GUS IDOL

The miss paid off

GUS IDOL

#PoV Hilya

Almost every afternoon when I would finish helping Nyai's mother cook, Gus Abdi always intercepted me. He will sit in a chair near the back door of the kitchen. At first I didn't see him because my cooking position was in the front kitchen, while he was in the back kitchen. The kitchen ndalem is divided into two parts, the front one with a dining room while the back there is a firewood stove which is only used when there is a large cooking event. The two rooms are separated and connected by a single door.

When I saw her, I always pretended not to know her. It hurts, but what can I do. I just feel inappropriate for him.

"Sir." The call always wanted to entice me to come back to face him, but I still gawked away as quickly as possible leaving the kitchen. I thought about when I should be like this, always avoiding him.

"If I were you, Hil, I wouldn't waste this opportunity. I'm handsome, pinter, Hafidz anyway. Which woman would reject such a perfect man. I think you're the only woman in the world who doesn't want to." Indri lectured at length non-stop. Instead of comforting him, he made me worry even more.

As usual, we always sat together waiting for the magrib to arrive at the northern portico of musholla after the activities of the Qur'an ba'da ashar filled by Gus Abdi.

"I'm just afraid of it."

"Fear of who?"

"Nyai's mother and Kyai's brother."

"You are only afraid of your shadow Hil." Indri held both of my shoulders.

Indri was right, I was just worried about something uncertain.

But on the other hand my mind was always in the shadows of Gus Abdi who still insisted on seeing me and I always avoided him.

"Poor Gus Abdi Hil, have the heart of you." Indri's face is blushing.

"I'm kudu piye?" I hugged my knees and lowered my face.

"You must dare to step forward dong, until when you will run away from reality."

I was silent thinking about Indri's words. Maybe Indri is right, I have to be ready to deal with it.

The atmosphere became silent, there was no sense of sound anymore. I raised my head that I had originally buried while hugging my knees. I was very surprised to see the figure of the man now standing in front of me.

I spread my eyes looking for my best friend Indri who suddenly disappeared from my side.

"Austria!" My cry is upset in my heart.

Gus Abdi, now the man took a sitting position next to me at a distance of about two meters. We both sat with our bodies leaning against the wall and facing north.

I don't know why this time I decided to stay. My hands were suddenly cold, icy cold.My cheeks were warming up, my heart was pounding as if it was going to come off.

Why is he suddenly here?.

"Sir." It seems he's looking at me. I can see it from the tail of my eye.

"Thank God you didn't run away."

I dare not look at her, worried that she would see my reddened cheeks.

"What's wrong? Why does sampean always dodge the deck? I've been waiting a long time to see you in person and talk to you."

"Em. nganu gus, hm," said grogi. I'm confused what to say.

"I'm sorry I wasn't so frank from the start." His eyes looked straight ahead. I looked at him.

"Are you disappointed with me?" He looked back at me. I still avoid his eyes.

"Mw." I shook my head slowly.

"Then why won't you meet me?" Ask again. I was silent, a little hesitant to answer her question.

"Dad?"

"Kulo ajrih you're Nyai's mother and Abah Kyai gus." (I am afraid of Nyai's mother and Abah Kyai gus).

I answered while bowing my head.

Gus Abdi chuckled at my answer.

Now he changed his position and faced west, straight at me.

"Madepo mriki deck." (Look at the deck side).

God, my heart feels like it's going to be dislodged hearing his orders. Why did he tell me to face him.

"Mboten mboten lacquer no brakot." (I will not bite you). Her impression again saw me who was still ignoring her request.

Now I change my position facing east, more precisely facing Gus Abdi. My head was still lowered, not daring to look directly into his eyes.

"Deekk.." call him a little spoiled.

"Oh my God, gus. This sample does not know if from earlier my heart almost jumped from its place." I murmured in my heart.

"Madepo mriki to, kulo ki want to semerep senyume to drink." Pintanya.

(Look here, I want to see your smile).

I smiled shyly at hearing her words.

"Lha, lek didelekne eseme." His grunt. Really, she's so cute.

(Well, it's hidden his smile)

I lifted my head, looking straight at his face. Instantly the atmosphere became silent, as if the wind was stopping blowing. Now all I hear is the sound of my own heartbeat.

Two meters away, our eyes clashed against each other. I traced her eyes deeply to make me drift into her. For a moment we kept quiet and looked at each other. Her smile was beautifully engraved adorning her clean looking face without a mustache or beard.

His eyelids blinking slowly added to his charm. It is a beautiful creation, O God.

"Astaghfirullahal 'adzyme." He muttered softly then lowered his gaze. I am too.

The sound of tarhim echoing broke the silence of this twilight. A sign of magrib's time is coming soon.

Gus Abdi stood up and went into the musholla, and soon he came out again holding his cell phone.

I was thinking maybe he was here because he wanted to take his phone that was left behind.

Indri, watch out later. He's got me stuck in a situation like this here with Gus Abdi. Fortunately, there was no cottage that saw us, because these hours must be all the students were busy making preparations to break the fast.

