Love Children Pesantren

9) Only Tears

The time alternated, did not feel almost a month they studied at the beloved school. Aisyah's friend's friend had already known that Aisyah was slurred, so that ridicule, insults, ridicule was hurled at Aisyah. Not only his classmate, the classmate also followed mocking Aisyah. But Aisyah did not bother about it, her mind was currently only filled with Fariz Fariz and Fariz.

The break bell rang, the students ran to the canteen. Aisyah and Lina went to Windi's cafeteria while Dinda and Lina went to Bi Yuni's canteen.

"Am I really like him" said Aisyah daydreaming while stirring the guava juice that had been ordered.

"He's who you mean" asked Lina

"No, not who"

"Syah Lo why the hell, but keep thinking what the hell Lo, the burden of life?"

'cring cring cring'

The sound of the bell rang again, indicating that the break time was over.

"Enter class aja yuk, bel already sound" said Aisyah.

They stood up and immediately paid for the food they had ordered, then left.

•••••

"Dinda" called Aisyah slowly when they were in the pesantren.

"Yes"

"I can find something"

"What's the?"

"If you like someone again, you choose to express your feelings or just say it"

"Revealing the same feelings of people I like, yes at least he knows about my true feelings"

"That's it l"

"Yes, why Shah, what's wrong?"

"Nothing what"

Instantly there was a war in Aisha, between having to harbour her feelings or reveal to Fariz. Her heart said that Aisha should reveal everything she had felt so far to Fariz, while her brain always resisted that it was useless for Aisyah to express her feelings to Fariz that it would be in vain, in addition, Aisyah also did not have the courage to express her feelings. He was really in a dilemma, until finally Aisyah decided to express all her feelings to Fariz.

•••••

"Where are you going" asked Syifa when she saw Aisyah rush out of the classroom when the bell rang.

"Sorry fa, I have your business if you want to go to the cafeteria with Dinda and Lina, yes, Assalamualaikum"

"But,,, "

Not yet Syifa finished her speech Aisyah had gone out of class.

"Waalaikum salam" Lirih Syifa when Aisyah had gone away from the class.

Meanwhile, Aisyah was busy looking for Fariz, wanting to quickly express her feelings to Fariz even though Aisyah did not have the courage to do so. Until finally Aisyah found Fariz sitting in the back garden, she was so cool reading books. Aisyah also stepped slowly closer to Fariz, her feelings were not because it felt, cold sweat began to pour over her body.

"Assalamualaikum sis" said Aisyah bowed.

"Greetings waalaikum" Fariz replied not caring who came. He still reads the book.

"Emm, sa.., can I sit?"

Fariz nodded, his gaze still fixed on the novel he was reading.

"Sir, anu syai here mmm want to talk something" said Aisyah brick.

"what?"

"Actually me,, my, my anu"

Aisha grew more nervous her hands became trembling, as if she was being judged by the teachers for making a mistake.

"I like my sister" said Aisyah.

Aisyah quickly said the word while closing her eyes. Hearing Aisha's words, Fariz, whose eyes were fixed on the book, now looked forward. Then he closed his book and turned to Aisha, before Fariz turned his eyes to the front again.

"Gue is the guy who doesn't like to see pretentious chicks looking for attention to me, free you love love love love to me, love me, a lot of girls out there are also doing the same thing but honestly I'm not even comfortable with them,, let alone Lo cad,, "

"Cadel" said Aisyah.

Then Aisha stood up from her seat.

"I'm lispy, shabby, dirty, and not pretty, that's the reason. My brother has been amazed by my brother, I think that brother is not a good brother mostly out there, but just as it turns out that brother only looks at the physical person. And this is my fault, why I can say all about my feelings for my brother, even though I know that between my sister and I have a very far difference. Yes, I am too stupid to understand all this" said Aisyah. He had been holding back the tears that forced him to come out.

"Lo's driving away from me, stay away from me, don't Deket Deket me again, it'll be better"

Without saying goodbye Fariz immediately went from his seat.

"Well, fine if that's what you're asking. I will stay away and avoid my sister, I will not deketin brother again, and this is my promise to my sister" said Aisyah with a hardened voice. Her tears kept flowing.

