He Who Doesn't Smile Anymore

Genesis 1: The Past

"I'm sorry I've been friends with you!". Those words kept ringing in the girl's head. 'What's my fault? It's not all my fault!' he thought, always a mistake hit him. It must have been hard for a young girl like her. The smile that always adorns his face has faded, why smile if it does not make others smile?

Alia, that's her name. He who always laughed since childhood is now only shy when he was seventeen years old. Many things make him not smile anymore from friends, environment, parents and many more things. Now that a smile was unfamiliar to him, somehow it all happened to him all of a sudden. He could not resist let alone dodge, everything had happened to him just like that.

People stayed away from him and no one wanted to talk to him anymore. Flowers that should have bloomed were now reluctant to bloom their buds. Every night he could only cry why did this happen to him, the sad cry of a young girl was hard to hear, he kept shouting in his cry 'Why should I suffer? Why should I? It's not my fault!'. Why hasn't God opened his eyes to see his suffering self? What should I do without help from God? Is this not arranged by Him? So why hasn't he helped? God please.

When he went to school, the faces of no one looked at him, as if he was not in the world. When he sat down, the greeting as before was no longer there, he just remained silent on his rise like a statue. Not even a teacher teaching in a classroom was staring at him, so what was the point of him attending school if this continued? During his first break he skipped school and went home. 'No use' he said in his heart to see his condition so empty, no use.

He rushed into his room and locked the door then cried loudly, there was no place in this world anymore. If his whereabouts were not considered, what difference would he have from a corpse? "Corpse? am I just dead? better, right?" he said in silence. Is that the best way to go now? If so what can be done.

But his intention was delayed when someone knocked on his bedroom door. Wh who? No one has knocked on the door for a long time. Wh-wh-what for? Aah, I must have wanted to throw me out because I was truant, 'mom, your son wants to die, you're telling me in his heart. He opened the door slowly, his face was crumpled after crying and saw his grieving mother, and suddenly his mother hugged Alia tightly, as if she did not want to let go. 'Well, am I going to be injected with poison?' thought. But what he thought was wrong, his mother cried loudly even her tears drenched the collar of Alia's clothes. "What's this about? crocodile tears?" sahut Alia who saw her mother crying. Spontaneously the mother slapped him while saying "Take care of what you say, son! These are the tears my mother wanted to shed for you long ago". 'uh? Since long? Keep what the fuck attitude all this time to me?!' alia shouted in her heart. He didn't believe that word at all. He moved away while staring sadly. Of course the heavy things that had been happening to him for so long made his personality change and take a hit. Is that trustworthy?

"Listen to this mother, you may not believe it but this mother standing in front of you from the other side" said the mother.

"Huh? is that trustworthy? Keep fantasizing there!" answer Alia. The mother sat down and said, "This is not supposed to happen to you, this is beyond grandfather's prediction". 'Grandfather?' alia thought in her heart.

"Can you tell me what happened to you? take it easy the other side of the mother will not remember our conversation, but now the mother is fully aware, really" said the mother. For this time Alia believed what her mother said and perhaps this was the last time she trusted her mother. At least before he wants to die tonight.

She cried like a child in front of her mother, the biggest cry since the incident. 'I can't take it anymore, help me!' he screamed in his heart. He was really tormented by the feelings he had felt for a long time. He wants everything to stop but he is not his past self. He cannot change the taboo.

His mother hugged Alia who was crying and asked, "Do you want everything to repeat itself from the beginning? and you don't want to be involved or not to be blamed?". 'What's that blank? But if it can happen I can't go back to my old self. The jolly figure of Alia is now gone, she said in her heart and closed her tired eyes after a long cry.

"A blank as it is if it happens, whatever. I can't change myself" Alia replied.

"Therefore, now is your chance to change everything from the beginning and change yourself" said the mother. Alia just looked at her mother with a careful look, what was the mother planning for her? After long torturing him now want to help him get out of this matter? Moreover, it was just nonsense.

"Had mother said, you you can repeat from the beginning, and there will be help, but it will be difficult because of some things later" explained the mother. Huh huh? what kind of shit is that? If that happens, it'll be fun, right? I want to fantasize about it.

The mother stroked Alia's head gently and said, "May you be loved there". Alia had no idea what her mother meant. "For while you're gone first, the problems here will be dealt with and hopefully you come back with your smile like you used to" he continued.

Alia shed her tears and when she opened her eyes, she saw the expanse of grass with a cool breeze with a few sheets of paper grasped by her. By ourselves.