LOVE BEHIND THE VEIL

139. It won't change

After the two finished eating a simple romantic dinner that Danira prepared for their first wedding anniversary celebration. Gavino asks Danira for permission to clean up for a while, as Gavino is already uncomfortable with the clothes he has been wearing all day.

Danira sat on a dark brown swing chair, made of teak wood, her back propped up by a swinging chair, her head looking up, with her eyes closed. While waiting for her husband to return, Danira enjoys the blowing breeze of the night, hitting her face.

Although Danira seems calm, but in his heart and mind raging erratically, hesitant and hesitant to tell something to Gavino.

Should I tell Gavin?, but what if he cannot accept it?, what if Gavin casts me instead?, O God....I don't want to keep this a secret from my husband, but what if he can't accept my condition like this. Inner Danira, fear.

After 20 minutes, Gavino had gone back up the Rooftop, to see his wife again. He looks fresher in his clothes. Gavino chose to stand for a moment, looking at his wife's face that looked much more beautiful when the moonlight hit Danira's face. Gavino smiled, in his heart continued to give thanks and admired the beauty of his wife's matchless, for some reason Gavino's heart always warmed even though just looking at his wife's face. Gavino secretly pulls out his phone, as usual Gavino will take pictures of Danira, adding to the collection into his cell phone gallery, which has been filled with photos of Danira.

" Are you just gonna stand there, and keep taking pictures of me secretly ?". Danira's voice mengangetang Gavino, He turned his eyes, looking at the melodious voice that always managed to tempt Gavino's faith, then save his phone and then approached Danira.

" I think I got caught this time ". Gurau Gavino, while wrapping a long maroon scarf-like cloth, thick to the exposed body parts of Danira. Danira smiled, then opened her eyes, so that Metra they both met each other. Despite having been married for 1 year, but when being stared at by Danira like this, Gavino's heart can not be silent, always pounding like a teenager who was first in love.

" Thank you for ". Danira said, justifying the scarf Gavino gave.

" Are you cold already?, what if we just go in now?, what else is your clothes too open like this, even though I like it, but I'm more afraid if you catch a cold ". Said Gavino, a little teasing Danira, he held his wife's face that felt very cold.

" I still want to be here, in a moment, mas ". Gavino did not answer, he just sat down next to Danira. Danira leaned her head against the husband's sturdy shoulder, Gavino retorted by embracing Danira's shoulder. Gavino moves his legs, so that the swings they sit on move casually forward and backward.

" May ?".

" Hmmm?".

" I want to tell you something !!".

" What is that ?". Ask Gavino.

Danira pulled out a white envelope, which was under her seat, on the front of the envelope inscribed the name of a famous hospital 'Muara Bunda Hospital '.

" What is this ?". Tanya Gavino, receiving Danira's gift.

" Two days ago, when I went to the hospital for a routine check-up, I accidentally went through Obgyn's room, and I went to the hospital, I wonder why I haven't been pregnant and want to make sure my uterus is okay. So I asked Sarah to sign me up, and that was the result of the mas ". Gavino pulled his hand from Danira's shoulder, opened the sealed white envelope, and read it. Gavino frowned, not understanding the medical language listed there.

" What does this mean?, I don't understand ".Danira was silent for a moment, looking at the curious looking face of Gavino, waiting for an answer from him. Danira seems hesitant to explain it to Gavino, but her husband must know, she must not hide this, Danira thought.

" According to the results of the examination that I have done, the cause of me until now has not been pregnant because the egg that I have is small and small, then the chances of me being able to have that child are very slim ". Danira explained her outline to Gavino in a soft tone, she lowered her head. Danira's heart really hurts to convey this new reality she knows, she feels that it has shattered her husband's expectations.

" I was declared to have polycystic ovary syndrome mas, because Horman's disorder is what causes me to come irregular months, and the main factor to date I have not been pregnant ". Danira again.

