Forced to Marry an Actor

Crying Regret

Without caring about the various questions, Marissa went straight into her room ignoring anyone there. He's like a kid who craves because he's not bought a snack and just shuts himself in the room.

"Marissa why the hell, son? He was so happy now angry spirit is not clear. Mama became strange as her attitude," said Mama to Arya while putting a bag on the living room sofa and sitting right next to her bag.

"Maybe someone made her mood so bad times, Ma," Arya replied just guessing and came to sit on the sofa next to Mama.

Papa pats Arya's shoulder. "Let's say he's probably tired. You're calm now, what's wrong?" tanya Papa ascertains the condition of Arya.

Arya held Papa's hand on her shoulder and smiled. "Ga nothing ko, Pa. Arya was just in the mood. Arya was disappointed with me."

Papa sat in front of Arya, "If you are not ready for the story you should just rest first, pity you must also be tired," said Papa understandingly.

"Yes, Son. You rest now, the story later. Moreover, Marissa again bete that, when she was the most eager to ask you to make a story," said Mama.

"Ma Marissa's usual birthday is missing that mood. And it looks like Arya wants to tell you a story now with Papa and Mama. Arya wants the country also in front of Papa and Mama if Arya will never and will not want to return with Raya. Especially after Arya found out, how easy it was for her to play with a feeling," Arya said making a decision and then began to tell her what happened back then, after everyone left the two of them inside the room.

Without a word, Raya got off her bed and then she limped and hugged Arya, something that made the man surprised because of the treatment of the woman in front of him so suddenly. It was his first hug with Raya even the thing that had never been done during their courtship.

The hug that was obtained when Raya was no longer her boyfriend made Arya so shy. When dating alone disinclined especially now he has nothing to do with Raya, too, although Arya is married to Marissa, a contract, it is still unethical for him if a married man hugs another woman by bringing a feeling in her.

Arya threw Raya's hand slowly, "What are you doing? Why hug me suddenly like this?"

"I miss you, Ay!" The eyes sparkle between sad and happy.

"I'm nobody to you anymore, there's no reason for you to miss me even more so I have to hug me like before" Arya replied expressionlessly.

"You also why just play down from the bed? Your wounds haven't really dried up yet, have they? What if your wound opens again?" arya asked with a look of pity. Arya then memapah Raya to go back up to her bed.

"So what do you want to say to ask me to speak with four eyes?" asked Arya while sitting on the side of the bed Raya did not want to linger in this place.

"I'm sorry, I was wrong because I cheated on you.. I hurt you, I was wrong! Sorry for all my mistakes! I am a woman who sins once because I have released a man as good as you in my life. At that time I just wanted to see what you were like, not what I really needed. I'm totally blinded by Kelvin's love because I think he's got everything I want. But it turns out that I was wrong, I'm sorry now after all he's done to me. I beg you please forgive me Ay..." Crying while talking. But somehow Arya's heart was not moved at all when she heard it.

"Not crying. I'm sorry for you from far away!" arya's reply made Raya's heart bright.

"Are you really sorry? Would you like to turn me around again?" tanya Raya's spirit, also shameless.

Arya breathed a heavy sigh. "I'm sorry about you, Raya. But sorry, I can't if I have to go back to you. We're done. And you alone broke off our relationship, even in a painful way."

"I know I was wrong. But I wanted to come back to you, you said that I was the only woman you loved, right? That's why you want to marry me, even until now I know you still love me, right Ay?!" raya whinek while grasping Arya's arm.

Arya let go of that grasp while shaking her head. "I'm sorry" she said, "I can't go back to you."

"lik! You lied! You are only lying to yourself when in fact you still love me, Arya honest answer!" pinta Raya screamed hysterically, "if you don't love me, then why did you save me even to beat up Kelvin all over? You know, Arya, it's because you still love me! Because of your love you dared to beat up Kelvin, right?!"

Arya held onto Raya's shoulder with both hands and slightly shook it.

"Raya, wakeful! Did you forget that you hurt me and now, regardless of how I feel, you keep thinking about yourself, asking me to get back together? Look, I'm helping you that's only because I have to, and my problem is beating up Kelvin, anyone would be upset if he knew the situation if he encouraged you who are pregnant with his own child and anyone would not be out of thought after seeing his actions that are very dangerous for you and your child!" arya.

It's in disbelief, "Lie! Lied to you Ay! You help me for sure because you still love me, and you don't want to see me for anything Ay! Hicks! Hicks! You still love me and love me! I'm sure it is!" The crying is breaking.

"So you think your duty to help me was a coincidence? You think it's only because you helped me, so I owe you my life that you have the right to dump me like this, huh?" tanya was crying while angry.

Arya again breathed. It was hard to explain how his heart meant to the Kingdom "It's not what I mean Raya. I have no thoughts at all of throwing you away or anything like that. Besides did you forget that you were the one who dumped me first? You even had the heart to cheat on him, then instead of feeling guilty you compare me to Kelvin, call me a coward, call me no better than him, even you call me a hypocrite! Do you not remember all your words? Do I have to come back with you after all your treatment? Can't Raya! Even remembering it makes my heart ache!"

"So you haven't received all my treatment so you want to take revenge on me in this way? You turned me down just because you wanted revenge, didn't you?" tanya Raya was impatient.

