I Allow My Husband to Become Secondary

Curhatan Kailani

"So mama asked you" Kailani told Arjuna, when they were in the room.

"What did mama ask?" asked Arjuna, when he had just come out of the bathroom. After I just finished giving myself.

"Mama asked why you haven't been home with me for so many days. Looks like mama's starting to suspect us." Kailani explained.

"What did you answer then?"

"I'll answer you if you have a meeting and finish work at the office."

"Good, good reason. So I no longer need to make the same excuses Mama. Thank you for giving that reason to mama." replied Arjuna lightly. And, Arjuna's attitude that seemed to underestimate the problem made Kailani a little offended.

How not to be offended, as Kailani struggles to be fake to both her parents. Arjuna was relaxed.

Though Kailani knows, Arjuna some days always meet his lover. And maybe they had fun too.

Who has fun, who has to lie.

Of course, it makes Kailani feel careless.

"Arjun, I want to talk to you about something important. It's about our relationship." said Kailani, then he put the book he had read on the nightstand. Kailani then focused on looking at Arjuna.

Arjuna also said. He then sat down on the side of the rajang near Kailani.

"What do you want to talk about. It looks like you're serious." said Arjuna, looking at Kailani's face with a serious face.

"It's serious" replied Kailani.

"What do you mean Kay? I don't understand." said Arjuna who seemed confused by the direction of Kailani's conversation.

"My regret may be too late. But it's all happened. But if I'm allowed to express my heart. So now I want to express my heart to you Arjun."

"Just tell me what you really feel Kay, don't hesitate. We've been friends for a long time. Though unfriendly, I know you enough."

Kailani seemed to take a long breath.

"From the beginning when we were betrothed, and finally made me approve of this marriage. Even though my expectations back then were very small. I have the intention to live this household really. In a sense, I want to try living this household with you, as I should. But after the first day we got married and you told me that this marriage was just a pretend marriage. And it won't last long. I became aware that my actions at that time were wrong. But it's too late, because I'm already married to you. And I don't blame you for that. It's just, sorry Arjun, I don't want to take much longer to pretend to be going through this."

"I understand Kay, I don't want us to be like this either. But be patient in a moment. This is all gonna be over soon. I didn't touch you either. I never even touched you one bit. Even though we both sleep on the same bed. I've never been too presumptuous to hold you or to do anything indecent with you." explained Arjuna.

"That's not what I'm worried about Arjun" Kailani said. While looking at Arjuna's face so intensely and seriously. Because it turns out that the man in front of him is very insensitive to what he really feels.

"Then what do you mean, I don't understand."

"I feel deceived by this marriage Arjun. I feel lied to by this marriage. I mean, I was lied to by my own decisions and expectations. After our marriage is over, we will eventually get divorced. And that means I'm going to be a widow. And you know what I mean, I'm gonna be the widow of an Arjuna. A slightly bad image for me, even though I'm still holy."

"Okay, I get it now. I know, it might be hard for you. I apologized to you earlier Kailani. For this inconvenience. Didn't from the beginning we also agreed to live this drama for a while." explained Arjuna again, and repeatedly.

But you never want to try to live this marriage with the real Arjun, Kailani siss in heart.

"I promise, after the holidays, and as we talked about before. I'll tell our parents if our marriage can't go together anymore. And we'd be equally clear to them if we decided to split up. I hope both of my parents can accept this. And we can be free from this fake marriage."