I'm Gone

Episode 65's

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"At this moment all I can do is cry, I can't do anything - what is happening now. I know it's all my fault because I wasn't honest from the start, or maybe this is the karma I got because I used to just leave Randy out. Disappointed, do not be asked again so for sure, but I know that the creator gave me this test because I certainly can deal with it.

Right now my heart is really messed up like a song (My balloon there are five) heh, sliced right?

But I always remember the word - Mama said that the Creator never sleeps and always watches over me wherever I am. If only I had ended my life now everything could have gone back the way I expected then I would have done it. But I know it's not the only way, there are still many aisles that I can pass without having to break the trust of the people around me. Like a labyrinth if we have entered into it various ways we will certainly do in order to get out of the labyrinth without having to damage the walls around us, if we go wrong into the labyrinth room then we have to go out again and try the other room until we actually get out of that labyrinth, he said, so too with life are many doors that we can pass through, if we fail at something, there must be something else that will make us succeed even before we never thought it would happen because we can only try and keep trying.

The pain that I feel right now is only I can treat, because I know as many words - words motivation out there will not be able to change anything, what, what, if I never try to get up. I want to be angry but angry at whom?

Myself alone?

O Rabbi, I am truly unable to rise from Your trials, fragile servant Lord, replace all these tears of this servant with something better, Lord".

Time did not seem to go very fast but Laura was still lying weakly on her bed. It still seems clear to Laura's mind about the events that only a few days ago she faced. Laura's body was still very weak to stand up to, her chest was still so tight and her eyes were still swollen from crying. Aliya who saw Laura who could not do anything - whatever it was also felt the sadness that Laura felt. Eagerly Aliya walked up to the weakly lying Laura and sat down beside her.

"Sister, dong sad ga bosen what's in mulu's room?" aliya asked with a sad look on her face.

"So don't you like to see Mama clean - clean alone, doing homework alone while I have to go to school so I can't help Mama get it done?" aliya tried to raise Laura's spirit again.

"Aliya know how, brother is still thinking about the events of yesterday, right?" aliya asked again but Laura was still silent.

"Sister, tomorrow you have to work you know, cook yes Doctor permission because of illness anyway, it's not funny," ledek Aliya with a smile.

"Sister, let's dong get up again Aliya bored no friends vent," continued Aliya while hugging Laura's body.

"Yaudah now Aliya lives first yes sis, but remember older sister can not be long - long sad is not good for the health of the sister later," said Aliya with a smile and pat slowly Laura's shoulder.

The next day ...

"For Ma, morning also Al," greeting Laura who had just come out of her room in a white uniform and with a square hijab that stretched to cover her chest and carried a white coat over her left arm, not to forget also Laura gave her sweet smile while spreading the spirit in this morning.

Echa and Aliya, who saw Laura's unusual appearance, were shocked by Laura's drastic change. Echa and Aliya were still looking at Laura with their bewildered gazes plus Laura looked so beautiful wearing the costume.

Laura did not pay attention to the gaze of Echa and Aliya who were looking at her with a cynical look, Laura only focused on the purpose of the dinner table, which was for breakfast. Slowly Laura began to take a glass of milk in front of her and immediately drank it. The atmosphere on the dining table was currently so silent that it left Laura confused and started to open her voice.

"Nobody hijab?" aliya asked without answering the question Laura had just asked.

"Yes," Laura replied with a smile.

"Kok tumben Kak, was he told to wear a hijab with his superior brother?" aliya asked with a look of her confused face.

"It's not okay, do you want to cover up the aurat?" asked Laura again while looking at Aliya's two eyeballs.

"Yes you can, sister, but it's not usually like this Brother" replied Aliya.

"Yes, but I just want to change into a better Al" said Laura.

"Good sister if that is the purpose of Brother, I support it" said Aliya with a smile.

"Yes, Mama also supports you, Ra, while you are comfortable, no problem" said Echa, who just opened the conversation.

"Thank you Ma, Al, I've understood my decision" Laura replied as she walked over to where Echa and Aliya were sitting, and Laura hugged Mama and her beloved sister.

"Laura is very dear to Mama and you Al" said Laura.

"Mama also love you two really, for Mama the most valuable treasure in your life is just the two of you," replied Echa while stroking Laura and Aliya's head.

"Yes, Aliya is also very affectionate with Mama and Sister" said Aliya.

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