Arya looked at Raya nanar. "Raya, listen to me. If I wanted to take revenge on you, I would have let you fight with Kelvin back then even I didn't care about your safety and your son's, but I couldn't keep my ego, in fact, I'd be guilty if I let it all happen and just watched from a distance, how guilty I would be if I didn't help you especially after I remember you had the intention to abort your baby. Too bad your son, not even born yet is not wanted by both parents." Raya widened her eyes of disbelief, how could Arya know that she ever wanted to abort her fetus?

"Even after everything you've done to me, I still worry about you. I even went to the gynaecology clinic a few times, where we met in the past to make sure you didn't abort the boy, until I got the answer that you started to accept it and intend to give birth to the child. And you also seem to be trying to convince Kelvin to accept it and even ask him to marry you immediately. To be honest, I'm very happy if that happens, which means you've found your happiness with Kelvin, starting a new life into a happy little family. And to be honest, I got sick when I saw you like this. Not because I still love you, but my wish for you to be happy has been lost. My prayer that you be happy is meaningless because you have lost a precious child. I really can't bear to see you like this, Raya. That's all it is!" the light of Arya gives understanding gently.

Meronta raya. "But how can you refuse me? Are you disgusted with me because I've been pregnant with someone else?" his screams.

"I'm not disgusted by you. It's just that I'm disappointed. Very disappointed. You broke my trust, you tore my heart out. Even if I come back to you, even though the tears of my heart are put back together, still can not, because it wants to be flanked also there must be a visible mark there. Likewise with our relationship, even if we reverse it but the painful past will still overshadow me. I don't want to have an unhealthy relationship like that, Raya."

Raya dragged her feet, bent them so she could cry down in her bed. The woman hugged both her legs and sobbed like a child in a corner. Body shakes. He no longer cared about the pain of his stomach surgery.

Arya looked down sadly at seeing Raya like that. There was a sense of compassion that cut through the recesses of his heart.

Raya looked up hurriedly she looked for the necklace behind her clothes and then showed it to Arya. A necklace with a heart shape pendulum given Arya first.

"You see this necklace? I always wear it when I'm treated here. Do you know how many times I've tried to escape and killed myself? My life was ruined for me, but when Mom brought me this necklace. I think back. I want to live, I want to start all over again with you. You're my only reason to live right now, but why would you ever reject me. Shreds my hopes. Should I just die? Do I deserve to die?!"

Arya's eyes are glistening. Her heart was scratched upon hearing Raya's statement of her desire to end life.

Arya awkwardly stroked the head of Raya. "It's big enough. You have to accept this fact, even if you are no longer with me does not mean your life is ruined. It's not the end of your life. But make it an experience so that you can start a new life again without going wrong as before. I'm sure someday there will be men who will love you for who you are even better than me. And I'm sorry I've made this decision that I can't be back with you anymore. I sincerely apologize from my heart. I beg you to understand." Without tears on Arya's cheeks.

Raya looked at Arya with a sad face "Is it because of Marissa? Are you starting to love her now?" tanya Raya is sad.

Arya smiled bitterly, "Marissa is no reason for me to reject you. I just don't want to come back to you and remember all the pain you've ever given me. I'm really sorry, "pinta Arya again so Raya will understand.

Raya remained in disbelief, she shook her head violently. "But I've realized by now that I actually love you so much. You remember you said we were meant to be together. Even our names are the same, ARYA, RAYA. One that makes us destiny. I also remember when you said I was the only woman you wanted to marry? You can't forget that, right?" tanya Raya does not despair of wanting Arya.

"I remember Raya, very much remember. I even remember the times we were together. I remember all those wonderful memories, but unfortunately I also remember all the bad memories from you. That is what makes us unable to be together anymore, so please understand Raya. Don't let you regret later if you force me back together again, my attitude will definitely be different to you can't be like before, because later in our relationship there will always be bad shadows from the past. I don't want to live with that feeling. I can no longer love you so we can no longer be together so that I do not hurt you in the future" explained Arya still filled with tears and then moved from the bed of Raya.

Raya pulls Arya's arm and won't let her go. But as much as possible Arya threw the hand, of course with effort without hurting Raya.

The powerless thrashing. Tears were pouring down her cheeks. Even to the point of falling on the clothes he was wearing became wet.

He finally understood what it meant to be sorry. The tears of regret he was feeling were now meaningless. That cry could not atone for his sins in the past, Arya would never return to him again.

Before actually coming out, Arya turned to Raya and gave her a message.

"Raya, this life is only once. Don't waste it by doing something stupid to end your life again. I'll feel guilty for the rest of my life if you do that, understand me if you feel guilty about me. And live your life as best you can. Start a new life from now on, forget the past and achieve the real happiness you really need. You cheated on me once, which means you don't find your happiness in me. You cry tormented like this just because of a regret not because you really want me. So start looking for the meaning of your own happiness, of course without hurting others again. Make everything that happens between us a valuable lesson for you, and find someone who really makes you comfortable so you don't make mistakes like you used to, and tell the person you've chosen if there's something you don't like about him without having to look for an escape that will end up hurting him. I'm sure one day, that happy day will come to your life. So be patient and cheerful," said Arya with a smile and wiped her face from the rest of the tears and began to step up and open the exit. Although Raya still shouted to call his name but Arya could not be restrained anymore. When the door opened, it felt like Arya had completely abandoned her past. Right with the face of someone he saw in front of him, would that face be his future? Arya doesn't know, for sure she wants to start a new life from now on.

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