Heart Choice's

Episode 72

Tomorrow morning, the,

Zeno slowly opened his eyes, and the first thing he felt was a slightly dizzy head. Probably, due to the influence of alcohol last night. Zeno got up from his sleep and found that he was currently sleeping on the living room sofa with a thick white blanket covering his body.

Zeno smiled faintly, and thought that at least Fani still cared about him.

Zeno stood up and walked towards the kitchen to get a glass of water to relieve the dizziness he was feeling at the moment. As he was about to walk to the refrigerator to get cold water, Zeno saw that the dining table had presented several pieces of sadwitch and also white milk on the table. He also abandoned his intention to go to the refrigerator and preferred to sit in the dining chair. Zeno can see a yellow note that says “I have prepared breakfast for you” that is the writing on the note.

Zeno took a piece of sadwitch and ate it, lapse of a few minutes he had also finished the breakfast made by fani. Zeno got up from the dining chair and turned around to head to his room. However as he was about to walk towards his room, he saw the door of fani's room open slightly.  And, Zeno also walked towards the fani room and intended to close the door of his wife's room, but, again the intention was he undo when Zeno saw the fan in his wife's room was still lit, but, thought Zeno might fani forgot to turn it off, though,

Zeno went into the mortal room and turned off the fan, finished turning off the fan, Zeno turned around to get out of the room.However, before Zeno came out of the fani room, the fan, and, zeno traced the entire room and smiled bitterly.

His heart felt pinched at how stuffy and small his wife's room was. Maybe this room is more suitable to be called a bathroom, because the size of this room is in accordance with the size of the zeno bathroom, it may be the size of the zeno bathroom larger than this room.

Zeno walked up to the bed and sat on the bed, Zeno took a pillow and smelled it in the scent of a pillow that he used often and at all times to support his head. The distinctive aroma of the human hair sticks to the pillow and the zeno inhales in its aroma.

When satisfied with inhaling the smell of the fani contained in the pillow. Zeno put the pillow into early position, when going to put his pillow Zeno saw a book in blue sea lying on the bed.

“what is this book dear fani?” zeno mutter

Feeling curious Zeno took the book, and opened the initial sheet that contained a photo of fani and her mother was having a selfie.

Seeing that Zeno smiled knots, and re-opened the next sheet. Zeno began to read each sheet of the contents of the book that was written fani, until finally the final sheet of the book, the book, zeno squeezed the end of the bedsheet with eyes that began to turn red when reading the contents listed on the paper with black ink inside.

“ Lord, am I wrong if I love my own husband?

Was I wrong if I was selfish, wanting to have my own husband completely without the pain I was currently experiencing.

He was my first love, he taught me what love is and he taught me what true heartache is. Zeno Wicaksono, yes he is my husband, a husband I love so much, I realize that there is no love in my marriage and he, he is unemployed that this marriage is a disaster for him, because my presence is a shame in her relationship and her lover. I want to feel what love is, I want to feel loved by someone who loves me so much, and I want to get it all from the figure of the husband who when the Kabul hijab promised to take care of me, protecting me and leading me to be a good and obedient wife.

I want to feel protected, guarded and cared for like a wife in general, I have lost the figure of a mother who has always listened to my upset complaints.

I remember, when my mom married me to the man I thought would replace my dead mother, I felt so happy and happy, because I think that man will replace my mother's role in protecting, guarding and listening to my heart when I feel lonely. However, I realized my delusion was too high for a marriage on the basis of an arranged marriage, but that's okay, I consider this a test in a marriage. But again I think until when this test will end the LORD. I'm tired of waiting tired. I try to stand your test, but every human being must have a limit of patience in their own portion. WASN'T!

I want to survive in this complicated relationship, I want to keep my husband, but, what can I do?, if my husband just does not love me even think I exist.

does not in a marriage have to have a name that love, appreciate and complement each other?.

again LORD, give me a little more patience to be by his side.

and if my tiredness is already at the lowest point, I will give up. I gave up fighting for it.

Zeno squeezed the sprai cloth so that it showed whitened fingernails, he closed the dear book owned by fani with an irregular feeling of destruction. He rubbed his tears with a single swipe. He got up from his seat and walked out of the room with the sound of the door being hit very hard, yes Zeno closed the door of the fani room very hard so that it caused a very loud bang.

He walked to the living room to find his cell phone, felt he had found where his phone was he sought someone's contact and called him.

“meet me at the office at lunchtime” says firmly zeno.

Finished turning off the call Zeno walked towards his room to take a shower and get ready for the office.

 

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Fani is currently waiting for the bus to be bused near the Zeno appartment. Fani sat in the iron chair that was in the halte by lowering his head while his legs he swung up and down. As engrossed in his empty daydream, he gasps as the sound of a car claskon shocks him.

“For fan..” greet someone from in the car

Fani got up and approached the car “ ka nico,”

“log in fan” invite nico

“eh, don't have to, fani take the bus aja” reject fani

“already come, see this already what time” said nico saw the clock on his wrist “later you are late” he continued.

Fani also saw the clock in his hand and rounded his eyes perfectly not when he saw the clock showing the number 7 over 10 minutes. It is certain that if he is determined to wait for the bus here he will be late, fani exhales short.

“aku nawarin you make me anterin school, that means you do not take care at all fan. Udah let's go in later to hunt late” said nico.

“well,” said fani in the end and get into the car nico “ thanks ka” said fani after sitting beside nico and have also installed sadbalt.nya

“not yet nyampek already said thanks aj” janda nico while forwarding his car.

“muka ka nico why, kok kayak abis hit gitu” tanya fani tak kala saw bruised areas of nico's face.

“oh ini” said nico while shaping the injured face area “ biasah fan, boy” continued fani.

“definitely problem girl deh” guess fani.

Nico at a glance turned his face to look at Fani, but the view did not last long. Because nico back facing forward towards the road.

“iya really guess you” said nico

“ you know fan?” ask nico who is still focused on the front while driving the car.nya

Fani shook her head in a sign she did not know, and even then nico could be seen from the tail of her eyes.

“I love a married woman” said nico

“ka—” fani greeting truncated as nico continues his sentence.

“but what's wrong if I want to free the woman I love from a jerk and a bastard like her"

“Means kaka?” fani is confused.

Nico smiled slanted “husband of the woman I love having an affair and worse yet it turns out they cheated blatantly even in front of my woman”

“what am I wrong if I want to free him from that jerk's man”

“what if the position of the woman I love is in your current position, what will you do?” ask nico

Fani initially responds to him normally, but when nico questions his last question he is confused.

“Heemm, if I was in the position of the woman I love, I would keep my husband” said fani

“why?” ask nico while staring at the intense fani

“color I love my husband, I know that this is wrong. I knew it, but—” stopped when nico stopped his car right in front of the school gate.

“already up” said nico

Fani silent and confused “have not you think about the talk of kaka earlier, you better be diligent school. Because soon you will be testing, right?”tanya nico is possessed by fani.

“ yaudah brother I got off yes, thanks ka nico” said fani smiled sincerely towards nico

“sama-sama” said nico while stroking fani's hair.

“alah same diligent school”

Fani got out of the car and walked towards the gate.

Nico is still watching the fani bronze slowly disappear. “I can not afford fan, horrifying the word that you will continue earlier” said nico then forward his car towards the cafe.

 

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