Dusk Grey

Warm atmosphere with Bi Ima

flashbacks

                                                                                        Twilight,

I'm happy to know you, to see your every smile, your chant,

even angry with you, but all that might be soon I

remove it from my life.I'm afraid it's too far to hurt you.

afraid you're getting tormented because of my attitude, I don't even

you know, I can make you happy someday, if we keep going 

joint.

I'm sorry, if my departure has inflicted a wound on you

I'm sorry, because I can't keep my promise

sorry

sorry

sorry

                                                                                    sweety

I was still confused after reading the letter. I can't express how I feel right now. I don't understand why he broke this relationship. Yes relationship that is running 3 months. Even feeling to joke and rejoice together never happened.again I realize how usually I am, not special, maybe even created for myself.

" Mom, why do I have to lose my feelings since I was born. Why am I mom??? "

You could say I'm not so disappointed, because there's nothing special I've received since I was born. My father always looked at me with a look I could not even understand. Disappointed, angry, sick because I was the mother who died giving birth to me. I became a cold man, because I didn't get the right treatment.

My babysitter since I was a child has not been at my age for 10 years. And since then, I haven't hired any more assistants. I had to learn to be an independent woman since I was 10. I'm still lucky, because my nanny used to teach me all kinds of things to take care of the house. He didn't spoil me, I was always given the task of doing homework too.

I always thought that one day I would leave this house. Not because I don't feel right here, but because I want to get to know myself better, without having to be depressed with the cold and empty of my life. Somehow I was able to leave, but I promised myself to be happy.

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" Is it healthy? " ask Bening as we begin to sweep the room.

" It is "my answer is short while doing my job.

Today is the time to change the room in Delia's mother's room. After I finished cleaning the room I paid my respects to Bening to buy flowers as usual while putting yesterday's flowers on the pantry table.

" I bought flowers first ning "

" ati ati yes, if you walk with left right lyrics, say you dapet cute guy "

I just smiled at the clear words, and I quickly walked away from the pantry. Clear even at my age, but he is married, even though he has not been blessed with children. He always advised me to be a little interested in men. But I just returned with a smile. I walked out of my work to the fresh flower shop at the end of the street.

I immediately returned and immediately arranged the flowers with vigor. And bring him to Delia's room. He seems to have been in his room.

tok tok tok tok

" into the "

I opened the door and threw a "good morning ma'am" smile as I placed the flower arrangement on the guest table.

" Morning, thank you "

" Same mom, excuse me "

" Please "

Today I was working as usual, and at exactly 5pm I was preparing to go home as usual. The office worker came home at 4. And I cleaned the whole room after that hour, saw some employees still in the office, I'm sure they'll be overtime. I took my bag and prepared to go home.

" I want to buy you a meal "clear words startle me when the ride to the elevator.

" now? "

answered nod by Bening.

We eat siomay beside the office, yes it does not have to be luxurious, which is important to eat. Especially for a kid like me. We sat at the end of the table.

" I want to ask you something "say clear

" So you're asking me to eat because there's something?" ask me without answering the question.

" Not really, but all "

" hmmm.and then "

" When will you close your heart? "

" Why ask ning?? "

" Yes, because I think you need to be happy, need something to bring another color to life, you deserve to be loved and loved "

" I haven't thought about it yet, I still want to be alone. I also feel that no one is interested. "

" There must be nja, only you who are insensitive and more shut down. You can definitely do "

" Thank you, I'll fall in love at the right time. Believe "

" Surely, I'm sure you'll be happy "

After we finished eating, we went home to each other. And along the way, I thought of Bening's words.

I am insensitive and shut myself down

Am I really not sensitive?? am I too closed like I said clear??? haven't I been acting normally all this time??

Ahh.. I'm the one who got too carried away by Bening's words maybe.