Falling Into Security

Advice from old friends.

Already entering the age of marriage to 2 years, well, it can be said there has never been a commotion between me and my husband Mas Bambang during the household life, so far, although living our domestic life is classified as simple, but it does not reduce my love for my husband, Mas Bambang Ku beloved, love for my husband seems increasingly felt, as if, although at first I did not feel the slightest love for my husband, but now the love seemed to come by itself, the attention and affection that my husband always gave, as if covering everything, as if to cover everything, so that what is now is my sincere love and affection for my husband, my love for my husband makes me forget all my dislike for my husband. Now everything feels so beautiful and happy.

However, there is one thing that makes me feel sad, which is because my husband and I have not been given a baby, that sometimes makes me feel very sad, I feel as a wife, she said, I have not been able to make my husband feel happy, because I have not given him a child, but luckily my husband Mas Bambang always gave me encouragement, never once did he make me feel a wife who did not make him happy, instead he always said, if I am very grateful to have a wife like me, I am, because I never demanded anything from him, I always looked relaxed, there was money or no money, so he always felt grateful to have me, so I also felt the same, very grateful to have a husband like Mas Bambang, kind, honest and considerate.

Honestly, Actually I am very close to seeing my husband, because indeed as a husband, Of course Mas Bambang my husband is very expecting the presence of children at his side, but what to say, I want to say, all seems to be right to submit to the above, because no one is more powerful and entitled to give, other than Allah SWT, so my husband is so calm in living a household life with me. It's just that sometimes I see him so happy, fit again play together with the children of the next door neighbor, it means it has proven that I must expect and want a child from me, it means, it just doesn't make me feel sad.

Until one time I met my old friend when I went to the boarding school first, when again there was an event meeting fellow pesantren alumni, all of whom the pesantren graduates were invited, starting from the first santri, until the santri who graduated this year, everything was so happy, maybe because it had not met for a long time, so the atmosphere of the day was very encouraging, very encouraging, I myself feel so happy, because I met my best friend who was named Weni, Weni is a friend who always faithfully shared both joy and sorrow when I was in the boarding school first, yes now already have two children, funny funny, let alone a small, very adorable face, similar to a Korean-style face, white and narrow-eyed, maybe nurun Weni time yes, yes, you see, there is still Chinese blood, if not wrong from his mother.

Emang Weni married at a young age, so graduated from boarding school, he immediately married, but apparently also had a long time to have children, after 3.5 years of marriage, if I value the hell, but apparently also a long time to have children, emang was too young when he married, he married at 16 years old, pass Mts, if I say yes it was married because I can not take it anymore, already Ngerenyam (Ngerenyam is, if I say yes it is married because I can not take it anymore, the overwhelming itching that cannot be held) wants to be quickly married, in fact it violates the rules of the marriage Constitution, because marriage is underage, but if according to religious law it does not matter, yes, because there is no limit to the age of women to get married, only if for me anyway, it is too young plant seeds, so it takes a very extra effort, if you want to quickly bear fruit, if you want to bear fruit, even then must often be given fertilizer, otherwise it will fail to harvest time yes, hehehe.

We talked a lot about the life of the household, until I said sad words to him, making him feel sorry for me. Who is not sad try, has been married for a long time but has not been given a baby, even though my husband and I have been very anxious to have children, because indeed our age is supposed to have children, especially my husband who is much older than me, certainly he really wants children, he certainly really wants children, while his best friend who is one class from his, already there is a High School, there are even already college, while he does not have it, so it is impossible if my husband is not sad, so it is not, it's just that he never showed me his sadness.

"Udah how long have you been married Maya ?'' Ask Weni to me.

"Well, two years more Wen, but I haven't been given any children, sometimes I like to be sad to see my husband, maybe it's his regret to me, but because love is greater than resentment, so it is as if to consider it not too unsettling, another case with me Wen, I feel very sad, as if, I'm so scared that I can't give him a descendant. My answer is sad for my friend.

''You don't have to be sad first, I've also been married for a long time and have had children, even up to 3 years and a half, it has made me nervous May, mending your husband is not too maxain you, even 3 years and a half, if my husband is very bad May, kebayang not really lo May, if until the cave is not pregnant pregnant, yes will leave me, and remarry with another woman, how not to worry try, do not worry, at first I felt almost hopeless, fortunately I had a friend who actually I went to a specialist obstetrician, because he said no one did not succeed in treatment with him, he said, average treatment with her, everything worked, so I tried to follow her advice, and finally I got pregnant, maybe I'm one example for you, because if we want to try, if we want to try, Insha Allah Maya, if Allah wills, then easily all things happen, sure that nothing is impossible in this world, if you want me to show you the address, then I will, well that's if you want May.

''I really want Wen, speaking of her address where ?'' I asked her so eagerly to my best friend, because I really wanted to have children, especially after someone said that I was a barren woman, it made me worry even more.

''Kamprett lo Wen, where am I. Maya sebel the same Weni, still had time to cheat me, interrupted between the hardness of my heart.

"Hmmm, I'm also Wen, really what you say, I try first, who knows it works, later I try to talk to my husband, the next time he wants to take me there, very sad wen, squirming those who already have children, some have children 2, Some have children 3, Some have children 4, Some have children 4, while I 1 was not there yet, I would be sad wen, it feels really insulting to have my life, if to treat with village shamans, do not often say, say, even sometimes like to be lied to too, told to drink this, told to drink it, anyway a lot of dah, the tip of the tip, failed maning.

''Elo, he wants the same village shaman, the modern dikit dong..

''It's, you know, if the business of mocking, Nyeme'eh (Nyeme'eh in Jambi means, lowering one's self-esteem, the same as mocking) It's number One, never changed, ever since, I think I haven't met in years, you've changed, uh even worse, Maya replied to her best friend.

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