Fitria The Girl With Cheeks
The Part 46
Seeing Ahmad who was just speechless while staring at him with teary eyes made Fitri feel full. The way Ahmad looked at him seemed to convey many things. Fitri knew Ahmad's feelings for her very sincerely. From the past until now, it is very visible that Ahmad's feelings never change. Fitri knows and thanks for that, Ahmad makes her feel very loved. But Fitri did not love Ahmad either then or now.
Fitri took a deep breath trying to continue his words "But my Mad now already has a girlfriend, I love my boyfriend, he also treats me very well, he also treats me very well, and I feel happy with him. I'm sorry if I misunderstand you, but your treatment has always shown that you want our relationship more than just friends" Fitri sighed softly.
"For example, you just want to be friends with me, I would be happy to be friends with you. But it might be difficult for us to meet in person. But if what you want is a relationship that is more than just a friend I'm sorry, I can not and maybe after this we will not even be able to make friends again" said Fitri firmly. Fitri must provide clear boundaries between his relationship with Ahmad so that in the future there will be no unnecessary misunderstandings.
Hearing the words of Fitri who could not even befriend him made Ahmad aghast. Ahmad felt afraid, Ahmad did not want to lose Fitri again. 2 years without news of Fitri made him suffer greatly, 2 years of life without Fitri in his life, and his life, making Ahmad live like an empty shell. Making him have no hope and purpose, Ahmad could not if he had to live his life without Fitri in his life.
Ahmad took a deep breath trying to reveal his heart.
"Although I really want to know the reason you used to mutusin our relationship, but from now on I will not make you to explain the reason again. Because you are not willing to explain it means it is quite heavy to explain. And you must have your own reasons why you don't want to explain everything to me. You don't need to apologize because I never get angry or hate the same lo. I admit I was confused when you mutusin I did it for no reason, then after that you disappear just like that. For 2 years you have no news there is no 1 day I can menggelupain lo. People say it's just a monkey's love, a child knows what the hell about love" Ahmad laughed heartily at the words of those around him.
"They said one day I would definitely eat you. At first I thought so too. Maybe after the time has passed little by little I can forget and let go. But the reality day after day, I actually miss lo Ri more, Lo shadow is actually getting stronger in my memory, lo smile, lo laugh, lo cry, frown, lo frown, all of your expressions are firmly embedded in my memory. For 2 years I lived like an empty shell losing my purpose and hope. I got to the confusion of my feelings to lo it's love or obsession" Ahmad paused his words.
Fitri who heard the words of Ahmad felt touched, he did not expect it turned out that he was loved so deeply. Fitri did not expect it turned out for Ahmad his presence became so very meaningful. But even so Fitri still can not give any hope to Ahmad. For Fitri at the moment there is only Andi in his heart.
"Gue I admit all this time I am trying to deketin lo again, I admit I also hope we can reverse it again. But if you are not willing I will not make a meaning, whether my feelings to lo it's love or obsession let it be my business. The feeling that I have had for 5 years will not be able to remove it. But I promise from now on I will not try to disturb your relationship with your boyfriend, nor will I intentionally damage your relationship. At least let me to be able to remain friends with you, I will not often disturb you, just let me for occasional news. As long as you still have a boyfriend, I will not intentionally come to you. But when you need me, whenever and wherever I will always be there for you. Let me stay in my position, staring at you from a distance. Do not force me to disappear from your life, because I will never be able to" said Ahmad, after revealing all the contents of his heart Ahmad felt relieved, all the words that he had been damming all along he could finally reveal to Fitri.
Fitri just heard in silence. Unknowingly tears trickled down her cheeks, Fitri quickly wiped away her tears.
After being silent for a long time Fitri stood up "Gue go first yes, Kasian Dayu has been waiting for a long time outside" said Fitri saying goodbye.
Ahmad also stood "Lo go first, I still want to sit here for a while" said Ahmad slowly.
Not long after that Fitri also welcomed Ahmad's hand "Yes see you again" replied Fitri lowered his head, not daring to look into Ahmad's eyes.
"Let me hug you one time" Pinta Ahmad full of hope.
Fitri was about to refuse, but Ahmad who knew of Fitri's answer immediately embraced Fitri regardless of Fitri's answer. Fitri tried to release Ahmad's embrace but was unsuccessful because Ahmad hugged him tightly.
"Please, just for a moment, let me hug you for a moment" Please Ahmad broke up.
Fitri who heard Ahmad's voice that was like going to cry stopped rebelling, and resignedly let Ahmad embrace him.
Seeing Fitri who stopped rebelling, Ahmad tightened his embrace and swiped his head between his shoulders and Fitri's hair. Although Fitri was surprised, Fitri did not push Ahmad. Ahmad breathed in as much air as he could, as if he wanted to save Aroma Fitri as much as possible. Fitri who was already uncomfortable was trying to encourage Ahmad. Although not willing Ahmad with a heavy heart to release his embrace.
Dayu who had noticed the interaction between Fitri and Ahmad from the glass window outside was quite shocked when Ahmad embraced Fitri, but saw the expression of the bad of both of them. Dayu understands maybe it was a farewell hug.
"Gue goes" Pamit Fitri without looking at Ahmad.
"Yes" replied Ahmad lirih, did not take his eyes off Fitri. Ahmad continued to stare at Fitri until Fitri was not seen again.
"Gue hope you always live happily Riri" Bisik Ahmad sincerely with eyes full of meaning.
