Flashbacks

Chapter 15: Breakup

"His husband is done, yuk, take a walk, brother."

"No. I'm tired, deck."

"Judek. But will you bring me home?"

"No. I'm tired, deck."

Steps stopped. I'm annoyed with him being so indifferent. Ever since I gave her rainbow cake and a special gift, she's been the same. Don't chat me or read my chat. In fact, I thought that by stopping my steps he would pull me up and take me home. But the man continued his steps without looking back. "Patience, Ti. You have to be maklumin. He just finished up physics today. Maybe his head's still burning."

Forced, I went home alone on a ride. When I stopped at the red light, I saw the bike in front of me. But when the lights turned on, I was surprised, instead of straight, Brother Ryan turned to the right. "She's tired. But I didn't go home."

~•~

Tonight I was watching television that broadcast a movie that I could not watch in the cinema. I've brought popcorn and 2 bottles of canned drinks to accompany me. Mama and Papa have been sleeping since an hour ago. It's already night. The complex streets are deserted.

Because tomorrow is off, I can watch a movie until late at night. I just woke up 2 hours ago. So how could I possibly go back to sleep. Suddenly my stomach rang, a sign that I was hungry. I ate with Mom and Dad. I had to go to the kitchen to make my favorite rendang noodles. When I returned to the living room, I heard someone knocking on the door. Who has been visiting night.

He kept knocking on the door. Makes me walk towards the door. If you say I am afraid, I am afraid. Yes, if he's a good man, if he turns out to be a robber. Before I opened the door, I peeked out of the window. "Sister Ryan" I said as I watched him standing at the door of the house still in his uniform. He also looked at me and told me to open the door.

My mind went everywhere. There must be something that makes Brother Ryan come to my house these nights. When I opened the door, he pulled me out of the yard. "Big brother why?" manywould be concerned. I can see that Ryan's sister's face is hiding something. Like there was a burden he kept.

"Gue ask to break up, deck."

World stopped. I looked at him who was also looking at me. His eyes implied that he was not lying with his words. My lips were frozen to ask why. Only a drop of water can come out.

"A big cry" he said in a tone of voice I had never heard. He's not the Ryan I know. He's not my prince. I don't know what creatures are possessing them. Makes him a monster.

"This is not the brother Ryan I know," I said, finally able to make a sound.

"Yes. I'm no longer the brother Ryan you know. I'm no longer prince lo."

I laughed with tears that kept coming down even though I had erased them. "Sister is funny. Tell me to believe we'll be together forever. But what the truth is, my own brother made my trust collapse. I'm stupid too. He wanted to be told to the same people who even at that time did not know me for long. Thank you, for all you have ever loved. I'm sorry, I can't turn back my wasted brother's time, just for this whiny chick."

After saying that, I ran into the house. Crying behind the door with both feet I held. It hurts when the person I love has turned into a monster. I don't know if she was possessed or cursed by the wooden girl's mother. But all I know is that he is no longer my prince.

~•~

"Former, nye."

I think deleting both photos on Instagram is something I should do. Why am I still posting it if we just broke up.

"Lo must have cried after being cut off," said Yuli who could not be cheered. It does. I cried all night because of that. I've tried not to cry, but still, my tears are too eager to come out to shed sadness.

"Gue was sure, Ti, Brother Ryan couldn't be as bad as you," said Jihan who immediately ignited me.

"Gue also believes that what you say is impossible" I said. I don't want to hear Jihan improving Ryan's sister. Because obviously, that guy hurt me so much that I hated him. To the extent that I prayed with God, so as not to meet and deal with the guy anymore.

"Sister Ryan must have had a reason why he asked to break up."

"Gue knew the reason. Because he is the same as me. That's enough, you don't be okay with him in front of me. Because in fact, 2 days ago he asked to end the relationship in a bad way. I want to fuck her, Han."

"Lo sure, Ti? How do I see that actually you still have the same taste Brother Ryan. I also see, you still hope that 2 days ago it was just a dream."

I'm speechless. Come to think of it, Jihan's words have a point. This morning, I still hope that 2 days ago it was just a dream. My race for him is still the same.

Maybe it's just because I still don't accept what's happened. I should have convinced him that night that we could still be together. If it feels like it's gone, I should have told him that I'd give it back. Not even assented.

"Ti, how come you cry?" said Dita who sat in front of me. My best friend is the most attentive one. He was always the first to know what I was feeling. My hand was held by him. Yuli who was sitting next to me hugged me. They all told me to stop crying. But I can't. These tears just came out.

"Thickness of what Jihan said. I still love Ryan. It still feels the same. Every time I remember that night, I wish it was just a dream. But my hope is stupidity. Until anytime, that hope will never be granted," I said as busily. I bodo very closely watched people passing the gazebo. Most importantly, I can tell you what I'm doing. In fact, if Brother Ryan sees me crying, I'm not ashamed. He also told me that I was a crybaby.

"Udah, Ti. Don't cry" said Dita who also hugged me. They are all my best friends. There were times when I was in trouble accepting destiny.

~•~

I just posted a photo of the sky so bright, the results of my shot this afternoon on the roof of the house. I said, "Say the sky, it's been raining enough in the last few days. The sky also says it's time to get back to light."

I hope Brother Ryan sees the post and understands what I mean. That I had given it up and would no longer wish for something impossible. I have also made the decision to no longer be in contact with him. Like keeping your distance or even pretending not to be familiar. I think it's the right decision. He decided on me in a bad way, then I will forget about it in a bad way.

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