END OF LIFE THE LITTLE GIRL WHO IS ALWAYS IN THE BULLY

END OF LIFE THE LITTLE GIRL WHO IS ALWAYS IN THE BULLY

part 22 (Stuck in Benny's Love)

Benny tried to unbutton my shirt, while I let it go, my heart wouldn't allow it but my passion took sides.

I pat Benny's hand, I guide his hand to stay coiled around the waist. But the finger remained silent, still creeping in search of what he wanted.

With Benny's fingers on my sensitive chest, he gently felt my twin mountains. For a moment my eyes closed. My lips were slightly open until I saw a row of white and neat teeth.

Me and Benny are still stuck in the delights of lust, Benny's wild fingers continue down the curves of my body.

The dim lights of the garden lights add to his romantic tonight, suddenly my eyes open I remember Dessy. I pushed Benny's body and he was a little surprised "Oh my goodness what time is it?" tanyaku.

"At eight" Benny said.

"We have to go home now, I'm afraid Dessy is worried that I haven't come home yet" I asked.

"Yes let's go home" Take Benny while grabbing his jacket on the park bench.

I tidied my hair, I grabbed the bag that was next to Benny's jacket.

Benny's motor drove through the dim night, overtaking cars from endless traffic jams.

Along the way, Benny and I kept quiet, starting out of nowhere if we wanted to talk. I am confused as to how I feel now ? And why did that happen until I experienced, is this love? Ah I don't think so. I never really liked what Benny had.

Then why did me and Benny kiss? isn't that kiss only done by people who are dating? Me and Benny aren't dating. I don't put any taste in Benny, I'm sure it's just one loss.

Until I and Benny get in front of my boarding fence, I get off Benny's bike. For a moment I faced her face without looking into her eyes "Thank you for being delivered" I said, bowing slightly.

"Dina, how do you feel?" Ask Benny.

"I'm sorry I'm tired can I come in now?" I asked back without answering Benny's question, Benny nodded softly.

Without a second thought I quickly opened the fence and entered the door of my boarding room, I opened the door and quickly entered. I put the bag on a small table next to the bed.

Quickly I entered the bathroom, I dated all the clothes that were attached to my body. I can't stand it like quickly I wash all my body, I flush my whole body with water. I scrub with soap foam, I want to clean all the dirt stuck in my body. I don't know why I feel disgusted by my own body.

I didn't feel like crying, I felt so guilty. I remember the same Father and brother, O Allah forgive Your servant. I have sinned.

After taking a bath I wudhu, I wash the hands of the mouth nose face with solemnity. I hope all the sins I committed earlier will go flowing with the water of ablution, Lord I am so sorry.

I have the title of prayer mat, I wear my face I perform penitential prayer two rokaat. After that I pray ashar magrib and isya, finished greeting I lift my hands I ask for forgiveness to God the ruler of life.

My tears welled up, there was a longing to infiltrate my heart. I miss my family and my hometown.

But I know I have to be strong, this is just a small part of the trials in life. I still remember the message mamah, as heavy as temptation is the temptation of orgasm.

Every human being is endowed with desire in orgasm, only man must be able to control all of it. Do not get mastered by the desire of the devil who always wants to plunge.

I'm trying to close my eyes, I want amnesia for what happened tonight. I am sure God will forgive my error, provided I do not repeat it again.

Abused.

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At exactly seven o'clock I just got into class, I almost had a bad time. I am thankful that I know God still loves me.

After college, I rushed home as soon as possible. If my eyes don't want to look to my left and right, I want to walk straight ahead in which direction I want to go.

Like the beginning of my intention to study at this campus, I do not want to be affected by anything that can damage my desire to reach my mind.

"Dina!" I heard someone yelling at me from behind, I heard that voice. I didn't see that I was walking fast.

I felt someone grab my hand from behind, "Dina why are you avoiding? I want to talk".

"Ben, there's nothing we need to talk about, I'm sorry"

"OK maybe now you don't want to talk, I should be the one apologizing. But please give me a letter to talk, whenever you want"

"Darling!" Suddenly there was a sound from the side, a little girl running towards me and Benny.

I'm trying to get Benny's hand off my wrist.

"Plaakk" Suddenly the girl's hand landed right on my cheek.

Benny's.