I Love You So Much
one two three
(a little announcement of this part is a little long, so please enjoy hopefully you can get washed away in it)
it did not feel like a week had passed in his homeland, tomorrow afternoon he had to fly back to Indonesia.
"has it been done?" ask her brother on the nawa who was sitting watching tv with in accompanied snack setoples that nawa hugged from earlier.
"already" replied Nawa but the focus was still on the rectangular screen that broadcast his favorite show.
"it's too bad to sleep there" Sophia sat down to join her sister.
"it's still eight o'clock"
"maybe not, the return wait brother hansol brother already married"
nawa turned to her sister "my sister is going to college"
"his college moved to LA" his brother asked.
"can't, nawa in a moment the thesis"
"you didn't want to move you here until you married brother Hansol"
"his niece is still a long time"
"one month not long deck"
"but nawa has missed jeje"
"you really want to go to college or meet jeje"
"meet jeje" he answered, ending his whim "laughter wants to pursue love"
"deck college focus, abis pass is up to chase jeje or whatever it is up to you"
"but nawa the pursuers are now hunting in the grab people later"
her brother could only sigh "dek don't go home yet"
"can't, nawa already miss the same jeje"
sophia looked at her sister flatly "thinking jeje mulu, thinking of her sister when"
"some people think of Sophia every day, why do you think of my sister"
"sister doesn't let you go home" Sophia moved from her seat.
"it's up to sister, nawa still wants to go home, because nawa's longing for jeje can't be avoided"
"whatever you are, if you want to go home please, do not need to say goodbye to sister" Sophia walked away from her sister.
"cieee cranky"
...****************...
nawa was lying on her soft bed.
VERAaaaa😗
nawa
whatchapter?
^^^^^^^
when to go home
^^^^^^^
by
don't forget😁
^^^^^^^
you are already horrified
news yet?
^^^what news?^^^
jeje to lo's house
^^^masa^^
bi titi said,
he said he wanted to apologize to you
but you're gone
^^^jeje request^^^
^^^sorry to me?^^^
ja.
na lo in fact
go home tomorrow, right?
^^^yes, but I was forbidden
^^^ same with my sister^^^
maybe she is
still missing
^^^but I missed it
^^^same budget jeje,^^^
^^^lagian I cut it
^^^^ One week only
but your brother Kasian knows,
he'll be getting married soon,
maybe he wants more
lots of time for you,
before she was busy with her husband.
^^^^^^ as well
so come home tomorrow?
^^^ Pulang😁^^
^^^gue is the same as jeje^^^
take care of yourself, lo,
I was busy once again bye
^^^^^^
dddrrrt dddrrt
"mother titi" lirih nawa when bi titi called her.
"assalamualakum" mother"
"waalaikumusalam"
"apakabar's mother, nawa kangen"
"good mother, mother also misses"
"mom, nawa's home tomorrow"
"be careful on the road, wait here"
"but nawa is not allowed to be the same sister of sophia"
"why can't you?"
"he said wait sophia kak nikah used to be the same brother hansol, the problem is already the same nawa jeje"
bi titi sighed from there.
"you don't like your sister, she still misses you, mother asks you to stay there until your sister marries"
"but Sophia's sister is still long married"
"helle mother's rowin"
nawa pursed her lips
"but nawa kangen jeje"
"are you more important to jeje than your brother?"
"noroooooo"
"lupain jeje"
nawa is stunned by the word bi titi
"what do you mean?"
"lupain jeje"
"your mother said that"
"mother doesn't agree you're the same jeje"
"kok mother that, mother will always support nawa same jeje but now-"
"mother asks you to lupain jeje, consider him as a friend"
"nawa doesn't like it when you talk about it"
"jeje has been happy with Chindi, you do not disturb her, especially until the nuisance of other people's relationships, there are still many men, for example adit"
"daughter doesn't like it either, 'daughter likes jeje"
"but jeje do not like the same nawa, mother ingetin to you, do not chase after people who do not necessarily like you, you sometimes have to look back there are people who sincerely wait for you"
"the swamp doesn't want to talk about this"
"you're there, don't go home with your sister"
"the swamp won't"
"turuti" mother"
"no, nawa still want to go home, it's up to mother if mother nawa nawa nawa go home nawa tetep want to go home"
"don't you want to talk to your mother?"
"no"
nawa threw her phone
"nyebelin" lirih nawa "dawa does not care, nawa tomorrow must go home, nawa will not be refurbished chindi deket same jeje"
dddrrt ddrrt
nawa glanced at her mobile phone that was shaking again, the name of the mother there.
