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Chapter 39: Alex

"Ah, a message is coming. Let's look here.. 'The black haired one over there is Hikaru'..?” (Alex)

Alex knocked something in the air and said that.

I finally saw Alex subconsciously because of that.

Our gazes collided.

—Kuusukusu.

—Kyakkyakky.

The relaxed atmosphere until now changed completely.

The sharp look and the sneer I felt came from somewhere.

Cold sweat ran down my back.

The two members of Alex's party also looked doubtfully over here.

They looked here with eyes as if saying 'who is this person?', and my body was paralyzed, I couldn't even move.

At an unknown point in time, it seemed like I was starting to feel a strong fear towards the gaze.

Even though I was just dipped in hot water, my whole body felt cold.

My fingers trembled, and although I wanted to escape, my body did not respond.

“Hikaru…? You are Hikaru? The Chinese?” (Alex)

Alex spoke to me.

It seems like he didn't hear about me and Nanami from the message, he spoke to me normally.

...No, thinking about it normally, there was no way he wouldn't do it.

Maybe it was only me who was too self-aware here, but I was the highest ranked audience amongst the 1,000 Chosen Ones. Those numbers would not have been possible without Nanami's problem.

Even so, I did not have the courage to throw the topic.

More importantly, I am currently in a mental state where it would be difficult to make a simple response here.

"…i'm Japanese." (Mari)

When I answered that, Alex made a pleased expression. He closed the distance to me.

“Hoh, Japanese! This is the first time I've met the Chosen One! I'm Jack Alexander Fox! I'm from Ontario, Canada.I'm more often called Alex. ” (Alex)

“Oke” (Hikaru)

“Aki did not know left and right were suddenly sent to a parallel world, but I was surprised that it was really a movie-like world. Isn't that also for you, Hikaru?” (Alex)

"Y-Yes ..." (Mari)

“I thought I'd be fine going to a place where I didn't have a single acquaintance, but it was actually quite rude. But I got a message from my friends saying that I could go to the guild and make friends, and somehow I could arrange it like that. Are you alone, Hikaru?” (Alex)

“Yah, yes.. I guess.” (Mari)

"I understand. They did say the Japanese were stoic.” (Alex)

Alex is a happy man.

I could see pure happiness as if he had met someone from the same village from that friendly smile of his.

But I can't accept it sincerely.

“I have many friends in our world who want to go visit Japan. You have a lot of anime and manga, right?” (Alex)

"Well that's how it is." (Mari)

“Hm…? you don't look good. Are you all right?" (Alex)

"Y-Yes .. no problem." (Mari)

The three of them looked at me.

And most importantly, Alex's viewers and my viewers together must have numbered several million people.

Everyone watched this meeting amusedly.

When I think about it, I can't even speak.

“Oi oi, are you from the same place as Alex? You said your name was Hikaru, right? He said he came from a parallel world, but is that true?”

Even her friends joined the conversation now, and honestly I was at my limit.

“Sorry.. I have business to deal with. Can we talk about this another time?” (Mari)

"Oh, so? Sorry for suddenly talking to you. There's no one here I can talk to about Earth, you know. I come here occasionally, so let's talk again! ” (Alex)

"…Yes.Yes." (Mari)

Alex was a good guy until the end.

I felt ashamed about myself and left the public bath as if running away.

No, I really ran away.

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I left the public bath, returned to the inn, and lay there as if falling into it.

(I should have spoken more normally.) (Mari)

I didn't kill Nanami. I was suddenly chosen to be transferred to a parallel world.no, you could say I was dragged into it. Frankly, I was a victim.

There's no need for me to be so far away.

However, I ran away.

Even though I can make the right conversation.

He can understand my situation.

However, I ended up running away as if I felt guilty about something.

“Aaaaaaahhh!” (Mari)

I'm running away from it.

Even though it was the Chosen from Earth, I finally met.

Even though he was a comrade who faced the same difficulties as me.

I ended up running away from that place while not talking anything.

I fear.

My heart churned at the thought of talking to a stranger, and most importantly, when I was bathed in attention, I lost my confidence.

My heart was raging, blood was rushing into my head, the ends of my limbs were numb, and just standing there took all of mine.

It's impossible to speak properly there.

Even so, if I forced myself to speak there, I was sure tears would fall before the words came out.

It must also be because I haven't prepared myself mentally.

It was sudden, and I could barely hide it.

I hateit.

The places of light, and truth.

I wasn't like this before coming to this world.

I'm more normal.

…I have, but …

He should know that I was suspected of killing my childhood friend.

However, he spoke to me as if he did not know about it.

Did we meet by chance?

Or maybe he was informed of my every action, my location at all times, and came to check on me while pretending it was a coincidence?

My imagination is going in a bad direction.

There was no way I could see the truth with just such a level of conversation.

I don't know shit.

I don't know, but I'm hated, and all Chosen can be my enemies; that's all, I know.

I realized I was being pessimistic.

I don't know when I was bent this way.

Was it when I came out of the forest and read those horrible messages for the first time?

Or maybe when I hid in the Dungeon, searched for corpses, and sold them to the black market?

Was it when I sold the Spirit Stone that was once human, and bought food with that money?

Or have I always been that kind of person?

After all, everyone was laughing at my sight.

They all hope I fail.

When I laugh strangely, when I awkwardly respond ...

Waiting for me to die miserably.

Laughing, saying 'Don't try to talk as if you are in the same position even though you are Hikaru'.

'You are a little man hiding in the darkness and living secretly in the Dungeon. An inferior being that was different from the others who lived a decent life, right?', they said with a mocking laugh.

…I understand that.

It was all just a delusion I created myself.

However, those voices came from the bottom of my heart.

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And that's how I froze.

I was enveloped by something pitch-black in the depths of my heart, and I finally couldn't move at all. I lost my ability to speak.

A demon king lives in my heart.

“Uuuuh..!” (Mari)

I should have talked more.

Alex might listen to me well.

He might be able to explain it to the viewers.

Even if he knew about the incident, he might believe me.

He might have been my friend.

—Ahaha.

—Ufufu.

…No, my thinking like that might be my weakness.

What if he believes me and the situation worsens?

I don't even know about Alex. He might just look like a good guy because it was our first meeting.

He was a Chosen One, so he had to strengthen himself with Points as well. He can break me with his hands like a twig.

With this meeting, countless messages about me would reach him, and his mind might turn into seeking my death.

“...Yes...” (Hikaru)

After flipping through the bed for an entire hour, my mind grew calmer.

Its alright.

Acting like that is fine.

There was nothing but the risk of getting acquainted with the Chosen One.

akh would make the wrong choice from my desire for human interaction.

I'm not wrong.

- Ha ha ha.

—Kusukusu.

I heard laughter from somewhere.

Someone laughed at my stupidity.

That's just fine.

Laugh as you please.

I'm the stupid one, Kurose Hikaru.