Hot Duda: Love For Rangga

Bereft

But it never happened.

The Saints never told me. He's gone without a trace. It's my stupidity and my fault. I'm breathless.

On the first day she went to the hospital, I enrolled in one of Singapore's best hospitals to clean my tattoo. Holy should've told me the next day after his eye bandage was opened. But no, no news at all.

I was still trying to calm myself down that day, until night came I grew riled up. His phone could not be contacted either. I began to wonder, and began to guess, is it possible that the operation failed? But if it's true, he should have told me anyway, I thought.

Can't be allowed. That night I moved. I went to the hospital where he had surgery. Again, nil. The saints are no longer there. I just got the information that the operation was successful and the patient had gone home -- on forced return status.

There are a lot of questions, but the one at the top is: why? What was? What the hell's going on? He had eye surgery, should at least have been in the hospital for a week. So why did he leave the hospital?

I didn't get any answers.

The next question arises: where is he? Is he back in Indonesia? Why not tell me anything?

Negative thoughts come up: what does this have to do with Raymond? Did the Saints vote with Raymond? Did the Saints choose to leave me?

"Cannot be. If yes, it is because of force. Come on, Rangga."

I'm dizzy. I want to go back to Indonesia, but what if Suci is still in Singapore? Surviving looking for him in Singapore? But what if he returns to Indonesia?

"*hit!"

I shook my head slowly, then started pacing back and forth, trying to ease the anger. It turns out my anger didn't go away. The longer I paced, the more my anger grew. Tension began to crawl through my body, and before I knew it, everything had already accumulated in my fist.

Prak!

My fist's floating. Billy's shocked not to play. It's a good thing my hand didn't break, at least according to the medical evaluation I did myself. As a summary of the violence, only one question needs to be asked: You can still move your fingers, Idiot?

While enduring the pain in my hands. I turned to Billy and asked, "What about Indie?"

"His phone can't be reached, sir. And as far as I know, he returned to Indonesia yesterday afternoon."

Goddamn bum!

"Have you checked the flight information? Got what information?"

Billy nodded. "Just find information about Mr and Mrs Nugraha. The departure note was this afternoon. As for Holy Miss Nugraha, there is no record of departure on her behalf."

"Damn it!"

I could barely think, and could only look up at the sky.

Are you playing me, God? You took my love again?

I finally went back to the hotel. In a moment, I pulled out my phone. Staring at the Sacred photo that adorns the screen. In my mind, is Suci still in Singapore, alone without her family, or with anyone else? But, where is he about to be now? Could he have a family living here? I asked in my heart. Is he okay? What about his eyes? Is it true that he can see? Why get out of the hospital? What to avoid hospitalization costs? Could it? Why is the phone inactive?

But, whatever it is, please don't leave me, honey.

I'm confused here. Uneasily.