Falling in Love With My Brother

Crying out

Day turns night, prayer begins, El comes out, her eyes are swollen making Rani wonder.

"Dec, is it crying?" asked Rani carefully, El shook his head slowly while bowed.

"Sick brother?" ask Rani again. Not thinking what the reason was for El to cry, he finally just nodded.

"What pain?" ask Rani again, starting to panic.

"Dizziness, but it's better" replied El seeing her brother's panic.

"Sister cariin medicine first" Rani stood up from her seat. El held Rani's hand to prevent her from leaving.

"Kan Adek said it's okay." El's lying.

"Yes already, if sick do not be in it, say-sister or mother yes" said Rani again. El nodded, in order not to be sustained. El was afraid that the others would interrogate him, El hoped that they did not know what he was talking about with Rani's sister, fortunately the others were partly inside the house, some were in the living room as well.

Nine o'clock past the event is finished, like yesterday mother told her brother to take Lila, El actually lazy to come along. But the brother forced and dragged El's hand into the car.

"Sir, yesterday was very excited to join my brother, why is today not?" ask your brother when walking to the car.

"Get up papa!" answer El ketus. Brother was surprised, because usually El like that. But since they wanted to take Lila, brother just kept quiet. Even in the car, the three of them had no voice. El pretends to be asleep to avoid a conversation or perhaps a debate between him and Lila.

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"Thank you Bim, may you be happy" Lila came down and walked into her house in uninspired steps. Brother just nodded slowly.

"Dec, tell brother why?" said brother after driving his car.

"El!" the tone of his brother's speech was high, El knew that brother had called his name meant brother was angry.

"Adek ga papa" El's voice was almost inaudible.

"Dek, brother knows adek for a long time, from adek is still a baby, adek gini will be rich if there is no reason" the words brother began to soften again.

"Truly, no papa, just dizzy" replied El again lying.

"Yes, let's just say you believe" said the desperate brother, because of El's stubborn nature, brother is sure he will not tell me what problems he is facing now on him.

El just stared at the street lights, unwilling to spill his problems on brother, there were feelings of fear, shame, anger, hate, resentment.

"In the past, every long holiday we always gather, adek often made to cry with our brothers. Adek always ngadu to brother, if they jailin adek. Brother always make adek diem, adek always brother martial, adek always vent their kejailan..... Brother Seneng, adek want to share to brother" brother took a heavy breath.

"But now adek already big, adek may already have another venting place, adek may now not need protection brother again, brother tau adek now already big, already want to go to college" he said with a smile towards El.

El cried at the words of brother, for him the words of brother made him sad, brother stopped his car and looked at El.

"Heeey, even crying" the brother pulled El's hand into the brother's arms, then at the door of El's hair.

"Abang, still his brother. Brother still loves equally adek, just as rich first" brother calms El. El was unable to speak any more, he only felt comfort in his arms.

"The tears in his eyes were removed first, ntar mother ngira brother evilin adek, until making adek nangis" brother smiled and then took a tissue and wiped El's tears.