FRIEND BUT LOVE

My pride is at stake

Ever since I was hit by Aleta I was so awkward with Candra, there was a feeling of guilt in my mind.

It has been 2 weeks since that day, and I am also carrying out my activities.

I no longer send messages to him, even berserk whatever I refuse to do, not infrequently I avoid not to meet and cross paths with him.

Shy, upset, angry, jealous, all mixed up and made me even more reluctant to meet her.

Moreover, I see Aleta always beside candra

Even when the student release activities are done I prefer to be far apart and remove traces from it, I prefer to be alone compared to having to gather with my classmates.

Disocial media candra posted her photo with Aleta, with a romantic caption that adds to the beautiful photo.

Without realizing I was getting sick, I was ready to block the number from my phone, I deliberately did to forget it from my mind.

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I who have been very far with my boyfriend also ventured to end our relationship, although he was heavy and reluctant but I still ended our relationship.

It's not that I like new people, basically our relationship is long over.

I guess I lived for a while, where I lost two important people in my life, but I realized life would go on and on.

On the sidelines of my activities and other friends often video-call groups, but candra was never present in it, I was very grateful that honestly my pride still fell in front of him.

At that time me and other friends were talking and telling us about our various activities, joking and throwing taunts at each other, intentionally vira invite candra into the group.

I who from the beginning spoke without pause was momentarily silent, I turned aside my camera for a moment, I saw candra turning up her call.

"it may not be lifted" I thought.

I also continued to tell others about the cuteness when with my group, on the sidelines I told Candra to pick up the phone and I was silent and spontaneously turned off the group's video call.

"Fuck, why do I have to be lifted up anyway" I said muttering

Vira immediately invites me back, which I inevitably have to accept.

Vira, Rani and Cindy do know my problems and candra, I deliberately tell them because they are my close friends.

"It was unintentional" I replied normally

"I thought you were intentionally ra" Cindy said

"No way mayra may be intentional" continued rani

I just forcefully smiled looking at those who were starting to corner me.

"The devil's victory" I said in my heart

"What's that thing there?" sean said my boyfriend

"Well rich you guys, nothing special" I said seriously answering the question sean

"There is no candra that is not special" said Azka my boyfriend who rarely commented

"Crazy, Azka if you like real" continued vira excitedly

"Hahahaha, you guys are" said Candra who had just been silent

"Can it be safe there?" ask cindy

"Aman guys, as long as you're safe dong" he replied with pride

"Yes there is safe, hearted mayra is not safe hahahah" said vira while laughing loosely coupled with laughter from rani

"You guys, mayra will get angry" replied candra

"How are you, Ra?" he said ask me

"Huh? doesn't sound like it" I said pretend

"Kan, mayra is angry, it's your responsibility to be angry" replied Candra who either knew I was pretending or just joking.