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6. The Sexuality and Spirituality Book
During the lecture, my mind was never affected by the lecturer in front of the class, but only influenced by the books I liked.
Give the books that shake the world to me, then I will be affected by it.
All the books that affect me will make my daily life cycle "reflections, reactions and actions."
It is true what Rosa said, that I am a very serious young man, wherever there is no day without reading and discussion.
Thus, i!
When Khatam read his book Das Capital Karl Marx, then immediately I became a "marxist" and often demonstrated in defense of the rights of the workers.
When I finished reading Misbach's Asghar Ali Engineer, Hassan Hanafi, I immediately became a santri activist who was fond of defending the mustad'affins in Jember.
When I finished reading feminist books, then I became a flirtatious man who likes to defend and often in the female demographic.
That is how my life every day flows from reflection, reaction and action.
Reflections I do from reading books, the reaction I get from the discussion, then the next I manifested into real action on the field, either through demonstrations or through writing in the mass media.
As a result, I became a man who was dry humor and very old-fashioned with the world of romance of two people.
Thus, each affected by the book, instantly the world wants me to change. Including now, I was so influenced by the book that Rosa bought.
As a result, my mind is now dancing, circling around to immediately perform the real action, "sexuality in spirituality" with Rosa.
I must admit, an ****** that I used on Rosa at that time, was limited to bodybuilding activities only. Just a body activity. It's like a pee. At that time, I did not feel at all the value of her unimaginable beauty. It is only fitting that I am no longer interested in doing so, because it only results in mere self-regret.
While this book Rosa bought has doused my thirst for knowledge of "spirituality in**** and sexuality in the spiritual".
Encouraged by the explosive feelings caused by the book, I also agreed to marry the series with Rosa.
"Yes it's Ros, we're marrying siri!" my answer is in favor of Rosa marrying Siri.
"key ...I condition first, my dear Gio! I consulted first with the ustad." replied Rosa immediately closed her HP.
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Besides being pushed by the book, ever since my heart was sniper by the expression of love and tears Rosa has made “my masculine feelings” so weak.
Moreover, since I understand the position of women who are often victims of "structural patriarch", then I never had the heart to let women cry, like the cry of his love for me Rosa.
The moment I was frowned upon, cared for, missed, and loved by Rosa, however, made my heart melt.
Yes ...now I realized, at this time my heart has been weak and melted to Rosa.
And Rosa has made me realize that now I have two tendencies to love women. The first figure, a beautiful woman, independent, firm, and difficult to subdue. The second figure, a beautiful woman is weak, spoiled, and does not need to be subdued again like this Rosa.
I don't know ...
Maybe because all this time I could never have the woman I craved, and plus the influence of the book Rosa bought, so that arrived now I want to have a beautiful wife with a graceful hijab, soft, spoiled and shy.
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A week later I actually married Siri to Rosa in the lead-up to a long student holiday.
At that time Rosa did not tell her father or his family. I don't know what the reason is.
We were married to a Ustad who had provided a witness and he himself became his guardian. For that series wedding we paid the whole fee.
The practice of Ustad providing siri wedding services in our area is an open secret. But those without networks will find it difficult to know
After the series' wedding, Rosa returned to her hometown.
"Mas, Gio baby!" rosa's friendly greeting through her HP connection.
"Yes, Ros!" I started to get nervous hearing his mess.
"Call, I love dong, Mas!"
"So we meet, Mas!"
"Yes, so."
"At the Villa, that's it?"
"Yes ..."
"Don't forget, the condom was brought, you know!"
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Towards the villa we were heading to in the village of Rembangan from the city took half an hour. It is located on the slopes of Mount Raung. Only from there the city of Jember will look so beautiful and amazing with the air so cool.
Towards the magrib me and Rosa to VIlla in the village of Rembangan. We also do how**** is wrapped in spirituality. Like the instructions for the book Rosa had bought.**** in spirituality is a complicated concept that I cannot explain in words to Rosa.
Clearly, the time there, me and Rosa before fusing into sexuality, we performed the ritual without ceasing until the passions were controlled.
There, Rosa and I continued to purify sexuality with sacred values.
At that time, we actually could not bear to quickly drown in lust, but we continued to be determined to tame that wild lust with love and compassion. We pay no heed to angkara's lust continue to undermine the soul. And ... we continue to be determined to sanctify **** with spirituality.
Until the time came, Rosa and I melted into it. Until the end ...
We rubbed the sepoy, touched the mists, and in his dim light.
Allowing all within to melt in the soul.... Don't be blocked with your gender and my gender anymore
We just want to melt ... Not because I'm a man, she's a woman. Melting away is to become one wave to eliminate my maleness and femininity.
The melting is …...
When LOVE calls you, follow him, even though the path you take is steep and winding.
When its wings reach you, surrender and surrender, though the sword hiding behind it threatens your sincere intentions.
When love speaks to you, believe me, though it wipes out your beautiful dreams like a north wind that rips apart security.
When love crowns you, love will also crown you.
As long as he wishes to grow your foliage, he cuts off your roots.
As your asmorum soars, dipping the peaks of your height, fondling the softest twigs that vibrate in the light of the morning sun
Aware …
.Love will give you nothing but his whole being, and he will take nothing from you, except from himself.
Because …
Love is not possessed and possessed, for love is sufficient for love.
And awake …
Do not think that you can determine the direction of love, because love when it has made a choice for you, it will determine the course of your life..
Because …
Love has no desire other than to manifest its own meaning.
But …
If you love accompanied by various desires, then manifest it by: thawing yourself, flowing like a tributary singing the song of the evening offering.
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