False Passion (Selfish Marriage)

14. Benn is Sick

A black sedan car slid through the highway almost midnight. Walk fast and straight because the road is empty. The driver who did not bring a friend wanted to get to his parents' house immediately. Although in fact the old man had already fallen asleep by the time he reached their residence.

Tin...!! Tin..!!Tin...!! Tin..!!

The vehicle driven by Benn let out repeated honking and noise. No matter if the security of the post guard is on standby who certainly saw his arrival. The night watchman at the gate was flushed open the gate for Benn.

As expected, the house was deserted. The old man pulled over into the bedroom. It was appropriate, for it had been twelve o'clock at night and had exceeded a few minutes.

The elderly residence in the center of the capital, adjacent to the restaurant and hotel owned by Mr. Harsa-Benn's father. Not so big but a comfortable residence that is very dear to the mother.

Because of the modern tiny house, the mother so rarely visit the villa house at the top. Only once in a few months will they visit and stay overnight there.

And it was Benn who was forced to regularly visit, at least once a month there. Yes, since the only son was converted, no longer found any woman, feeling lazy and useless to often go to his family Villa. Once upon a time still crazy and wild, almost every week Benn visited Villa with different women.

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The Harsa family's breakfast was complete this morning. Mother, father and son seem to sit sweetly enjoying their meal on their own plates. The mother was happy because her wayward son came as ordered yesterday.

"How can you pick a wife who isn't so obvious, Benn,,?" ask mom with a dislike tone.

Benn looked at Donha's mother after drinking water in her glass. Putting spoons and forks on the plate.

"The name is Sterilia Diajeng.. Eril. She doesn't have a family, but it's very clear where she came from, ma." Benn stared at the faces of his parents who looked astonished alternately.

"Obviously how did it come from, Benn,,?" my mom seemed to want to know.

"Mama certainly did not expect,, Eril is the son of Bina Amanah, ma, Lee's personal family foundation in Surabaya, " explained Benn will be from Eril to his parents. My mom was very surprised to hear that. The same thing with the reaction that the papa pointed at him later.

"So Eril's the same foundation as your sister, Desta, Benn,,?!" ask mom enthusiastically.

Benn nodded, "Yes, ma. But I don't understand if they know what they don't" Benn said, looking at his mother.

"How do you know this, Benn,,?" my mom asked back.

"Mama knows, I put that ad. Eril was also my suitor. His data is on me, ma," Benn said.

"That means Eril is the same as our foster children in other foundations, ma,," heard Mr. Harsa suddenly.

"Whoa, pa.." replied mama Donha still seemed astonished.

Not expecting if Benn's applicants are foster children from Lee's large family foundation which is located in Surabaya. Same place with the origin of Desta, Benn's former wife who is now the daughter-in-law of the Lee family in Japan.

And actually Desta is Benn's own newly discovered adoptive cousin after adulthood by master Lee and his son Leehans. Leehans later married Desta, Benn's former fiance and future wife.

"Benn, you chose Eril, right? If so, marry the girl well and quickly. Remember, don't you try to hurt Eril yeah, Benn," the mother said later.

"Leave immediately your shameful habit, Benn. Be willing to play with fellow men. You should be able to keep your pride in front of your wife later, Benn," the mother continued.

"Remember your nature, Benn. Your religious law is used... You are like a child who has never studied religion, does not understand religion and is blind to religion. Even though you were also diligent, Benn." Mr. Harsa spoke while looking intently at his son.

The person being spoken to did not reply, just lowered his head silently while playing the spoon and fork. Reflecting on the father's words about him. Feel no longer resistant to the assumption of the closest people who continue to corner.

Benn is increasingly aware, not only parents who have considered themselves deviant. Maybe every understanding person has considered himself no longer normal and disorder. Benn actually felt ashamed of himself and was so tormented.

And at this time Benn is no longer strong to suffer his body alone.

"Ma, pa, I want to be honest about something to you. About me, ma," Benn said slowly and uninspiredly.

Mama and her father looked at each other for a moment and then looked back at the son full of question marks.

"Honest about something, what is it, Benn,?" ask the mother in a worried tone.

"But mom and dad don't panic after I tell them, yeah," Benn told them.