Danira has irregular menstrual cycles for a long time, sometimes Danira does not menstruate for more than 3 months, but Danira underestimate him, according to him as long as he does not have a relationship ****, and other strange things, He has nothing to fear and does not bother. But when he found out the results of his examination a few days ago, the words of the doctor made Danira think, anxious and worried, Danira blamed herself, why she did not check the condition of her uterus for a long time. Since Danira moved to Jakarta and met with Sarah, Danira has been scheduled to have regular health checks, but Danira always refuses when she gets checked for fertility.

Polycystic ovary syndrome or polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS) is a hormone disorder in women due to excessive levels of androgen hormones.

This condition is characterized by a large number of cysts on the ovaries, irregular menstrual cycles, and insulin resistance.

PCOS is generally the cause of small eggs and difficult to get pregnant women.

Danira's words made Gavino glued to see the paper in his hand with a pushy look, confused and surprised to hear the wife's explanation. Disbelief mixed with sadness into Gavino's chest, he did not say anything, he was still trying to parse every word Danira. Hoping what he just heard was just a mistake, but......

Seeing that Gavino was silent, without taking his eyes off the examination paper, making Danira feel even more guilty, disappointed in herself, he lowered his head even more.

" I'm sorry..It's possible that Gavin can't have children because of my condition like this, sorry....I.....!!!". Lirih Danira, while twisting her fingers. Gavino draws his gaze, looking at Danira. Instantly his consciousness returned upon hearing his wife's soft voice that began to tremble.

It's not my wife's fault, I can't think bad things like this. She is still the most perfect woman in my life, even without the presence of children. Inner Gavino, tried to resuscitate himself from this unexpected news. Gavino tried to smile, but looked strange and stiff.

" Why apologizing isn't your fault, it's just a possibility, doesn't mean it can't. After all this is just a doctor's prediction, he's human, not god. Is my wife who is this Sholehah desperate, and does not believe in the power of God ?". Gavino tore up Danira's test results, he didn't want his wife to get too fixated on the doctor's diagnosis. Danira raised her gaze, looking at her husband, who seemed to force a smile on her.

" It is not so great, I believe strongly in the power and grace of God. I just don't want it if you're expecting me too much, then disappointed that I'm not pregnant, I'm sure you really want an heir, what else mami. He already wants a grandchild from you, while I.....!! I don't even know when I can conceive, because my family's history of hard descent, coupled with my condition like this". Danira, looking into the husband's eyes. Gavino cupped the face of this woman he loved so much, who looked to start blushing, with eyes that had glazed over.

" Dear.don't talk like that. It's true that I want a child from you, very even. I lie when I say no. But for me, having you is so much more important, our goal is to get married instead of me just wanting to have children, right?, I married you because I really love you, accept all your shortcomings, I accept all your shortcomings, in spite of all the initial processes we are together ".

" For me to live and age with you is my biggest dream, if God gives us the confidence to have a child it is a bonus. Don't burden yourself just because you haven't conceived, because I don't mind it ".

" But, mommy already wants grandchildren from you so much, I can see how much she wishes for us?".

" Mommy will definitely understand baby, what else now mami has khalisa.

Let's see, can we bring his favorite grandson to live with us?, can't we. Even khalisa is always taken wherever mami go, even holidays out of the country khalisa always participate with mami, what does it mean ?, mami is not too concerned if until now we have not had children, mami is not as conservative as old people ". Obviously Gavino, Danira is silent. It's true what her husband said, ever since I lived with her. Calina, her father-in-law never felt lonely again, even Ms. Calina only sent funny pictures of khalisa, but Danira should not bring khalisa live again with her.

" Dear....!! I never bothered if you could give me a child or not, the important thing is that you're always with me. Didn't you tell me yourself, if soul mate, chastisement and death were written before we were born into the world, why should we worry about it. Children are important in the household, but if God has not predestined for us, it is okay. Most importantly, we always try and pray ".

" Mas iiih.I'm not kidding, I don't want to mas disappointed later, then mas looking for another woman ". Danira's great-grandson.

TUK*

" Abkkhh..." Gavino flicked Danira's forehead, not liking the wife's words.

" Never say such words again, I don't like, there will never be another woman ". Ketus Gavino's.