That brought Fariz's footsteps to a halt. Eventually, guilt arose within him.

"Assalamualaikum" lirih.

Although Aisha's greeting was soft, Fariz still heard it. After that Aisyah immediately walked quickly away from the back garden of the school. Fariz could only look at the tiny body of Aisyah who was slowly disappearing from her sight.

"Waalaikum greetings" Fariz replied slowly.

Fariz walked straight to her class, bowing her head, as guilt arose within her.

As for Aisyah, she did not go straight to her class but she went to the bathroom to wash her face so that when Aisyah came to the class her friend did not realize that she was crying. After washing her face a few times, Aisyah calmed down, trying to forget about all the events. After Aisyah felt calmer she went straight to her class. The bell rang shortly after Aisyah entered the classroom.

"Where have you been" asked Syifa when she saw Aisyah coming.

"From the back garden, just keep going to the bathroom for a while"

"Keep why Lo's eyes are red like that"

"It was dusted"

"But you really ain't Papa shah?"

"No, you don't have to worry"

•••••

~ In class 12 MIPA 2 ~

"Both children, at this hour is a math lesson from Ms. Isma" said Mr. Joko.

"Yes sir"

"Well empty hours dong sir" said one of the students with a fluffy smile.

"Bu Isma said that you must do math tasks page 18 to page 20, tomorrow the task is handed directly to him"

"Yes, Joko sir"

"Well then you say yes son, do it really yes. Assalamualaikum"

"Greetings waalaikum"

Mr. Joko immediately went out of class, while some of them took out math books and worked on them, some were still cool in chatting and telling stories with friends.

"Riz Lo why? have a problem again? kok from earlier daydreaming" Tanya Ilham, Fariz's desk friend and roommate at the boarding school.

"No, I feel guilty about Aisyah"

"Dear of? Who is he"

"He's like a 10th grade, and he's a lisp"

"Emang Lo apain Aisyah until Lo feels guilty with her"

"So he told me kegue, that he likes me"

"Continue?!"

"So yeah I said that a lot of girls have shot me, but I refused everything. Even though they are beautiful especially she is slurred, but I mean that I do not want to insult her"

"Keep what he said"

"If my seinget he says emm,, what yes" Fariz said while remembering the words of Aisyah.

"He said that he thought I wasn't like another man, but I was just as physical" he continued.

"He must be so sad again Riz, Lo actually used to say so"

"Well, where do I know, if the girls on my shoot, I also said like so let them not sneak me again. Eh dunya not they ngejau even added nempel same me, where I was forced again to be his girlfriend. I think that Aisyah will also like that, I'm talking to her"

"Riz, the woman's heart is sensitive. Although Lo members of Lo's speech is trivial, but it can make a woman's heart hurt. And the woman's heart is easily fragile, if it's like the glass is easily broken. I had a friend in the elementary school who was slurred, he was insulted, ridiculed until he was afraid of school, it was a man, especially if a woman. And I'm sure Aisyah must have done the same thing, and Lo even added the wound in Aisyah's heart"

"But actually I have no intention at all to ngehina Aisyah, I just do not want to be deketin same women, dikeroyok, dicaperin I tired. Meals I talk about the same Aisyah, because I think Aisyah like other girls who even though digituin will still try bua nempel"

"Gue Deket really the same Lo, and I also already know who often caperin Lo. And I'm sure that Aisyah never caperin Lo like any other girl. Means he's been harboring all his feelings for Lo, he just wants Lo to know about his feelings just that it's nothing more"

"Lo's later to go home from school to meet him, the sooner the better. Before he was really disappointed"

"Yes, I'll apologize to him. Eh but Kok Lo can know about girls, use clear how the heart of girls anyway. Who can science from?" asked Fariz in a seductive tone.

"Well, you know all my sisters are girls, the only boys I know, so I know. Because my brother often confides in kegue about his problems, he also often nasehatin I let not hurt the heart of women"

"That's right, I guarantee that the girl who will be the wife of Lo will be lucky to have a husband like Lo understanding" said Fariz while laughing and patting Ilham on the shoulder.

