Love in the Waiting

A STRANGE FEELING

After the incident at the cafe a few days ago, Bagas felt himself strange. I don't know his chest feels tight if he remembers the harsh words he said to his best friend's sister-in-law. Actually Bagas was eager to contact Nayla just to apologize. But he always broke it.

Today Bagas intends to apologize directly to Nayla. He's been waiting in Erlan's office lobby for 30 minutes.

“What Nayla does to the Office today ?”said monologue.

As he was focusing with his own mind, instantly his eyes sparkled because someone he was waiting for finally appeared.”Nayla...”call her.

Nayla who was focused at that time with her gaze immediately turned to the origin of the sound.”Brother Bagas, what else does he want ?”nayla murmurs.

Bagas walked over to Nayla.”Nayla I've been waiting for you. I thought you weren't at the Office.”ujar Bagas.

Nayla stared lazily.”What are you doing, Brother ?”ask her with a flat tone.

“I want to talk about something Nay. Can you take a minute.”pinta Bagas.

“Sorry brother but I'm busy at the moment. And yes there is a meeting with the client in 1 hour, I must represent the Erlan bang because he also has to monitor his project outside the Office.”tolah Nayla.

“Kakak please Nay just for a moment. Come on Nay, just for a moment I beg.”pinta Bagas who unknowingly holds Nayla's hand.

Nayla immediately brushed off Bagas' arm. Nayla breathes in.”All right, just for a second. We just talk there.”ujar Nayla lazily while pointing at one place outside the office building.

Right now they are under a tree. The afternoon wind was blowing so hard. Both are looking ahead. Bagas occasionally looked at Nayla's face. I don't know he is always peaceful if he sees the face of his best friend's sister-in-law.

Watching the leaves waving in the wind. Occasionally Nayla tidied her hair that had been greeted subtly by the wind. His feelings at this time were not good, his chest suddenly thumped. His heart was beating not according to his rhythm. Because from earlier Nayla realized that Bagas continued to see it.

“Actually what's up sister ? I don't have much time.”ujar Nayla with a flat tone.

“I want to apologize for what I said the other day Nay.”ujar Bagas to the point.

Bagas holding arm Nayla.“I hurt your heart so much that time, Nay. I really feel my mind is disturbed because of my guilt for you.”uajr Bagas.

“Already Brother, I've forgotten that too. Maybe I was wrong because I was presumptuous to interfere in your affairs.”ujar Nayla who slightly held tightness in her chest.

“Can you go back to acting like the Nayla I used to know ?”pinta Bagas's.

“I'm still the same Nayla sister, you're the one who's overdoing it.”ujar Nayla with a flat tone.

Bagas accidentally pulled Nayla's hand until the faces of the two were close together.”.This isn't the Nayla I know. This is a different Nayla. Please don't ignore Nay and be cold to me.”pinta Bagas while staring in Nayla.

Nayla claps Bagas' hand that holds her, keeping her face away from the man who always makes her heart beat faster.”Alright brother, I don't have time to serve your unimportant talk. What's your business with my change of attitude anyway ? this won't do you any of her influence, will it ? Oh yes one more, you better focus on your love relationship with Ajeng. May you always be happy. Nayla must return kak”ujar Nayla while getting up and intending to leave.

Bagas holding arm Nayla.”Nay don't be like this I beg you. Please come back like the Nayla I used to know.”pinta Bagas.

Nayla cries in silence.”Forget about the Nayla you knew. Nayla who always bothers you and meddles in your business. I don't want to be a bully for your life, brother. Better you go now.”plek Nayla who turned her back to Bagas.

GREPS..

Instantly Bagas hugged Nayla from behind.”Don't make my chest tighten Nay with this attitude of yours. I beg Nay. My heart aches to see you turn like this, I was guilty of accidentally scolding you back then. I'm sorry Nay, please forgive me. Forgive Brother Bagas, please Nay”pinta Bagas while tightening his arms.

Nayla surrenders. Her tears fell down immediately. “ Please brother don't be like this. Don't make me even more unable to forget you. Don't make this love go deeper, I don't want to get stuck with this feeling. I don't want this feeling of love to go too far. I don't want to be disappointed any deeper when my love doesn't return. I beg you not to cultivate again the love that Nay wants to bury deeply for sister. Bagas is already happy with Ajeng's brother, please let Nay continue Nay's life and learn to forget brother and remove brother's name from Nay's heart. Let this bully go away from big brother's life .”lirih Nayla while releasing the arms of Bagas and immediately run away leaving Bagas still glued.

Bagas was still sculpting and digesting what his ears had just heard. He tried to normalize his heart that had been beating while he was near Nayla. Without realizing it, he pulled a little of his lips when he found out Nayla's true feelings. I don't know if these thoughts and feelings are always strange if you are with Nayla. COMFORTABLE is what you always feel. The change in Nayla's attitude these few days made her a little confused and felt like she was missing something.

Nayla loves me ? Since when ? What I heard was the truth ? He expressed his own feelings for me ? And my heart why is it so peaceful and so happy to know that she's putting feelings on me ? Did I love him too but I didn't realize all this time ? What strange feeling did I feel a few days ago was the feeling of love too ? But why can't I be sensitive to my own heart ? God, I hurt her so deeply. Forgive Bagas Nay.Lirih Bagas in heart.