"swave again angry with mother" nawa let her mobile phone continues to vibrate, she chose to secure her sleeping position.
nawa slowly closed her eyes to head towards her dreamland
good nights...
afternoon was quite hot, nawa is now sitting on the balcony of her room, enjoying the last hour she was in her homeland, everything is ready she just left for the airport later in the afternoon.
"i want to go to papa's funeral first, if you wait until later scared already into the afternoon" he said.
stif who was twisting the arm of his shirt was surprised by the nawa who arrived next to him.
"good afternoon young lady" said stif.
"day"
"there's something I can help you with"
"my anterin funeral, you're the equivalent, just you're the same as me"
"ber two?" nawa nodded.
"cepet I wait outside" nawa stepped up leaving the still-silent stif.
...****************...
many memories are difficult to forget, many memories are full of memories, and many memories that want to be removed but the memory is difficult or reluctant to be forgotten.
telling me about memory, a thousand and one memories even more than that that you want to forget.
nawa, the sweet girl who always smirked her smile, was now in the hot afternoon crying while hugging her father's grave.
"papa nawa wants to come with papa" he said, crouching next to his father's grave.
"sick chest, papaaa hiks"
stif could not bear to see that, stif stepped closer to nawa.
"lady don't be like this, let's stand up, pity your mistress if she's like this"
"you don't know what I think!" yelled nawa while keeping the stif's hand on her shoulder.
"gue cape, stif I cape!"
"lupain said madam devia"
"stif, what exactly did you say?" stif looked confused to answer what, because he did not know what.
flashbacks
nawa, who opened the car door to the funeral, stopped because her mother's hand closed the door again.
nawa turned her head towards her mother, and was able to smell the pungent smell of alcohol from her mother.
"m-"
"fucking kid!"
plaques
slap devia on her son.
nawa was surprised at what her mother had done.
"you are from this world!don't you dare show your face!"
the servants who heard it were shocked, even those who were silent were peering out of the window.
nawa is confused as to what really happened, why her mother slapped her.
"mama cape!" shouts devia.
"ma, what's wrong nawa?" ask nawa.
his mother smiled with tears that had wet her cheeks.
"what's not good all this time mama is with you, you always ruin mama's life, make mama angry every day, you think all this time mama is happy, happy because papa you died!"
"mama suffered, mama tried to find happiness mama back out there, mama tried to find a replacement for your papa but no one can replace your papa position"
"it's all your fault, papa you died your fault!"
nawa was silent about what her mother said.
"your father" pointed devia to his son "your father was in a car accident because you, if your father did not insist on going to Indonesia to meet you, he would not stay in mama"
devia dropped herself, she cried.
"mistress" called stif but ignored nawa.
"you think all this time happy mama with Jeson, you're wrong, mama has tried to end her life because of losing your papa, mama tried to like jeson but mama can't"
"mama cape pura blissful, not so easy as that nawa!, not as easy as that ngelupain papa you, too much memory both of us, not so easy as that mama lupain your father"
"you think you're the one who suffered the most because your father left! here's my mom, the one who suffered the most!"
"father" lirih nawa.
devia again stood "mama already cape, mama hates you, do not need to look at your face again, you are not a mama's child anymore" devia stepped out of the nawa, but just a step devia back to voice.
"can you get my husband back?" ask devia to her son "if I can not, let me try to forget my husband, in a way you do not appear to yourself again, if you are always present like this, if you are always present like this, the memory of your father always haunts me, understand" the devil goes back on his net.
nawa was still silent, she was confused as to what it should be like now.
"mrs" call stif.
nawa glanced at the stif "papa died because of nawa" lirih nawa.
stif approached towards the nawa, he hugged the nawa to calm his master.
"stif, papa died of nawa" for the first time nawa returned to tears, after many years nawa promised her father not to cry.
flashback off
stif re-embraced nawa's body.
"gue should do now" lirih nawa.
"mama's been angry all this time with me, how am I supposed to be?"
"young lady, I'm ready to accompany the mistress wherever it is"
nawa looked up at the stif "thank you all this time take care of me" stif smiled because of nawa's words.
"does Sophia know about this" she said, then reached into her pocket to find her sister's contact.
nawa tried to call her sister but never returned her brother reply.
nawa saw her watch "sister is still in the office"
"young lady going to the office?" nawa nodded at the stif question.
they rushed to Sophia's office.
"hiks"
never seen a nawa like this, where's the nawa smile now?
...****************...
nawa and Stif are now riding the elevator to sophia's room, since earlier nawa ignored the kariawan who greeted her when she passed by him.
nawa daydreamed, I don't know what she's thinking right now.
"young lady let's get down"
nawa awakens from her daydream, without answering the stif she walks away from him.
without knocking on the door nawa immediately opened the door of her brother's room.
sophia who was talking to her career stopped when she heard the sound of the door opening.
