Heart wail

Chapter 51

Jay followed her to the back yard of the campus, where she saw herself sitting curled up under a tree crying

"Spirited.."

Dira loosened his head to look at the man before him.. Dira erases her tears and stands up "Jay.. From now on it's best not to get close to me anymore"

Jay smiled "Is it because of Ian?" Dira nodded "It turns out you're selfish too.. Then what about me hmm? You don't think about my feelings?"

"Jay.. Lian means so much to me" Staring at Jay in "You're the new guy in my life while lian? I and Ian have been together since childhood, he's been like a brother to me.. I love her so much.. I don't want him to get hurt or hurt because of me.. Therefore please understand" he said softly

"She's very lucky to have a best friend like you but unfortunately you're unlucky to be honey" Inner Jay stared deeply

Jay let out a long sigh "Do you think that by avoiding me everything will be fine?" Removing tears of "That which must be in love of understanding is lian not me.. Your best friend is so selfish, just because his love for me makes him stupid.. Dira, you know if feelings can't be forced?"

"I know but at least Iian didn't avoid me" Sendu

"It's over, he's been avoiding you.. Dira, everything will feel the same even if you start to make up.. You're trying to keep his feelings, but he can't keep your feelings at all.. You should be wondering why he's the only one who wants to understand.. I'm not going to pit you two, but your friendship is not a healthy relationship.. That healthy friendship in which we value each other and take care of each other"

"But if only one side wants to be understood, the friendship will not last Dira... Because what? one side will again feel bored because it feels only he is trying to maintain that relationship"

"I understand jay... But that's me, I'm more concerned with my best friend's feelings than my own.. Because I truly love him.. Jay please understand" Lirih

Dira decided to leave from there leaving Jay who just silently stared

A week later

The relationship between dira and lian has not changed at all, lian still avoids dira.. And dira who keeps trying to improve his relationship with Lian by avoiding jay

Currently she was sitting on the balcony of her apartment room, her gaze straight ahead and her thoughts kept on lian.. I don't think her tears just fell

Being ignored by her own best friend makes her feelings very painful, moreover, the pain was many times over because he also had to avoid the man who had managed to take his heart for the sake of keeping the feelings of his best friend

"Miss..."

Dira quickly wiped his tears and turned towards bi iyem "Is everything finished bi?"

"Yes non. the goods are packed neatly and soon the freight car will come" Dira nodded "Non... Shouldn't we tell the big master about our move to California, I'm afraid you'll be upset if we don't tell him" Anxious

"No need to bi.. Daddy will know for sure and he will understand" Smile

Bi iyem smiled wistfully, he knew very well what was going through the child of his master was "Non. miss who is patient well, aunt is on the side of non-dira, so non-dira is not lonely" Dira nodded and hugged bi Iyem

Dira has decided to move university and the university he is heading to is one of the universities in California.. Dira had already prepared his move from a few days ago.. Initially he wanted to return to Indonesia but he was embarrassed to face his family, reminding how he used to continue whining to want to go to college in the same place

with Ian but ended up not as fun as this

Dira left not because of anger at Lian, but he was disappointed in himself..

Dira reached into his cell phone and sent a short message to Lian

"Lian I love you so much... Don't think I'm severing the friendship between us.. Right now we just need time alone and introspect each other.. I hope we can meet again in good circumstances"

3 Days later

Lian was as cool as ever.. But his feelings these few days felt strange when he got a short message from him.. After a few days of fighting with the contents of his mind, Lian also decided to meet her on campus but Lian did not find her whereabouts anywhere

"Excuse me... Did you guys see a student on behalf of Nadira Aditama?" I asked my classmates

"Nadira??" Frown "Ahh student from Indonesia?" Lian nodded "He's moved.. But we don't know where he's moving"

"p-moved? Meaning move?"

"He's moving university... But Dira didn't say which university to move to"

Lian was silent for a moment, after which she ran out of the room looking for the man who was always with her

¶Campus park

"Senior"

Jay turned a glance then refocused on his books

Lian took a breath of "Senior sorry to interrupt your time... I'd like to ask you, where are you"

Jay smiled cynically "Isn't he your best friend, why are you asking me where he is"

Lian squeezed the end of her dress, because she did not want to talk much with Jay she just left

Without thinking long Lian went straight to her apartment... But when he got there, his apartment was empty and had been inhabited by others

Lian tried to contact dira but his phone can not be contacted nor with bi iyem mobile phone.. Lian also contacted her mother and wanted to ask her, but her mother had already asked where she was and it was frustrating

"Where do you think you are" she said

On the other side

Jay leaned his head against the park chair.. He closed his eyes tightly "Dira"

Jay recalled a few days ago when he sent her a short message

"Jay. When you realize I'm not around, please don't look for me... Sorry for avoiding you, I just don't want things to get complicated... Jay I hope we can meet again in good shape, thanks for making my days more colorful.. I love you" - Dira

Unknowingly Jay's tears just fell "Dira.. We will definitely meet again.. And by then you'll be mine"