JODOH: First Love

32. Hide away

Raya entered the puskesmas while smiling kindly to the family who will be treated there. He enjoys every moment of his being here.

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I-i know...

Loving you is a mistake

Maybe even an omission

Or even a pain

But...

Let me hug my wound

Enjoy the pain, so I can't afford it

I refuse to let you go

Excuse me...

When my love keeps you blocked

I thought we were both fighting

Turns out, I'm just a shadow

I-i know...

All this is painful

You are just a shadow

But this heart I cannot control

^^^^Naraya, 21 December ....^^^^^

If I could just choose the owner of my heart, I would definitely choose to place my fragile heart on someone who would definitely repay my love, who would see me endlessly.

The clear details one by one fell from one corner of the Kingdom's eye. Flowing wet the cheek to the left of Raya. That, realizing the Kingdom of long daydreams about the love story is not until now blocked.

A story that may be only he who has a taste, a story that is indeed only he who hopes. Hoping on someone who will definitely change his taste.

Raya rubbed the corner of her eyes, wiping away the remaining tears that kept flowing there.

"Is this pain the love story I have to live, that I have to have?" Ask yourself.

Raya hit her left chest, to reduce the pain and tightness in her chest.

Raya closed her handicap book, placed it next to her bed pillow. Then he lay staring at the ceiling of the room he occupied.

"I Know You still want to joke with my love story, Lord." Raya Perih. "But, I know God, maybe this is what's best for me, thank you."

Raya then changed her sleeping position against a wooden wall that was far enough from her bed. Walls that have begun to weathered, because it is eaten up age.

This house may be far from the word decent according to Raya first, when he first came here. But now, this place was the only one that could make the Kingdom feel a little calm and peaceful in a sense of silence. The safest hiding place Raya could think of.

The place that Raya uses to hide from all the things about love does not come. About the pain of his first love, which is impossible to achieve. About the love that he initially thought there would be such a real hope.

"If you don't have taste, why should you come to me until the corner of this country?" Tanya Raya on the night wind that blows softly, and cold that begins to stab to the bone.

Raya took back her diary. Then hugged the book tightly with tears that continued to flow from both corners of his cheeks.

"When the end is like this, why should you give me hope as high as the sky?" Greater Monologue.

Raya tried to divert her tightness by staring at the ceiling of her room which could immediately see the clays that were stacked so neatly, with blurry eyes, filled with tears that welled up.

"Tok, tok..tok" The knock at the door awakened the Kingdom from the turmoil of his own mind that was so complicated.

"Doc!" Excited people from outside the room in Raya.

"Get in, ma'am, the door hasn't been locked!" Pinta Raya after recognizing who the owner of the voice out there.

Not how long the door that had indeed been a little fragile was opened little by little. "Nl.cit.." The sound of door leaves that must be lubricated, because it is too noisy.

When the door opened it showed a middle-aged woman in her early 50s. Her name is Darsih's mother.

He was a nomad from Java who participated in transmigration around the 90s when the monetary crisis hit the world, and beribas to the country's declining economy, as well as the turmoil of the issue is so thick.

That made Keluga mother Darsih had to move to this village following the transmigration program from the government, to continue to survive.

"Why mom?" Tanya Raya softly.

While walking up to Darsih's mother who had entered the room, Raya still occasionally rubbed her eyes so as not to look too puffy, because lately she was crying too often. Crying over something that must be happy in her life.

"Why are his eyes?" Tanya bu Darsih is suspicious of Raya's behavior that continues to rub her eyes.

Ms. Darsih already considers Raya like her own daughter. Because Raya does not give limits to Darsih ma'am, and it happens that Darsih bu does not have a daughter. And his children chose to settle in a place far away from him.

Raya smiled as she shook her head to answer Darsih's question. Raya does not want to tell anyone, afraid that all this will hurt her own heart, and make her tears continue to flow.

Raya was afraid, when later she told me, then her tears would continue to flow profusely and would instead make her sick even deeper.

"If there is a problem with the story, let it be relieved!" Remember bu Darsih while touching Raya's soft shoulder, to give Raya strength.

Raya shook her head. "No ma'am, just a sore eye!" Raya Clearly.

"If there is a story problem, do not be relieved yourself!" Remember Miss Darsih.

"What's this mom doing here?" Tanya Raya diverts the question to Ms. Darsih.

"O, yes.until you forget mom!" Say Darsih bu while patting his own eel. " In front there is Bu midwife Sama mr. mantri. He said there's something to say about it, Doctor!" Obviously bu Darsih is long.

"O... I told you to wait a minute mom, Raya change clothes first, Not good to wear this shirt!" Say Kingdom while showing her clothes which is just a simple negligee and quite open, if you have to meet an outsider.

"Ready commander!" Said Ms. Darsih while raising her hand, making a respectful gesture.

"I'm a doctor ma'am, not a cop or a soldier!" Raya said jokingly.

"Doctor's Commander!" Say Darsih bu while passing away.

Raya's done changing clothes. Naman, Raya is hesitant to get out of this room. Raya felt that when she came out of this place, there must be news that would make her very frustrated.

"May all this be my bad thoughts, may all be well!" The Rapal Kingdom repeated itself from within his heart.

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