Dusk Grey

Dad's in your mom's pinch

think about what I said earlier

all for your good

Clear, reminding me through a message

thanks

I put my body in a comfortable mattress, the rain speck makes the air feel cooler. I reflect on what this afternoon Bening told me. I know it can't be forever on my own. But to commit, I haven't been able to. There are still many things I want to do without having to be bothered by tetekbengek.Toh I am still 23 years old, although indeed many are married. But I still want to be alone, I want to fall in love at the right time. I don't know when that will happen.

I picked up a notebook and a pen near the tv. A book that always accompanies me when I am sad or happy, a book that listens to what I feel.

that ego is me, that is me,

if I wanted to be alone

that ego is me, that is me,

if I don't have a heart

that ego is me, that is me,

if I can't love

me, I don't know why I am

is there still love that holds me

is there any sense that still surrounds me

I don't know why my heart is locked

I hope the key comes when I start flowering

                                            * last twilight*

Tonight my mind is moving through the night, with a still faithful drizzle accompanying. Why does this feel so heavy to me. It feels strange, and almost impossible. Back glazed clear speech, I was too closed and insensitive. Am I that cute? has anyone been silent all this time watching me. But who??

I made sure I didn't think about it anymore, because I didn't want to have nightmares about what Bening said to hypnotize me like this.

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This morning, the sun was still shy when I left for work. Yes, because all night the rain fell with the mesraanya. make the sun still covered with cold air. I step foot as usual, and I'm not depressed by what I said yesterday. I am more relaxed today, because no bad dreams come to my sleep.

I do my job as usual. All I've done, and I've been relaxing a little before the office employees start asking for my help.

" Have you thought about it yesterday? " the centile of Bening sitting next to me

" What the hell, not working ya ning "

" I'm sure you didn't feel well last night "

" Idih, you know "

" Tau is yes '

the clear answer that made me laugh. Another friend glanced at us who frenzied himself. Yes, although in this place many who work, but I can not just talk to others. One of his loyal interlocutors is just clear.

My time together seems very short, because some employees have alternated in the pantry to ask for help we help some work.I like my job even though only as a manual worker in this office. I didn't feel like time was passing so fast, work time was over. My tired face must have been visible from my face. The clear had gone home first.

After making sure everything was neat, I headed to the locker where my bag was. I was surprised, there was a crackle that I believed wasn't mine located in my locker. My locker isn't the one with the door, 'cause I'm a lower-class worker. I took the crackle and I saw the contents. A chocolate milk box and some sandwich. I frowned, thinking for a moment.

" Beniiing." said I suspect.

I took my handphone from my bag and I sent her a message

thanks for the bread and milk

No reply, and I'm sure it's still on the way. I'll be walking straight to my room. Because I was so tired, I rushed to get to the boarding soon.