"God willing, I'll call you tonight. Please lift up nggeh."

I nodded slowly, and she passed away.

I don't know what magic he made, which I always avoided, now I can't dwell in front of him. His gaze so deep made me drift into the sea of romance.

I felt like I was dreaming, a very beautiful dream. I still imagined himself sitting in his place earlier, looking at me meaningfully. I forgot my hunger and thirst.

I got out of my place, I kept walking while smiling to myself.

I greet every cottage that passes by me with a smile full of happiness. They looked astonished at my unusual behavior.

All right I'll find the boy later, in a moment time to break the fast, I have to go to the kitchen ndalem.

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When in the bathroom I was like seeing indri, when I approached him he instead hid himself behind a bunch of mbak-mbak who were queuing while gossiping.

"Where are you going, ha?" I pulled my veil from behind because it was like trying to hide from me.

"Hehee.." He was a sinless whimper.

"Why did you leave me?" Just pissed.

"Sstt..! By the way not here, there will be a lot of horrors." Indri whispered in my ear.

True too, maybe later I will be the material of the struggle in this princess boarding school.

"Okay, later after tarawih we're talking four eyes!" I pointed my fingers right in front of his eyes.

"Mister Hilya!" I looked at the voice that called me. Madam Rana, now she is in front of me.

"Sampean who leads tarawih prayers yes." Mbak Rana.

"Where is Nyai's mother?"

"There was a sudden affair, he left with the guse earlier."

"Kan, there are other mbak-mbak. I'm still new here, mbak."

"Mak Qonita is sick. Me, Mbk Shima, mbak Nurma, mbak Hanum, all obstacles."

"That's what I can make a deal with." I scrunched my forehead.

"There are many others." I said again.

"Nobody wants to mbak. Just the same, yes, Nyai's mother also gave advice to just tell sampean."

I was silent for a moment.

"Come on mbak, rather than no one being a priest. The sins of the day."

"Kok even me the sin mbak. Hm, yeah wes. I'm ready."

"Well, that's dong." Rana's mother rolled her eyes, then left.

After finishing berwudlu, I and Indri get ready and go together to musholla.

From the outside there is a sound of praise even without speakers before the implementation of isya prayers' and continuing tarawih prayers.

In unison the princess santri who have been present chant the words of praise.

After performing sunnah rowatib qobliyah isya', I and indri joined with other santri chanting compliments while waiting for iqomah.

"Muhammadun sayyidul,

Qownayniwa, tsaqolay,

Niwalfari qownimin 'urbi wa min 'ajami,

Amirun nahi fala ahadu,

Qowlila minhu wala na'ami abarropy".

A piece of my favorite compliment lyrics, which are usually chanted before the Isya prayer'. Just like in my original pesantren, Ponpes Roudlotul jannah.

Iqomah was proclaimed, I also took a position in the place of the priest.

About an hour passed, tarawih prayer which ended with the prayer of the witir was well-winded. Usually after the prayer is over, we do the ritual of shaking hands with each other while chanting sholawat prophet.

When I turned around to retreat from the priest's place, I gasped to see the monks who were waiting in line to shake hands with Nyai Maryam's mother.

"That means that when I was a priest, Nyai's mother participated as makmum dong?" I murmured in my heart.

I was very stubborn, afraid that my prayers were not good when I became a priest, and corrected by Nyai's mother. Shame on my mother dong.

I also followed the others in line to shake hands with Nyai's mother. When it was my turn, I kissed Nyai's mother's right hand with respect. But what makes me a little stunned is when the left hand of Nyai's mother gently stroked my head.

I thought maybe that was his attitude towards his students, loving.

Indri elbowed my arm while smiling an indistinct smile. I just looked at him in wonder.

"I think there is a green light" said Indri while embracing my neck. We walked to the dormitory.

"Green light? Meanin?" I do not understand the word indri.

"Your..! you're so insensitive, Hil. Yesterday is also about gus your servant is also not sensitive at all." Indri was upset.

"Don't say it out loud!" I shut indri's mouth.

"There can be social jealousy if you know about me and the servant gus." I spoke half a whisper.

We both chuckled.

I pulled the arm of the indri, invited him to sit in the garden, on a large rock that is commonly used to sit here.

"So afternoon why did you leave me? You set me up on purpose?" My investigation into indri.

"Mistake it yourself why you've been covering up, so don't see that there's a gus servant coming." Indri laughed at me.

"You should have said dong ndri. Shamefully know!" I'm upset.

"Gus the man who asked."

"What?" I said I don't believe.

"Yes, guse gave me a code like tell me to go. I thought Guse would want to talk to you both." Indri.

"But you're a whimper, right?" Indri played both of his eyebrows a sign he was teasing me.

"Opo anyway." I stood up and left indri. It is undeniable, I was very happy when this afternoon, with him.

Is there a ray of hope for me at this moment?

Hope to be with him.

To be continued 💚

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Please chrysanthemum. Still learning stage.