Drizzle Dusk

Love Yourself #episode19

" The baby's gone ,, "

dusk said to strengthen himself

" i'm sorry I can't take good care of him. sorry.." looks like dusk was really hit by this.

" it's okay , everything's gonna be fine.quiet down.."

Ryu tried to calm the mood.

" now the baby is no more..,

" there's no reason to be together anymore."

"apaaaaaa." said Ryu lirih.

like believing all this. So fast and endless all these events in Ryu's life.

" we'll just split up." said twilight.

" you can be free to live your life, and I'll ask you to help take care of our divorce.

Ryu's body seemed limp without energy hearing the word twilight.

He spoke so straightforwardly and firmly.There was no doubt there.

" i follow if that's what you want.. "

a steady nod of twilight looked at Ryu face with certainty.

The twilight hand now tightly grasped Ryu's hand which was returned with a tight grip there.

" you will recover and be healthy" Ryu said.

" daijobu. I pray that you are happy.."

*i'm fine.

The last words of twilight seemed to slice the inner ngurus Ryu just like that.

blissfully.

what happiness is like, what,

how happy, how,

happy that even Ryu himself did not know since when he could find.

All he knows is that he is happy

when passing every moment together at dusk.

this woman, this woman,

the young are narrow-minded.,

a woman with such a broad heart,

kindness.

able to change the entire life of Ryu that feels empty, dry, blurry .

ever since she came in her life , her mama has always been smiling and her life spirit is back high., her grandfather and papa, have been sitting and laughing together,

the warm family that you want has been created because of it.

In the face of tasteful clinging Ryu kissed the twilight forehead as a sign of separation.

" i respect your decision., I.,

you will have to live your life well.."

accompanied by nods and hugs because of sobbing Isak.Ryu now moved from her chair.

outside the room mama is still crying incessantly.This Javanese family seems to have known what will happen next.

divorces.

this is the decision that was taken at night.

though with tears and hundreds of arguments papa and mama.

still, the twilight who chose and determined his own life. Ryu was still hugging the limp body of mama from the side.

as if the power of the woman saw her son will fate like this.

in a warm hug and a kiss of affection on her cheek, Mama let go of Ryu.

papa who could not say another word, occasionally wiped the tears behind his glasses.

so did my mother-in-law who loved dusk so much.

papa I said firmly there. that forever dusk is his son-in-law.like knowing the secret behind the secret of the twilight heart.Papa-in-law felt there was something behind the eyes of twilight.

Papa Sata's.

he does have a detective soul, a smart and deft man is indeed a man of the idol of twilight.

They each went home.

in the car the father who saw his wife was still wiping tears immediately said.,

" let's not cry.

son-in-law is fine.he will be healthy and our grandchildren will be healthy, too,."

as if shocked by the words of the father. ,

mama just replied, though,.

" this papa, use another word if you want to entertain me.astaga.."

" you think I'm kidding or something.."

said an upset papa who did not get a follow-up response from mama.

In another corner, Ryu still looks sad behind the glass of his luxury car.

stopping in the middle of a crossroad on the Ginza highway, dozens or even hundreds of people with various kinds of activities crossed the road. passing zebra cross that never seemed lonely from the crowd.

Lights glittered around every corner, billboards and billboards along Ginza's street corner as if to enliven the atmosphere of the night.

the sponsor who appeared on the big screen at the corner of the road, not one bit attract Ryu's attention.

The roar of the booming noise on the streets of the city that never sleeps, storing a thousand sorrows in Ryu's heart.

the booming phone is ignored many times by her.Chat and message friend Ryu friend who asks her to come to the casino or spend time at her favorite bar Kindergarten again important to her.

Standing on a corner of the red Agastuma bridge and looking at the river, he distanced himself from the hustle of the city center, standing at the same spot as he had quarreled with the twilight the other day , he's here now, but this time no longer fighting.

but separated.

in the light of a match again to light the cigarette.whether the cigarette to how much it has been smoked. Until papa's voice broke in the silence of the night changed that morning.

asking Ryu to go home at the house of papa and mama, Ryu can only obey the two parents.

in the slow pace of the car, break the dim night atmosphere that treads the dawn.

the road looks lonely and sad.just raise the volume of the radio in his car that is heard slowly chanting songs from the legendary band in Japan OOR.

