes was lost in a beautiful garden with a sprinkling of matching roses. That man was none other than Azlan. He was confused to see the atmosphere around.

"Where am I?, why is this place so foreign?" Azlan asked himself.

Suddenly Azlan's sight came to a halt at one point. His pair of eyes were staring at a beautiful woman with a bright white robe and khimar syari. The woman like the Angel of Heaven was sitting in the garden chair with a smile she spread to Azlan.

"Milary." Call Azlan while running to get to him.

After arriving in front of the beautiful woman Azlan immediately hugged her so tightly and was reluctant to let go. The longing that he craved has now been treated. Azlan was very happy because he could hug the wife he loved with all his heart.

"Dinda, I miss Dinda, Dinda anywhere?, Dinda don't go anymore huh?" Pinta Azlan with full plea after taking off a moment of his embrace.

"You, I'm sorry yes, I can't accompany Kanda anymore, my time in the world is up. I hope Kanda can accept this with eight breasts." Filzah said with a smile that continued to shine on his shining face.

Azlan shook his head quickly. He disagreed with the words of his beloved wife. "No Dinda, Dinda can't go, I won't let go of Dinda anymore." Azlan quickly re-captured his wife's body so that she would not be left again.

Filzah. She was so happy to see her husband so sincerely love her and did not want to lose her. But it is destiny that has separated their bodies but their hearts will remain attached to each other.

"Kanda, I love Kanda, I love Kanda very much." Filzah said with all his heart.

Azlan kissed his wife's shoulder affectionately. "I love Dinda too, and I don't want us to be apart, stay with me, with our children."

Azlan placed his head on the wife's shoulders. He felt calm and comfort and did not even feel he was drifting in his sleep.

"Azlan's"

"Azlan wake up, son."

Azlan's vegetables heard someone calling him. Slowly her eyes opened. Azlan was shocked to find himself in his room. Immediately Azlan realized that he had just dreamed of the wife he missed most.

"Oh God, I was just dreaming." Azlan said with a huffed and disappointed face.

Azlan also circulated his gaze and he looked at the silent face of the Mama who had just been silent to watch him.

"Mamaa." Azlan screeched with tears beginning to drip.

Azlan inched down. She buried her face in her lap and cried.

"Mama, Filzah has gone Ma, Filzah has left Azlan, Ma."

Hilyah wiped her tears. He could not hold back the tears that just flowed. The departure of Filzah became not only the sorrow of Azlan but also the grief of everyone including Hilyah. Which mother-in-law was not devastated by the passing of her daughter-in-law, especially the daughter-in-law who was as noble and kind as Filzah.

"Downlight your heart, Son, strengthen your soul, Mama knows how you feel, but this is a decree from God, and we cannot change it. Now Filzah needs a prayer from you. And may you mate until heaven."

"Aamiin's."

After shedding his endless sadness, Azlan tries to toughen up despite his heart's bloodless wounds left by a lover of hearts who will never be able to come back again, except when Allah will allow to be reunited in His Jannah.

"Ma, Azlan does not know if Azlan can live this life without Filzah, it feels Azlan is not able to Ma, Azlan is not strong."

Hilyah grabbed the nape of the Son. He wanted to give his Son strength in the face of this toughest test.

"Azlan listen to Mama, in God you are able, you are able to undergo this toughest test, because God will not test beyond the limits of your ability. Satisfy your heart yes, increase your patience so that you can be strong to face all this."

Azlan put his head on the lap of the Mama. The tears just kept flowing without pause. He was very fragile after Filzah left for ever.

Hilyah gently stroked the head of the Son to strengthen him. "Azlan, you are a great Mama's child, even though Filzah has left, you still have to remember, you still have children, there is Zaura and your baby who has just been born into the world, he said, they need you, their father, they need the affection of their parents. You must remain strong, for the sake of your children, your children and Filzah."

Azlan also woke up. He remembered Zaura and the baby that was yesterday still in his wife's womb. Now he has reason to stay strong on the face of the trials that are blocking. My mother said her children needed her. He needs love from his parents. But if you think again Azlan will not be able to raise their children alone. Azlan needed a wife beside him. He cannot stand alone. His children need the complete affection of both his parents. But fate does not stand with them. Still small they must be separated from their Mother. How tragic.