" So I kept joking ". Danira said, stroking her forehead.

" who's kidding, dear?, I'm very serious, indeed we have to try harder, like doing it more often. If usually 3 times a day, we change it to 12 times a day, how ?". Danira widens her eyes, hears Gavino's strange speech, and then Danira lands a small pinch on her husband.

"BIGwww......!!!". Pekik Gavino held his stomach that felt sore, due to Danira's pinching.

" Mad fuck..".

" Congratulations with his own wife are obligatory dear, even the reward is very large ".

" Who said ?".

" I...didn't you hear it, I just said it, didn't I ?". Danira pursed her lips, lazy to hear her husband starting to activate acute perverted mode, when he had discussed something like this, Danira could already guess where they would end up tonight.

" Well I'm serious....!!, what if I could never give you a child, would I still be like this to me ?, are you sure the words are okay still going on ?".

" So this beautiful wife of mine, doubt me hhmmm?". Gavino stroked Danira's smooth cheeks gently. Danira nodded slowly.

" Since you're also a normal human being, no one can guess a person's heart tomorrow. Because human nature is generally easy to change ". Danira's great-grandson is slow. Danira was afraid that Gavino's love for him would disappear because there was no presence of children among them, what else Stevani said this afternoon still kept circling in his head. Hearing Danira's words of doubt, Gavino unceremoniously pulled Danira's body into her arms.

" Dear...!! I'm not forcing you to believe, but I'm going to prove it ". Danira looked up at Gavino's face, who was looking down at Danira.

" Now we live in modern times, even medical science has been sophisticated. If you really want to conceive, then I will do everything I can to make it happen, I will seek the best treatment in all corners of the world though. Whatever the outcome, nothing will change in our relationship. I love you until whenever ". Gavino continued to try to calm his wife, who still looked restless and guilty. Although Danira displays the usual expression, Gavino can see the sadness from his wife's eyes. Danira gave a small smile, then hugged Gavino. Poking his head on Gavino's chest, the warmest and most comfortable place for him.

" Mas.....??".

" Hmmm?".

" I want to ask you something...!!".

" What ?".

" Did Gavin ever......!!". Danira fell silent, hesitating to continue her question. She was eager to ask what was true Stevani told her last afternoon, but Danira chose to undo her intentions, not wanting to discuss about her meeting with her ex-husband's lover earlier.

" It's not ". Gavino knitted his brows, confused and annoyed at Danira's hanging words.

" What do you want to ask ?".

" It's not like mas ".

" Cckkkk..you're a bitch, this bitch of a responsibility, I've been very curious ". annoyed Gavino, pursed his lips, funny.

" Ha.ha.ha.ha...this is not important mas, so I say ". Kikik Danira, it's funny to see Gavino's expression sulking at her.

Actually Gavino already knew what Danira wanted to ask, because while in the room, before cleaning himself, Gavino contacted Bayu. Posing Bayu with many questions, Bayu finally told Gavino everything, Bayu also said if he was forbidden Danira to tell anyone who met him this afternoon to Gavino. Gavino believes Danira's question has something to do with Stevani.

Seeing that his wife had returned cheerful, Gavino brought his face closer to Danira's face, then.

CUP**

Gavino kisses Danira's lips long ago, turning her Mel*mat tenderly full of feelings. Make Danira lulled to the brink. Gavino stopped his kiss, saw the eyelids decorated with lentic eyelashes that began to open, revealing blue eyeballs that always hypnotized him.

" I don't care if you can give me a child or not, my feelings for you will never change. You can hold my word. Today, tomorrow, the day after tomorrow and forever. Only Danira is the woman I loved to death, this is not a cradle, but it's a certainty ". Gavino said, stroking Danira's lips, with eyes not turning to face each other. The expression made Danira's heart warm and moved, although fear and doubt still enveloped Danira's heart, but she tried to believe.

May your words be true, may God take care of your heart for me. May God keep your eyes open from the temptations of women out there. Only God can take care of you away from me. May God give us trust soon. Aamiins. Inner Danira.

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...Seriate........