**Bokura ga deatta hiwa,futari ni totte ichibanme no kinen Subeki hidane, etc,

Kokoro kara aiseru Hito,

kokoro kara itoshii Hito ,

Kono bikini ai no mannaka ni wa,

Itsumo kimi ga iru kara**..

*The first day we met should be a historic day for us huh,,

And today should be our second historic day..

* The person I love sincerely.,

the person I love sincerely.,

in the deepest depths of my love, this,,

there is always you..

The song seemed to depict the feeling and represent Ryu's heart this time, not feeling tears dripping down his cheek.

°°°

That afternoon papa was in a koi fish pond, in the corner of the shady house and asri.miliknya., his.,

the sound of water still feels so soothing to the soul.

Ryu, who is still wearing a t-shirt and a messy face, signifies that he will be taking a leave of absence for several days.

papa who was wearing a low buttoned shirt asked him seriously.

" the daughter-in-law is going home in Indonesia, she has had a rough day in her life,.

he would be calmer there., "said papa . sighing in relief, it was like being a calm one's own bath for Ryu to hear it.

" had something happened before." asked papa.

" mama said, you guys had a fight before." papa suspected. "

"no, just a little misunderstanding., "

" hhhhahhahahaaa" papa's voice broke with his laughter.

" come on, papa,, "

" i already know for sure that's the case, you don't have to lie to me. You're just a lizard, I'm the crocodile hahahhahhahhaahaa" papa is getting more and more.

" had pa, papa thought I was stupid or something" Ryu said.

"of course you're a fool . the afterlife !! "

Ryu turned his face away.

" he left you because you had hurt him. Otherwise, let alone. must be cheating you're stupid."

" Erika's coming." said Ryu

" akhhhh, so yes..

it means he made a tough decision.."

"what do you mean, I don't understand.Speak clearly."

upset Ryu.

" it's obvious Ryuji Sata .he loves you."

ryu's eyes stared at his papa sharply.

go inside Ryu..

papa, who seemed to be keeping a big secret, said. ,

" foolish ugly girl, you think you can lie to papa, you lizard I am a crocodile hahahhahaha "smiling papa reminiscing about the goodness of twilight .

A week passed ,,

inside Ryu's house there is a twilight mama and mother-in-law who is cleaning twilight goods. Ryu's not in.sana. Ryu is currently on his business trip in several cities,

she's busy.

for the next 3 months, though,.

he will follow a series of launching cafe bars and pastry his, in several big cities at home and abroad.

Ryu goes through the day by filling his busy life with work, work, work and work, .for Week he returns to his normal activities to the bar and gets drunk,.

but anything that doesn't change anything in Ryu's life.

wherever he goes,

how far he is now,

wherever he stepped, he,

the shadow always follows.

lighting up enjoying a cigarette on the balcony of a hotel room and enjoying the atmosphere of the night in the middle of the city, it has become a routine before going to bed,.

with the same mind, though,

the same heart, though,.

the same love., though.,

without ever saying it, though,.

without ever admitting it, though,

this situation was really so torturing his heart, though,

not a farewell he regrets.

but every memorable meeting at dusk can never be expressed properly and correctly.

Photo by Poto on his phone, while in Bianglala in Yokohama, eating culinary in Osaka, Playing in the snow, Poto both with Kimono clothes, his favorite on Peony flowers, and his favorite ,

ryu's love for pecel.

all of this was clearly recorded in his memory.

video usg his tiny baby, video at dusk recorded Ryu riding a horse in Furano, the sound of laughter, his smile, the shiny black hair clearly visible in Ryu's eyes while closing his eyes. There was a shadow of twilight standing in the corner of the glass holding his belly that was beginning to distort,,

wearing a red lace bra back then, she looked so beautiful, her soft and smooth lips, like a whisker that Ryu wanted to kiss once again.

Ryu's sick, man,

Ryu suffers, though,.

Ryu is in love.

at dusk he decided to leave.

really get away from him.

get out of Ryu's life.