Hearing the words of his friend Ilham also laughed.

••••••

'cring cring cring'

The bell reads indicating today's learning is over, students are welcome to prepare to go home.

"Fa, you, if you want to go home first, too, papa, I want to go to the back garden"

"You're doing"

"Emmm, I think my stuff fell in the back garden, I want to eat it"

"But Lo ga papa came home alone?"

" It's not papa, besides the distance of Deket school boarding school "

"But I don't feel good enough to let Lo go home alone"

" You ain't papa you're going home first"

" But,,, "

"No papa" Aisyah replied as she nodded slowly and smiled.

"Oh yeah if so, I'm ahead Shah"

"Yes"

Syifa went to the gate to wait for her two friends. Soon Dinda and Lina came to Syifa.

"Hey, where's Aisyah?" Ask Dinda

"So he said he wanted to go to the back garden, wanted to take his goods he fell. We're told to go home first"

"Oh yeah, that's it"

They walked straight home to the pesantren. While Aisyah walked slowly towards the back garden, actually Aisyah went to the back garden not to take her things that fell, but she wanted n to vent her sadness there. Because the back garden of the school was always quiet, while on the other side Fariz was busy looking for Aisyah's whereabouts to apologize to him. And accidentally Fariz saw Aisyah walking towards the back garden, without thinking Fariz immediately followed her.

Until Aisyah arrived at the back, then she sat in a white garden chair, leaning her body on the chair, her eyes empty facing forward, until a drop of tears came out of her eyes. Fariz watched Ayesha from behind a large mango tree. Aisyah was still pensive in silence, her tears the longer she could not stand.

" O Allah, "Say, said Aisha quietly in a hoarse voice.

"O Allah when it will be over, how long shall the servant be insulted, how many shall contempt the servant, thousands more tears shall he shed, how much sorrow should I receive, until when I silence my servants hear their maki maki."

Aisyah's speech was heard by Fariz, although Aisyah said it slowly but Fariz still heard it because the distance of the mango tree and the chair occupied by the aisyah was so close.

"O Allah, indeed the servant did not choose to be born lisp, the servant did not choose to have this kind of fate, the servant,,, "

"Hamba also wants to speak eloquently like a friend of a servant's friend"

"If this is indeed the fate of servants, please keep their mouths quiet so that they do not insult each other or make them feel what I feel. The servant is but a weak man, a fragile woman and often falls, O Allah until when,, until when the servant should be like this, how long will O Allah be"

Hearing Aisha's words, Fariz's heart was like a melt. A few drops of tears came out from his eyes, his guilt growing more and more tempestuous.

"The servant only wishes that You prepare the most beautiful destiny for the servant in the future, and that you may always have strength and patience in the servant. Indeed, all this time I have never told anyone about my grief even to abi, umi and slave families. All this time the servant only tells about all the sorrow of the servant to You, because the servant knows You are the best listener, who can provide solutions in every problem of the servant. Every waking up servant wishes for a miracle to come just like that to the servant, and for the miracle that comes the servant only wishes to You"

"O Allah during this time every good servant is always underestimated by them, every sincerity is repaid with contempt, every sacrifice is repaid with insults. As if all the courage, the confidence of the servant was all gone"

Aisyah was silent silent her eyes blank facing forward, her eyes sore because there were many tears that she let out. The sky suddenly became cloudy, the cool air flowed slowly from the east to the west making Aisyah's heart become calmer. Aisyah also wiped her tears and closed her to find a comfortable and calm atmosphere for her heart. While Fariz was still looking at Ayesha from behind the mango tree, he wanted to apologize to Aisha, but Fariz did not have the courage to do so. And after a few minutes Aisha had calmed down, God had calmed her heart through the mediation of nature. Realizing that Aisyah's overcast sky rushed back to the boarding school, Fariz let Aisyah walk away from the back garden so that Aisyah would not know of her whereabouts. After Aisyah left school, Fariz began to leave the park behind. Along the way, he was filled with guilt.

As for Ayesha, Today only tears accompany every time, which symbolizes sadness, fragility and disappointment.

Just Tears for Today.

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