Benn's parents looked at each other again and felt increasingly curious and worried. His mother then nodded, while the father just silently looked carefully at the face of his son.

"sick,,?! what pain are you, Benn,,?!!" asked her mother, very surprised and panicked. He felt like his son seemed okay all along.

"I'm impotent, ma," said Benn very softly. With their response later.

"What, Benn,,?!!"

"What are you doing, Benn,,??!!"

Mama asked loudly followed by the question of the father who was no less harsh. Feeling that their ears are not functioning properly and are hearing wrongly.

"All you heard was right, ma, pa, pa,,. Mine can't function anymore," Benn said. Wish the two old men were a little wise and didn't really call it more special.

"When's that been, Benn,,?" this time it was Mr. Harsa who asked Benn.

"It's been a long time, pa. Almost three years," resigned Benn replied.

"Haaahh??!! Right, Benn,,?!!" benn's parents almost simultaneously exclaimed and asked.

"Why can it be like that? Didn't you used to be a female player, Benn,,,?" my mother's voice sounded slow. Panic and pity for the son. Mrs Donha was very worried and sad. At the same time do not believe in the fact of the disease told by Benn himself.

"Yes, ma. After I regretted almost doing a jerk to Desta, I completely repented. I don't have any more women. And as you know, I'm gonna change a lot to bring a guy."

Benn speechless. As if hesitant to continue speaking.

"Explain it again, Benn. Why did you turn out to take men,,?" her mother asked very gently. Like persuading a boy to tell a whole story at that time. Benn seemed to nod and connect the explanation.

"Not touching a woman at all suddenly it's sometimes heavy too, ma. If that wish comes, I hire a male masseuse. And it still happens to this day. I'm addicted to massages. Pure is only massaged, not plus-plus as you have often accused me of all this time. I've repented." Benn leaned back to the seat ending his explanation.

"So, your shot couldn't stand up and it didn't work, Benn,,?" ask the father carefully. Now he is confused by his son's suffering.

"Yes, pa," said Benn so lethargic.

"So, you're not interested in women anymore, are you,,?" ask the father carefully.

"That my feelings and thoughts are normal, pa. That's all I don't react to." said Benn quickly. Understand his father's mind.

"Benn, you need to have a special doctor right away. Mama will accompany you to seek treatment or therapy until you recover completely and you are normal again. You don't have any kids, Benn. Who will be the successor of the Harsa Irawan family,?!" mama Benn said stirring.

Very worried if the vital pain in the only boy will be acute and permanent..

"I'm tired of therapy and consultation, let alone taking medicine, ma." Benn explained later. Responding to her mother's strong desire.

"So, it'll be permanent, Benn,,? What's the doctor saying, son,,?" the anxious face was clearly drawn on that beautiful middle-aged face.

"Maybe I'm having a psychological disorder. It could be that I'm going to recover suddenly, ma'am," said Benn doubtfully. Not sure about his future because of the embarrassing pain he suffered.

"Benn," call Mr. Harsa. Benn looked straight at his father.

"You should pray hard, Benn. Don't despair. There will be a miracle. We will also pray for you. Maybe it has something to do with your behavior in the past. Either one of your girlfriends is hurting with you. It might be something like that, Benn," master Harsa advised his son in a sad voice.

Benn was silent again. Acknowledging the truth of his father's words.

"Mama is sad, Benn... Hiccups,,hik,,hik.. Then how, then,,? Doesn't your future wife have a right to know about you, Benn, too,,?" asked the mother in between her sobs.

"Benn, if it's like this, papa won't force you again to find a wife. You can take medication first until healed. Papa will not be willing if you will be humbled by your wife, Benn," Harsa said solemnly and firmly.

"I'll just get married, Dad. It'll be my own business, ma,pa... Please mom and dad keep this secret from anyone.." Benn said earnestly looking at his parents. They nodded later.

"Good, Benn. I hope your wife will accept your situation and help you heal, Benn," said Donha.

"If you don't recover after you have a wife, you'll be taken to Japan. There we will be therapy until you recover completely. You can't refuse. It's related to papa's successor, Benn." Mr. Harsa said firmly and seriously. Don't want to take the pain of his son playfully..