Love And Trauma

Difficult to forgive

As usual morning routine in a big family waluyo.

There was only one different than usual, namely Starla who now wears a cream color hijab, after matching color cardigans and a softer face of soft ayu. everyone looked unblinkingly,seeing the change in a Starla, who used to be notorious bullies, cruel, **** and fashionable...

Moreover, Ray who was drinking coffee at that time, when Starla passed next to him immediately he choked .... Starla who reflex directly helps him give water..

Everyone was panicking, but fortunately Ray was okay, he was holding his heart..

" good thing my heart was not thrown away" he said with a ngososan because just choked and could hardly breathe.

" well bang, we're already half-dead ticker eh knowya ..basal bucin lo bang..." Delina grunted in annoyance.

Ray immediately grabbed Delina's head..

" children don't have to follow.."

without speaking, Delina hit her brother's stomach...

Ray dragged his henchmen's hands to the back garden, and they fought there .yes if Ray had the same intention to train the defense of Delina but Delina actually hit her brother..and he accidentally hits too hard until Ray grimaces in pain..

"fucking lo del, you brash bitch...." Ray chased after the running Delina.

And the drama in the morning began again.they poked fun at each other and threw at each other whatever was beside him.

The granny, Risma's mom and everything you're at home are used to it.

then Grandma took Miss Risma and Starla for breakfast first..

"let's eat first.."

"but grandma, they are." said Starla.

"have let them if tired will stop by themselves." said grandma while enjoying breakfast at the dinner table.

after they finished breakfast, Starla stood up..

"where you want to go, dear." asked grandma.

" want to prepare breakfast for brother and Delina nek, they like fried rice, if breakfast bread does not taste breakfast he said." replied Starla.

" just sit down, don't let them eat anything.." pinta granny.

Starla sat back and listened to Grandma speak ..

" love you, I don't have a father, grandfather or uncle, so now all you have is your aunt Risma and your mother who is in prison, you want to be married to a granddaughter." asked the grandmother while holding Starla's hand.

Delina who was listening to him, immediately stopped running and called out to her brother...

" amu.bang..."

" uh..why lo, do not lie lo, I will not give up let's pursue if you are still strong.." said Ray.

" uh.this is serious, I swear I'm not lying, here's a spit..."

Delina approached Ray who was speechless and was worried that only her wits would be Delina who would catch and hit him.

Delina pulls Ray's hand behind the door so she can clearly hear what her grandmother, mother, and Starla are talking about..

They also cut it.

" yes, Grandma Starla wants to be his wife." Starla replied with a smile and a shy look.

hearing that reply Ray reflex immediately stood up to cheer but Delina deftly silenced Ray's mouth.

" bang , do not speak ..hush first.later to be found ashamed of us.." said Delina snorted annoyedly by still silencing her brother's mouth with both hands.

Ray complies.he signals to Delina to release her silence.

" uh .sorry bang.."

" duhh.."

"trus hold what "

"hold the salted fish .."

" city ..k.."

" sttt..silence.."

" fucking "

Ray snorted in annoyance, never did he win if he fought with Delina.

they also focus on eavesdropping..

" grandmother, if later Starla is married with brother.what brother would apologize mama Starla.mama has been evil and made all the chaos, and, even because mama pak prabu and bu mara became separated.and because mama also brother was wasted by them and forced to live on the streets .." starla said while crying and bowing her head .

grandma stroked Starla's head covered in hijab ..

" we leave everything to the above son, everything must have been arranged and you should not have been better to bear all their sins and mistakes.you deserve to be happy Starla.." said grandma .

"Starla, everyone has received their revenge, even your mother has also paid him with a prison sentence of 20 years" said Bu Risma.

Ray and Delina who were eavesdropping behind the door only fell silent, Delina patted her brother on the shoulder..

Ray looked at Delina..

" brother should be able to.."

" brother doesn't know Del.." said Ray, dropping himself leaning under the door.

" brother, God alone is great can forgive his people who sin but want to repent even as much as foam in the ocean.what else we bang that only small creatures who have nothing..we are nothing bang" said Delina with eyes Ray.

Ray's down.." But brother's not God Del.."

" astaghfirullah... actually yes brother nih...if you ngaku god, fir aun lo...hihhhh.." murmured Delina growled.

" i still can not accept the reality del.." said Ray who made Delina turn her head and look at him in wonder.

" the max"

" i'm an ordinary man, I want to have a whole family, loving father mama. Since childhood Del, you know in this house that there is only a storm of mockery, lies and betrayal..ever since I joined Risma's mother and you lived on the street even from there I found true happiness with friends of thugs and street children." said Ray while bowed holding back his tears .

Delina was silent and just listening.

" i don't know where else to start.they hurt me too much .and it's all because of sandra..even then I saw with my own eyes Sandra and papa cheating in front of mama who was sick, cruel right." said Ray weakly and sadly.

" bang our childhood background is not much different, we are the same as victims of broken home, we see with our own eyes the moment of the bitter moment that should not be a spectacle of children at our age at that time.we are the same bang.but try to stand up and throw away all those bitter memories ..we fill it with sunny days we bang.. Delina will be next to my brother, leading my brother, and being a witness to my brother's happiness, as well as my brother must be a witness to Delina's happiness..we must not be stuck with grudges and the past .kan brother himself who spoke that time to Delina.." said Delina with a sweet smile and warm grip for his beloved brother.

and when they turned to look at Risma's mother, grandmother and Starla, they were no longer there .

" hahhhh where they are." said Ray while pinning Delina's head.

" well ..sick bang..."

" lo heck del has a lot of talk..."

" hh.basas brother too..."

raditya was behind them...

"ckckckck..it's true that love makes people stupid.Smart, cold and scary CEO times....how about it if it's fire." said Raditya who pulled the phone out of his pocket.

" heh look out you dit..fucking lo ..."

Raditya..

Ray moved up and stood up to his room to get ready for the office.