Don't Go Space

Chapters 20. A heart that will not change

Kafka POVs

Today my day was so broken when the girl I loved so much with all my heart told me that this love was an obsession. I don't know how else to get that girl to forgive me.

Now that I'm in a small lake, I want to calm my heart, I purposely dropped out of school because it's impossible for me to take lessons at a time when my heart is breaking.

I wish the Stars would be worried about my absence, but that would never be possible.

It didn't feel like the day was getting late, I decided to go home because my parents must have been looking for me, and they must have worried about me because I even turned off my phone so that no one would disturb me.

Before I went home, I decided to stop by the Star, I wanted to see the girl, what she was doing.

Right now I'm in front of the gate of the Star house, and there I see the Star who is sitting with his friends, and there is also a man named Space who says he is his lover Star.

My broken heart became more and more broken when I saw the intimacy between the Star and the man, the Star always seemed to smile at the man while to me she always looked at me with a gaze full of hatred.

I decided to leave that place immediately, because I could no longer see the proximity of the Stars and Space, which should be my current position.

The motorbike I was driving at this time had entered my yard, and there was a mama waiting for me restlessly, when mama saw me coming home she immediately smiled and approached me.

"Geez, Kafka. You make mama worried, the teacher at school called mama said you missed school, mama telepin you even your phone is not active, you go anywhere, son." Worry on my mom's face.

"Sorry, Ma. Kafka just wanted to do it myself first so Kafka matain Kafka cell phone, mama do not worry Kafka will not do anything strange really," I tried to calm mama who looks so worried.

Mama took me inside and asked me to change my clothes immediately and she also prepared food for me.

Now that I was eating with my mom, she smiled as she looked at me.

"Kafka, you know that right now your relationship and the Star is not okay, but you do not despair, if indeed the Star is destined to be your soul mate then he will definitely return to you."

I know that my mother is comforting me, and I believe in destiny, and I really hope that my soul mate will be the only Star girl I love and will never be replaced at any time.

At night as usual I sat alone on the balcony of my room, I stared at the Star in the sky that looked so shining like the Star that always shone in my heart.

I had the pretty face of the Star laughing on my phone, remembering again how happy the Star was when I expressed my feelings to her, I loved the Star instead of the Moon her twin sister the Star, Indeed they have the same face but their nature and behavior are very different.

Today I decided to leave early for school because I did not want to see the intimacy of the Star and her lover when parked later.

I arrived at school fifteen minutes early and at this time the school still seemed so quiet because not too many students had come. After parking my bike, I walked straight to my class.

Soon some of the students in our class had arrived, and a Star friend named Moza had just entered the class. I looked at Moza who was currently busy with her textbooks, I wanted to ask about the Stars but it felt so heavy.

And it turns out Moza realized that I was staring at her.

"Kaf, Lo why? Anyone want to talk to me?" Moza was like a psychic who could read my mind, I got closer to Moza and sat on the bench in front of him.

"Za, yesterday when I fought with Bintang Lo was here right? And when I go, how are the stars?"

"Yesterday when Lo left the Star had cried anyway, but thank God the Space Brother came in time, so he could calm the Star, and finally the Star was not sad anymore." And unfortunately Moza not make me relieved but instead make me hot, how not when the sad Star of Space always come to comfort him but me, what can I do, what can I do, whatever I try to do will only make him hurt and hate me even more.

Moza seemed to regret that after telling her about the Star and Space, she seemed to bow her head, but I did not want to make her feel that way, I smiled at her even though this heart was in pain.

"Thank you, Za. Take care of the stars." I immediately went back to my seat.

Shortly thereafter Star entered the class along with a man I knew the man was her lover.

"Honey I went to class first well, later you don't cry anymore well, today I have the first jam exam so I won't be able to come to wipe your tears," space said to the Star and the man even rubbed his head the Star in front of my eyes.

I could see the Star smiling at the man, and in the smile of the Star I could see how much he loved Space.

But I will never give up, I will keep trying to get again the love of the Star, the Star is mine and will be forever like that.

My eyes were perfectly rounded when I saw Space kissing the forehead of the Star and then the cheek of the girl, while the Star was not angry but she looked happy instead. After that finally Space left our classroom, and I was able to breathe a sigh of relief because I did not need to see the scene of intimacy between the two.

Right now the Star is smiling happily even though Space is no longer in our classroom, but the smile of the Star disappears when its eyes accidentally look into my eyes.

The eyes that I had seen there was a twinkle of happiness there now changed with great hatred, the Star did not even want to look so long with me, she immediately turned her face and told me with Moza.

I feel so sick, if I were a woman maybe now I've been crying, but lucky I'm a man and I can't cry in front of the crowd.