Gorgeous
Beautiful (Part 3)
Long sad until almost midnight I passed, my phone did not stop ringing from 17:00 this afternoon. Every now and then I glance at my phone just looking at the chat message and the phone from whom. It was naive for me to behave like this to the Hero, but it was not until jealousy, disappointment and anger drowned me in this naivety.
I was thinking if it was my fault to be beautiful, because before this happened, Wira had said "you are really beautiful today. I bete, afraid you have a lot of fancies".
But, what if I go back to being the me I used to be, there will be many who say we are not compatible anymore. All the pain and sadness alternately whipped my heart, tears unstoppable, it felt like my heart crumpled made Wira when I. Could this be a heartbreak ? Heartbroken, because Wira based all her treatment of me with the reason just tired and stressed. Again his words sounded "Sorry, maybe because of tired and stress I became rich gini" .Heartbroken, because from the beginning the women swarmed Wira and asked for photos, my heart was busy with my jealousy. Wira, it seems that his heart does not feel the same way. He never felt jealous of the men who asked to take pictures with me, he was not jealous when Athar asked for my contact, again he did not feel jealous when he saw Athar giving flowers to me. Actually it's not the fault of the hero, even if he's innocent of his feelings, the wrong return is me. I finally realized that I started all my changes because of the Hero. I changed because I wanted to be worthy and considered harmonious when I was with Wira, even today I am still trying to be beautiful and more beautiful so that I can be seen by her.
I am a fool indeed, can interpret love because there are men who kiss me because it is trapped atmosphere only. Hah, it will definitely hurt if tomorrow comes and I still meet him. Looking at someone with great love and hope, but that person does not put the slightest love towards us, must be very painful.
It's been almost 12 p.m., I tried to close my eyes, forcing her to shut even with the shadow of the Hero. The fatigue did not make me sleep well, many times I woke up, staring at the phone screen just to know what time it was, and just see if Wira was still trying to call me or not, yeah every time I wake up and then try to shut up again many times I'm like that. Until the last time when I woke up at 04:00 am, I did not try to fall asleep again this time I prefer to jog, maybe by running I will feel a little better. For about 1 hour I walked down the street with my footsteps, breathing that was cut off from exhaustion at least alleviated the lingering feeling in my heart. At 5:00 I returned home and prepared for school, this time I did not prepare anything for me to put in Bi Sumi's shop. Because yesterday I did not have time to prepare raw materials for the food I sold. It's still 5:30, but I'm done with all the prep and breakfast in the morning. After thinking and calming my heart, it seems better if I don't wait for the Hero this morning. This time I don't think about the feelings of the Hero, I just want my heart to go back to normal first. After saying goodbye, without saying much either with my father or mamah I rushed to school by ordering an ojek through the Kojek application. At 6:00 I was already at school, still very early in the morning like it was, because when I got off the bike I had not seen a single student. Only a few people were putting up a welcome banner, and 3 guards were smoking. Indeed, no one who can smoke in our school is no exception for teachers and security guards, maybe at that time the security guards smoked because there was not a single student who came.
"Eh, the neng has come." Said one of the guards while hiding a cigarette behind his back
"Yes sir, someone missed out" I said
Upon entering the gate I saw some cleaning service that usually only cleaned the classroom and the school environment was arranging a chair in the middle of the ceremonial field that was already covered by a tent, as well as providing tables on the left and right sides of the podium where the headmaster usually gives his speech. It looks like there will be a special event today, but what is it. Not paying attention to me, I headed straight to the cafeteria to meet Bi Sumi.
"Bi." said I who saw the bisumi was tidying up the merchandise
"Eh. pita, congratulations yesterday on being champion. Aunty watched it yesterday" Bi Sumi said in her signature tone
"Bi today I did not enter the merchandise, sorry, because yesterday came home late in the afternoon. Want to buy fried ingredients the stall is closed" said I give a reason
"Yes, it's okay. Auntie knows too. Tomorrow if you want to fill again, the same fried meat in manyin. Yesterday there were a lot of nanyain" Bi Sumi gave the order
"Yes bi, if so I go to class first" I said as I left Bi Sumi
I walked through the hallway of the school feeling different yet very familiar. Without the person who used to hold my hand or just tail me from behind it feels like it used to be. Back then, when the hero hadn't come into my life.
When I saw there were 5 missed calls from Wira and 1 missed call from Athar. Maybe the Hero is waiting for me, but that's why I still don't dare to take a call from the Hero or just read it. Not yet out of sight, my phone is already shaking back, again from Wira. For the umpteenth time from last night I ignored the call from Wira.
"Ah class is still empty, I used to always enter class every morning. Bully, I used to avoid bullies now I'm avoiding my friend." I said it to myself when I entered the class
The morning increasingly shows the light, the cold city of Bandung began to warm. One by one the voices began to be heard until the rumbling of classmates and friends from other classes began to harden. I just realized, it's useless if I avoid Wira if only when leaving for school, after all we will meet and sit at the same table.
"Eh pit Wira where" asked Gladys the beautiful girl
"Tumben, the mpit is not the same Wira. Break it up" said my former bully faisal
"So I went first, from yesterday I thought that my Kimi book was missing" I said lying back
"Eh, the older brother of Akpol came" said the daughter in my class
Turns out there was a visit by Taruna, not for what but I don't care at all.
"Shelf!!!" I saw the girl kick the classroom door
"Euh, Apaan really makes me surprised" said Gladys whose face actually still looks calm
"Sorrylah unintentionally too, my leg semblance" Wira seemed to be hiding something
My heart is pounding, I'm so afraid that the hero will scold me. From afar I could feel the aura of anger of Wira, just want to cry me at that time...
