Last Night With Your Papa

A childhood that is not as sweet as people imagine

Bastian darted into his car with a feeling of being blown to pieces, he tried to hold back his tears for some time, the man quickly drove his car at full speed towards any direction he did not know.

Millions of disappointments hit him right now, even when he wanted to pit him he had nowhere to share.

The man repeatedly tried to hold his breath so as not to let out his cry, for his too cry When a man cries only because of trivial things.

The 18 years she lived, she knew crying was the thing her Mommy hated the most.

"Stop your cry, you're a man, don't shed your useless tears, the more whiny you will be the harder it is to survive in the game of life God created"

Mommy yells harshly whenever Bastian wants to cry in his childhood when he falls or gets hurt.

She recalled how the last time she cried from falling off the bike, instead of helping her Mommy instead snapped at her, slapped her face violently and said.

"Crying again.mommy wants to see how your tears fell today, the more your tears fall, the harder your mommy's slaps will be to your cheeks"

Don't cry, sob even Bastian did not dare.

The reality of his two knees was injured, he did not expect much, just wanted his Mommy to grab his hand while saying.

"Darling does it hurt?"

She hoped her mommy would say that, touching and looking at her bleeding knees while hugging her and saying everything must be fine.

She envies each time her friends get so sincere and loving attention from their mommy.

The truth is he never got it.

Her childhood was not as happy as people imagined.

From the beginning she was like a pest in Linda's life, her biggest memory while in Kindergarten to sit in the Elementary School Class 3 women always ignore her, Linda said if she didn't like seeing her face.

School affairs were clearly the business of middle-aged women in their homes.

Her dad was too busy with her work, although it was undeniable that Gerald would occasionally come to school to drop her off and pick her up, but it felt like they had a layer of stone barrier that was so big both of them.

Moreover, she began to understand, Linda and Gerald's relationship is not okay, in her parents' marriage she can see Gerald never really love Linda.

That's why he hates Gerald so much.

His subconscious seemed to say.

If Gerald had loved Linda and treated her like Daddy to his friends, she was sure Linda would not have hated him.

Therefore Bastian always instills hatred in the man so deep hatred, trying to rebel whenever Gerald tries to approach him until he grows up.

To her Gerald was like a monster that hurt her Mommy, marrying Linda just out of compulsion when she was present without ever being wanted by the two of them.

But today as if she was aware of why Gerald hated Linda and did not expect her presence, it may be true of her suspicions all along why they were not given the same face, but since he has no evidence to convince himself why they have no resemblance, Bastian has preferred to keep his mouth shut for years.

She was afraid that what she was afraid of would actually happen, because instead of getting angry when Gerald handed over their DNA test results, she said, Bastian could only swallow the bitter pill and try to ask for a definitive explanation with Linda.

For a moment Bastian tried to catch his breath slowly, he tried to squeeze his chest for some time, trying not to let out his tears but no matter how hard he tried in the end he cried also in the car.

Sobbing while trying to hit his chest.

Bas. it's ok, everything must be fine.

His mind while continuing to sob.