Just One Feeling's

Don't Cry, dear

The night is too late. The atmosphere is very fitting to be sound and drifting in a dream. Hugging each other's partners, or just limited to bolsters.

Not with this girl. His eyes showed no signs of falling asleep and falling asleep. And it can be explained. The reason why a person cannot fall asleep.

To be sure, there are things that bother you. Either that, the unfinished thing, the unknown clearly, or even thinking of the inappropriate thing.

This is what happened to Meta. He was still struggling with his diary and pen. And of course his mind is also his heart. For sure.

Oh God. I don't know what happened to me this afternoon. You know God? I don't want it myself. This self is afraid of you, Lord. So scared.

Meta wrote down the last few sentences in his diary before actually closing it. He holds his own chin. Reflect in silence. In consciousness.

Given what's been going on between her and Secretary Chan. Meta felt very guilty about his God. Things that are forbidden by his religious beliefs, he has done it.

Please forgive my sins, Lord. Please forgive me my body. Which has no intention of rebelling. But believe me, God. This brain, this thought, wants to reject it. I don't know why, my brain lost to my body. Lord. Forgive me.

Meta deeply regrets Secretary Chan's actions to him. But, of course, he will not continue to blame his lover. He has to look at it from other people's point of view too.

And he already knew it. Difference between male and female temptations. Men will be tested for their faith through women. And woman, will be tested her faith by money and wealth.

"Is my decision wrong, Lord? For having accepted it in the name of an illegitimate relationship?"

Slowly Meta shed his tears. I don't know what he wants right now. He just felt an unclear feeling. He loved Secretary Chan. Of course he was afraid of losing himself. Afraid of her, who will not be reunited by the best figure like Secretary Chan.

Meta wiped his tears. He began to close his eyes. I don't know why his heart is turning. He suddenly recalled all the plus points of Secretary Chan.

His memories recall every moment he and Secretary Chan walked together. Every moment. Nothing is missed. Then he smiled. Remembering the times, where the two of them walked together on Friday.

At 11.45 WIB, a car pulled over on the street near the mosque.

"I'll pray Friday first in that mosque."

Secretary Chan pointed his index finger forward. The mosque is close to the whereabouts of his parked car. Meta smiled and nodded.

Meta busied himself with his phone. To wait for Secretary Chan to finish Friday prayers. When Meta was still fiddling with his phone, suddenly Secretary Chan was already near the left car glass. The place he was sitting in the car.

Meta sees it closely and very clearly. Secretary Chan's bright face with ablution water that still looks wet his face.

"The brother? Just a minute, yeah. And if you want to buy something near here, just take the money in my wallet."

His wallet was intentionally left. He did not take her to the mosque. Only a pink slip of money he put in his pocket. Money for Friday's infaq as usual.

Done it. Meta opened his eyes again. Smilingly. Remembering that. He thought Secretary Chan was cold and haughty. No more no less.

And he was very sure, that people who did not know Secretary Chan well, would have thought the same thing as him. At first, he was surprised. After finding out Secretary Chan wasn't as bad as he thought. Secretary Chan even took care of her prayers.

Oh my God, what happened to my heart. Why flipping around like this.

While in Andin's room, sobbing sobbing, was heard clearly. And Kumala, who had been continuously stroking her daughter's head.

"Hows it? Is there an answer?" (ask Arga)

The one being questioned, immediately shook his head. Raditya had asked Secretary Chan what had happened between Andin and Ziban.

They were confused by what happened. Moreover, Andin to the point of crying increasingly become. After they saw the incident, where Ziban and Secretary Chan had actually left the house, Andin ran back to his room. Didn't say a word.

Rossie was the one who felt the most uneasy about being in that place. Sure oes. Ziban is his brother. Andin is his friend. However, he and Raditya chose to remain in the house alone.

"Sometimes, he does become a fucking Secretary, om. He was just following his young master."

While waiting for the person he called, he continued to observe Andin. As his friend, of course he felt unbearable with his condition. Crying is endless. Rossie knew crying would be exhausting.

The one he called, already picked him up.

"Hello, Met. Thank goodness you haven't slept. I want to ask you for help."

Rossie also explained about the incident that happened. And, the goal is to call Rossie. Of course to ask Secretary Chan. Meta is his lover. Obviously, Secretary Chan will answer questions from Meta. That's how Rossie thinks.

The phone call was terminated. After Meta confirms Rossie's request.

"Later, Meta will tell us. If Secretary Chan has answered."

Instantly Raditya grabbed onto Rossie's shoulder.

"Om, aunt, introduce. Here comes my clever lover."

Rossie stomped on Raditya's foot. Until the grimacing of pain. Kumala is still caressing tenderly lovingly.

"Dear, it's okay. Whatever the case, all problems can be solved. Don't cry, baby. Don't cry."

Elsewhere, it looks Meta is still holding his phone tightly. He did agree with Rossie's request to him. And that's just to appreciate it. Because honestly, in his heart, it was still doubtful. Still very doubtful.

Considering the problems he has with himself. He wanted to not talk to Secretary Chan for a while. Meta finally breathed out his breath. Convincing himself, to help Rossie.

He called Secretary Chan. Not long after, Secretary Chan picked up the phone from him.

"Hello, brother?"

From his voice, it was predictable that Secretary Chan had just woken up from his sleep. Meta was silent for a while.

"The brother? You still mad at me?"

Yep. Angrier. Of course Secretary Chan realized it. And Meta, too, was unable to hide it. Because, the message from Secretary Chan since the incident this afternoon, he did not answer one.

"It's not."

Lies. Meta lied this time for Rossie's sake.

"Thank God, brother."

Whahuh? Thank goodness? Really insensitive!

"Mas Chan, there's actually something I need to ask."

Meta began asking Secretary Chan. And Secretary Chan doesn't make Meta talk too much anymore. Because he already knew what the question meant.

"That's because the young mistress made a mistake that is hard to forgive. To make the young master angry and leave the house."

"What's wrong, Mas Chan?"

"The young lady took a pregnancy-preventing pill. And never met another man without the young master's knowledge."

Meta rounded his eyes. Being on the verge of believing in disbelief.

Mas Chan couldn't possibly lie, right?! What should I tell Rossie? He must be waiting for my answer. Oh God.

SERIATE...