I'm Starla you don't think I am

UNCOVERED SECRETS (Starla 2)

I was on the shore looking at the sea which was very calm. arrived from behind there was a beautiful woman with shoulder-length hair touching my shoulder. I turned around and saw a glimpse of her beautiful face and had a bit of a resemblance to mine, and then I asked the woman

"who are you??" (many)

the woman just smiled.then the woman walked back further and further and further away and disappeared and was invisible to me. when I turned to face the ocean arrived the waves that were initially calm turned to be strong then came sweeping the beach and drowned me. I shouted and tried to ask anyone for help.

"please do.. arghhhhh.." (i woke up with a stingy breath).

it turned out that I was only dreaming, but it looked very real and my heart always asked who I met in the dream. the woman who appeared in my dreams so often and not just this once but repeatedly she was present.

because I did not want to think about the dream, I saw the clock on the nightstand turned out to have shown at half-three and then I decided not to go back to sleep but to the bathroom. but before going into the bathroom I heard in the upper room there was a voice of people as if arguing. because I was curious to the place of origin of the sound because it is unusual usually at this hour the house person has been awake.

I approached the voice apparently coming from the room of the father and mother, because I was curious what they were talking about in this hour. Really not a common thing.I walked slowly with a feeling of uncertainty.I don't know why my feelings suddenly become unpleasant and uncharacteristic.

mom: "it's all papi's fault."

father: "doesn't I always apologize for my mistakes 20 years ago to my mother."

my brows furrowed.inwardly asked "what mistake did you make 20 years ago??"

mother: "if it wasn't for papi cheating with jal*ng it couldn't have been born that bastard."

I'm getting worried about Jeni's mother's statement.

"cheating? who's? bastard son? who's the bastard?" (my own words)

father: "don't always mention Starla with an illegitimate child, she has a name. It's not her fault but papi's fault."

mother: "why not, he's not my son, he's the son of jal*ng that. I'm hard-earned to raise that son jal*ng."

DOORRRR...... Like being struck by lightning.My feet instantly limp. tears dripped without feeling.a secret 20 years new I know.

"is this God's answer to all my questions?" (inner)

father: "enough mi is enough." (snapped father)

mother: "this is all because of the bastard child, because of the birth of our company is threatened with bankruptcy and we are threatened with poverty now."

FLASH BACK ON

20 Years ago

Arriving at Jihan's house, Aditama immediately carried Jihan who was in pain in the car and drove her car to the hospital.In the middle of the trip, because of the constraints of heavy rain and strong winds, because of the obstacles, Aditama did not see the street he was passing. Arriving from the opposite direction there was a car speeding because so panicked and out of control Aditama slammed the steering wheel towards the sidewalk and suddenly hit a woman who was walking towards a car next door the hand held the umbrella and the other led the little boy.

BRAAKKKKKK.

the woman holding the umbrella was bounced 7 meters away while the lucky boy just bounced into the roadside grass. while the car driven by Aditama immediately stopped after hitting women and children earlier.

he saw the second wife beside him had fainted and saw the woman he hit was covered in blood. due to panic and confusion Aditama drove his car back regardless of the victim. and without realizing it the little boy saw with eyes full of vengeance when Aditama left himself and his mother who he had hit.

Arriving at the Aditama hospital immediately brought Jihan to the ER. There Jihan is examined intensively and inevitably must be done surgery considering that Jihan is in an unconscious position to help the fetus in her womb and for the safety of Jihan himself.

During the operation Aditama walked back and forth in front of the operating room waiting for 2 people who he loved and loved were struggling. and after 2 hours then the opration lamp turns off indicating that the operation has been completed.

then came a doctor with a lethargic face

Aditama: "dok how my wife and child?"

Doctor: "my daughter survived but I'm sorry my father's wife's life we couldn't save."

At once Aditama limp, then he leaned against the wall.

tomorrow after jam carry out the funeral procession of Jihan, because Jihan did not have relatives or live a kara so far, Aditama decided to bring the daughter of his marriage with the jihan he named Gian Starla princess to his main residence that he occupied with his first wife, Jeni, and his son, Jesi, who was 2 years old.

at first Jeni was angry with Aditama but eventually Jeni would forgive Aditama and raise the child of her husband's second wife because she did not want her property to fall into the hands of Aditama and Jihan's children. Then Jeni gave Aditama the requirement that the child should not be treated as special, and the child's status was equivalent to that of no more maids.

FLASH BACK OFF

Then with limp feet and tearful tears as the new reality unfolds, I try to get up and walk down the stairs. I closed the door but I didn't lock it because my bedroom door couldn't be locked.

I sat on the edge of the bed without a word coming out of my mouth but these tears kept breaking without you asking. I looked fixedly at the mirror that had been cracked in front of me. I saw my own face. then I laughed so much with tears that I didn't stop breaking and I said.

"it's stupid that I can't see my differences with my mother and brother all this time, who am I? not who. I'm just the son of my father's affair, I'm the bastard son who never really wanted his birth. I'm just the son of the destroyer of other people's households. I'm just the son of the unlucky bearer." (my grumbling with laughter)

a minute later I was crying so I wasn't ready to hear all this. I didn't want an answer like this. even I was willing if I had to be a baby for life as long as I was a father's son and a genius mother.but the reality is different. this is the real answer when my father always asked me to obey his mother and his mother always said if I had to ask for revenge because I had raised him. This is the reason why I got unfair treatment like this

from childhood I always tried not to fight and according so that the mother of the genie can consider me there. she always said that I was a bad boy and a non-compliant child. I was never invited when the family went on vacation.I also never allowed to participate in family events.The reason is because I like to fight. therefore, however, the treatment of my mother was never against me in the slightest or in self-defense because I just wanted to be considered a child just like others.

now my hope is just in vain.until whenever I was never considered to exist by them.I am just a person who stopped in their lives.

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