Love for Adita

Love for Adita 4

" Please get out of this house." Banish papi.

Dani woke up from her seat. Mas Dani held mami's hand in a friendly manner. My eyes are heating up looking at them. There was a jealous fire erupting inside the chest.

Mas Dani's... We once promised to age together, but God's destiny outlines us only here.

I looked at the departure of the two traitors with the hearts of the fishermen. At once God kept me away from Dani and mami.

" God, what's my fault?" My heart's screams are heartbreaking.

The longer my eyes blurred, the pool of water began to pool in the eye pelupuk. Without being able to hold the water scrambling to get down to wet my face.

" Dit, we're strong. We're strong, Dit." Saying papi while patting my shoulder many times.

I just nodded without being able to answer. But I can't lie, papi's the same thing as me. Fragile. Yes, we're fragile without mom.

***

This is the seventh day of the departure of mami and mas Dani. I purposely blocked all access related to mami and mas Dani. Not spared by me blocking their social media accounts.

Papi and I started taking care of the divorce papers together.

" Pi, we have to move-on." I said this morning.

After mom decided to go with mas Dani, inevitably I finally returned to live in the house papi. I can't bear to leave Papi alone in a house this big.

I'm also afraid if you'll despair and choose a dead end. Enough I lost mami, not to lose papi. Papi is everything.

" Papi don't be sad continue dong," I tried to encourage papi

" What are you doing, Dit?"

I was surprised to hear Papi.

" What's the news, Dit? Is mom happy? Papi misses mommy. Papi's lifetime, papi is never far from mami." This morning's papi curse made the wound in my heart gap again. The hatred for my mother grew more and more in my chest.

" Pi, mami happy or not now it's not papi's business. The most important thing right now is your health. Both of us health."

" But my mom never lived hard, Dit." Papi a little bit did not accept my words.

" Pi.." I snapped.

Papi looked at me inside. There is a sense of regret for daring to snap papi.

" sorry,pi. Dita didn't mean to.."

Papi even grimaced, just like a child who was not bought by his mother.

" Pis... " I hugged papi. After the departure of mami, papi like losing his identity. Papi has not been to work for a week. His days were filled only with daydreaming and daydreaming. Papi also often blames himself. Papi is also increasingly often confused.

If I hadn't married Mas Dani, maybe we wouldn't have lost mami. If papi was younger, maybe mami would not be fascinated with mas Dani. If papi is more concerned with mami, if papi more time for mami... And there are still many ifs that are expressed papi.

Every cry papi I tried to persuade papi, calm papi, but this time I let papi cry as much as possible. Maybe papi needs to step over his load with a cry.

I waited long enough for papi to finish crying, until papi felt tired and fell asleep by himself.

I justify the position of the papi to be more comfortable sleeping on the sofa. Don't forget to give me a blanket so that papi feels warmer.

" Papi's... I miss my mom too. Just like papi. But mami's already flying

away with Dani, pi." Pilu.

I rubbed papi's wrinkled cheeks. Papi hair also began to grow a lot of gray hair. If you know, papi worked hard to make mami happy.

I walked away from the papi, the back garden became my favorite place, but that was when there was mommy. This park was once filled with ornamental flowers owned by mami. My mom is a plant lover. We used to spend a lot of time in the back of the house just chatting. I stared at the garden behind the house with a smile. Since the departure of mami, this park is not maintained. Many leaves are starting to dry, even many plants are almost dead due to drought. The fate of this plant is not much different from ours. Very dependent on mom.

I started cleaning the back garden, removing the dried leaves and started watering the plants that belonged to mami.

"Mommy can go, but this place full of memories must not be damaged." My own chat.

" Mommy, don't you miss this plant? Don't you miss hanging out with us in this place?" I spoke to myself, as if my mother was in front of me. But in fact, my mother no longer exists.

" Mommy, I lost mami. Mommy's the winner." My speech sniffled.

" Mommy satisfied? Mami satisfied? Huuu....." I cried myself to my satisfaction.

*

The divorce trial is over. Dani and I are legally divorced. Papi with mom is also legally divorced.

Our family lawyer takes care of everything deftly. He also sent all the divorce papers to Dani and Mami's house. I don't know where he got Dani's and mami's address. Because since my mom left I've been shutting down communication with both of them.

Since the departure of mami, papi became sick more often. Papi is not working either. All assets of the company have also been sold with business partners. He said he just wanted to enjoy old age beautifully.

Until one afternoon, "Dit, papi has sold this house."

Uhuuk! I was enjoying a cup of warm sweet tea so choked.

" Slowly, Dit." Papi patted my shoulder

" Seriously papi?" I don't believe it.

" yes. Papi just wants to live in a smaller house." Papi relaxed.

" That's not sudden, pi. We don't have any preparation to look for a house of pi."

" No contract, too, Dit." Papi's mouth again.

" Well, can you sleep without AC?"

" Ehm.." papi was like thinking for a moment.

" The weight of the pi loh lives in the contract." I kind of disagree with Papi's idea.

" This house is already sold. Sorry if papi didn't involve you and didn't tell you. Papi gsk can stay in this house. This house is full of memories. Every day, papi always sees the shadow of mami in this house. Every night, papi always hears mami's voice, mami's laugh, all about mami is in this house. Papi's going crazy, Dit." Papi is honest.

" Seriously papi?" I still don't believe Papi's words.

" Papi's always seen mommy in this house, Dit." Papi's eyes began to look far away. His face turned sad.

" Pi, if it's for papi's good, Dita agrees with papi's idea. Soon Dita will find a contract for us." I rubbed papi's shoulder.

Papi is very weak. Papi hasn't moved on from mommy.

***

After asking some friends for help, I was finally able to get a contract as soon as possible.

" Papi want to bring anything?" My toot.

Papi pondered, his eyes wet.

" Papi is crying." Ask again.

" No." Elak.

" Nangis is also not papa kok pi."

" Papi just bring this." I saw papi carrying a pair of jeans and black clothes with a famous brand.

" That's all?" I scrunched my forehead as a sign of wonder.

Papi just nodded. " Gift from mami last year." Papi weak.

" Why just one?" Many papi shirts bought by mami."

" Shirt, shoes, sandals, watches, all papi goods you can sell. The money will be put into the savings book. Papi doesn't need that stuff anymore." Papi answered my curiosity.

" Papi wants a new life. "

I began to understand, without much question I began to take care of the things I needed. I want to be like papi, start a new life without the shadow of mami and mas Dani. If papi is still carrying the mami gift, another thing with me, I do not bring any items related to mas Dani and mami. I want to move on, I want to live a normal life without the shadow of past wounds.