"swallow" sophia stood up from her seat, she looked at her sister who was quite a mess.
"we continue later" Sophia said to her kariawa.
"I'm sorry then"
as much as the kariawan, Nawa ran and immediately hugged her brother.
sophia looked at Stif asking for an explanation, but stif was confused to explain it.
"sister" lirih nawa.
"yes, what's wrong with you?" sophia looked at her brother's face.
"is it really what Mom said?"
"mama said what?"
"papa died because of me"
sophia was surprised to hear that.
"dad, papa died is not whose fault, it's fate"
"but mama-but
"stop, mama must be talking, you're crying"
"but"
"we go home, don't think of anything strange" Sophia led her sister home.
"stif please bring my bag" said sophia, sophia out of the room by embracing her sister.
"deck don't think" sophia stroked nawa's hair.
'papa died because of me'
'i caused papa to die but after papa left I was the most furious to disappear'
sophia is still faithfully hoeing nawa, until they are now in the parking lot.
"stif you take the nawa, let it take me"
"is Sophia driving?"
"no, there's a driver inside"
"good mistress"
"be careful on the road"
nawa and Sophia get in the car.
'why all this time I don't think mama cares about papa, mama doesn't think too much about papa's departure'
'it turns out the mama who suffered more because of the nawa'
'pa sorryin nawa'
"hiks"
sophia turned to nawa when she heard her sobbing "daughter don't cry, sister will cry"
...****************...
"welcome" the servants bowed as they looked at sophia and nawa who had just returned home.
"want to go to brother's room?" tawar sophia and nawa nodded at him.
"sister" call nawa.
"why?"
"papa died because he wanted to meet nawa?" ask nawa.
sophia stroked her sister's cheek "then the father wanted to go to the airport, mom and sister had been forbidden because of the condition of your father when it was sick, papa, don't know why the car that our driver brought had an accident while on the road"
"but why did you tell me that you died of illness, don't tell me that you died because you wanted to see Nawa"
sophia just looked down because of her sister's words.
nawa wiped her tears, after which she walked away from her brother.
"swallow" call sophia while following her sister.
"sister, nawa wants to go nawa wants to see your mother" he said as he entered his room to pick up his suitcase.
"you're rich again gini, brother does not permit you" prevent sophia.
regardless of sophia nawa choosing to leave, she just wanted to calm down.
in a hurry, Nawa pulled the suitcase from the house.
"where is the young lady going?" ask tom.
nawa turned to tom "gue wants to go home, thanks for taking care of me while here"
nawa walked.
"dengerin's brother's swamp!" scream sophia.
nawa ignored him continuing his net.
...****************...
"what's not good all this time mama is with you, you always ruin mama's life, make mama angry every day, you think all this time mama is happy, happy because papa you died!"
"mama suffered, mama tried to find happiness mama out there, mama tried to find a replacement for your papa but no one can replace your papa position"
"it's all your fault, papa you died your fault!"
"your father was in a car accident because of you, if your father did not insist on going to Indonesia to meet you, he would not stay in mama"
"sorry nawa mah" lirih nawa.
now that it was night, the passengers of the plane had entered his dream but different from the nawa, he was still thinking about the incident last day.
"papa, papa can bring nawa, nawa peng join papa" he said while leaning his head
"sword of apologies" said Nawa, closing her eyes "swallow of apology"
no smile, no joy, no joy as usual.
cold Nawa, quiet nawa that's what it is now.
nawa pulled her suitcase out of nowhere, after arriving in Indonesia she chose to leave aimlessly.
nawa stared blankly ahead, ignoring the people who were looking at her strangely.
ddrrrt ddrrt
nawa let out a tired sigh, how many times has she heard her phone vibrating this morning, she just wanted to be alone.
dddrrt ddrrt
well nawa relented now, nawa took her phone to find out who called her.
"vera" lirih.
nawa picked up her phone
"where is halo nawa lo? my brother called me he said you go home, tell me where you are now?"
"hello"
"hello nawa, you're horrifying"
without answering vera's words, nawa immediately turned off her connection.
nawa continued her nets.
nawa stops at a bookstore, and chooses to go inside, for some reason she wants to enter the store.
quite a lot of people inside who are buying books, nawa also chose to see the book there.
"excuse me, can I help you?"
nawa looked over when a man asked her.
"what book are you looking for?" ask her.
"eem novels"
"the collection of novels is right over there, come with me"
nawa followed the man "please choose" and the man left the nawa.
nawa scratched her own nape, confused by the book she saw before her.