"Azlan's."

The voice of someone from the doorway resuscitated Azlan. He also raised his head. He saw Selin and Ergin standing in front of him.

"Azlan I'm sorry, all this time I was wrong with Filzah." Suddenly Selin immediately rested in front of Azlan followed by Ergin.

"Yes Azlan we're sorry, we've been hurting your wife, Filzah. We deserve to be punished for the evil deeds we have done to Filzah." Ergin admitted her mistake.

Azlan shook his head slowly. "Selin, brother, I have no right to forgive you, because you have wrong Filzah, not me."

Selin is getting more tears. He did not get an apology from Filzah because he was too late to apologize. Filzah is gone and will not return, so how can he get an apology from the one who has departed from this world?, it is impossible.

"But I am sure that Filzah must have forgiven you, Filzah has a noble heart, he is not a vengeful man. In Allah's fault Brother Ergin and Brother Selin have been forgiven." Tymphal Azlan continued his words.

Selin was very happy to hear that. "Thank God, may Filzah forgive our guilt." Selin said expectantly.

"Abang, Brother Selin, please pray for my wife Filzah, that her charity may be received by God and may she be a heavenly inhabitant."

"Abang, I ask you brother, whatever happens between you do not ever hurt Brother Selin especially to be able to throw him away. Enough of me who regretted my mistake to my wife, enough of me who became a dzolim husband to my own wife."

Ergin nodded. He will always remember important advice from his sister. On the other hand, Ergin was swept away in the sadness of her sister. Not necessarily he can be strong and tough like Azlan if he is in his position. He should be much grateful because God still gives an opportunity for him to remain with his wife until this moment.

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At night Azlan was alone in his room. He clutched tightly to a navy-colored robe belonging to his wife. He hugged the robe as if he were hugging his wife, Filzah.

"Dinda, I miss you baby, I miss you so much, come back baby, come back to my arms." His words with sobs that returned present accompanied his slump.

The good times with Filzah recorded in his memory are now springing up again. Azlan smiled lovingly as he recalled it.

"Dinda, what is Dinda doing?, I'm lonely here without Dinda, I can't sleep without Dinda, I keep thinking of Dinda."

Azlan let out his complaints as if he was having a warm conversation with his wife. It had never been imagined before that now he would have to live alone again, unaccompanied on the side. Everything felt bland no more sweetness that he felt in his life. 

"I'm someone who never wants to be grateful. I should have looked after and loved my wife no matter what, I should have trusted her instead of blaming her. Now I'm really sorry, sorry that means nothing. My wife is gone and she will never come back. It's all because of me, because of my stupidity." Azlan rubbed his face rough and riled.

"Now that I can only regret and regret, does this mean that my regret is nothing at all." Azlan was blaming himself even more.

"God strengthen me, my longing for my wife hurts my heart so much, I am tormented withholding a longing that will never be healed, because what I miss I can't see again, I can't see anymore."

"Dinda I love you"

"I miss you."

Azlan screamed out all the outpouring of his heart. He misses his wife very much. Once when his wife was still there he could waste it, but now after his wife left he just cried hysterically full of regret. 

"I'm sorry, God"

"I'm sorry"

Azlan sat curled up. He hugged his knees crying hysterically. His hand could only stroke the bed his wife used to sleep on. He wanted to caress his wife's body again, but now everything feels impossible.

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Assalaamu 'alaikum Warohmatullah Westarokaatuh

Ukhfira could not say anything more

Ukhfira's feeling was drained

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Ukhfira knows what it's like to lose a loved one

Ukhfira knows what it's like to miss someone who has gone

Ukhfira knows what it feels like to be sorry but meaningless

Everything Ukhfira knowsuu

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Readers what happened with Azlan please to serve as learning yaaa

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If the person you love is still in this world

Please love and care

Don't waste it

Because when it's gone only regrets happen

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For those who have lost loved ones

Open your heart

Add to your patience

Strengthen your body and soul

Pray that God will reunite in heaven

Aamiin Allahumma Aamiin

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Wassalaamu 'alaikum Warohmatullah Westarokaatuh