'gue isn't interested in novels, but why am I here '
'but what's wrong I tried'
...****************...
tired, like a person without a purpose, lost and do not know the way home.
the afternoon was quite hot, nawa could not walk better he ordered a taxi.
did not wait long one taxi managed to get nawa.
nawa held her stomach because she was hungry.
"pak stopped here" said Nawa, the driver stopped his car.
nawa stared at the side of the road, she saw a peddler.
"this is the money, thank you"
nawa got out of the car, and the driver came down to get the suitcase.
"here's the suitcase"
"thank you"
after that nawa walked over to the batagor seller.
"excuse me mr. pesen one" said Nawa.
"you want to eat here or in packs"
"eat here"
"wait a moment huh" Nawa nodded her head in response.
"sir batagor two"
nawa turned to the buyer who had just ordered.
"jeje" lirih nawa, he got up from his seat.
"jeje!" shout nawa.
no, not on the customer but on the jeje who just crossed.
"his uncle is not so" nawa put the money twenty thousand and then he ran after jeje by dragging his suitcase.
"jeje waitin nawa" nawa ran after jeje.
" je!" jeje turned towards nawa.
"wait nawa!" jeje simply smiled, then walked back.
"jej! nawa kangen with jeje!"
nawa's screams made jeje's steps stop, jeje turned his body and walked toward the nawa.
"there's not gonna be a history I like, you don't have to go after me anymore"
jeje turned his body and then resumed his net, nawa looked at the back of jeje who was getting away.
nawa walked slowly down the sidewalk, she chose to follow jeje from far away.
'why am I following jeje?'
nawa continued to watch jeje, until nawa chose to stop her steps as the man she loved approached chindi and hugged her tightly.
nawa continued to pay attention to their interaction, until jeje chose to hold chindi's hand to cross.
"jeje!" call nawa
nawa looked to the right and left, nawa wanted to chase jeje.
"jeje!"
"jeje, stop for a second!"
jeje just looked at the nawa and then resumed his net.
'the sides are the same nawa, what is the sad and bad nawa in jeje's eyes, jeje has changed, is the nawa too ugly for jeje?'
nawa notices jeje and chindi laughing on the street (sick ya naaaa😢).
"gue is not a nawa that is easy to give up, because jeje only for nawa" nawa clenched her hands, without paying attention to the way nawa stepped to catch up with jeje.
NAWA POV
'gue is not a weak nawa, it's good to take jeje from me'
'alaw aja lo, ready for me bogem lo, dare to hold the hand of my prospective priest'
"jeje!"
"jej, naw-"
BRACKET
attacks, shots, shocks, slips or aaaaauu crashes?
why did my suitcase throw?
why am I having trouble breathing?
nawa why?
why so many people?
jeje please nawa?
nawa's head hurts, why they clustered, jeje pleasein nawa, why nawa's hands bleed.
jeje please nawa, nawa doesn't want to sleep here, but nawa's having a hard time breathing.
jeje please nawa
AUTHOR POV
nawa was thrown far enough away when she was hit by a fast-moving car.
nawa who did not pay attention to the road, and the drunk driver made the accident happen.
the longer the more people swarmed the scene.
before long the ambulance came to immediately take Nawa to the hospital.
by splitting into the formula, nawa managed to be moved into the car with unconscious conditions.
ambulance car runs quickly so that nawa can be handled quickly.
"the patient's condition is getting worse" said one of the sisters.
shortly after the ambulance entered the hospital area, nawa was lowered immediately.
"quickly" said one of the doctors.
after entering a room that is all white, nawa molai was handled.
'don't take the nawa, nawa still wants to chase jeje'
'but if jeje will not make nawa, jeje mate with others, take nawa's life now'
"the patient's heart rate docks weakened" said one of the sisters.
the doctor immediately used an AED to stabilize the heart rate.
'if even nawa struggle gets here, please jeje always inget nawa'
"one two three" said the doctor who was trying to save Nawa.
'if nawa leaves, nawa beg you all to be happy without nawa...'
"one two three"
'laughter to meet papa, is this the time?'
'make the one who already wants to meet nawa, nawa say thank you, and nawa hope in the next life nawa pep born again and mate with the child of jeje '
"one two three"
'make everything good-bye'
the clock still shows two o'clock in the afternoon, but nawa struggle, nawa smile must set now.
the beautiful girl chose to meet her father instead of continuing her fight to pursue love.
a drop of tear parting out of the eyelids nawa already closed perfectly, will anyone miss the nawa later, when she is no longer there?
here's the end of nawaa's struggle for everyone to see...
NOT FINISHED YET?
EXPIRE AJA DEH😁
what do you think?, exciting no, the story is finished, do not?
